Guest guest Posted April 29, 2009 Report Share Posted April 29, 2009 thea_kronborg wrote: > so i came home and ate a nice dinner until i was full and here i am, ok, > but honestly a little dizzy. but what the hell? what is this resurgence > of diet mentality? why am i suddenly doing this to myself? i was doing > really well, eating when hungry, enjoying reasonable exercise, all of a > sudden i'm a nutcase again? Our brains tend to go back to the old and used pathways. Compare how many years you enganged in emotional eating and dieting with the amount of time you spend practicing IE. I do that when I feel this way. I can't undo 30 years of diet mentality. It will always lurk in my brain and the new ways are not firm enough for my brain to follow automatically. Regards s. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2009 Report Share Posted April 29, 2009 You're still ahead of the game, Thea, because you're aware of what you did. So glad you wrote about your experience. Just think of how many people you've touched by your transparency. On top of that, they say confession is good for the soul, and you've just done that! Each day, each hour, each minute is new. Thank God for that. You can choose what you want to do with it. We're with ya! Gracie > To: IntuitiveEating_Support > Date: Wed, 29 Apr 2009 05:27:18 +0000> Subject: old spiral> > so i have been more anxious than usual lately with regard to my dissertation, which is in a very iffy state. yesterday i woke up anxious, irritated from having slept badly, and hungry. i ate a roll. i thought about the cookie dough in the freezer, thought, "i don't actually want any of that... but what the hell". i hadn't had the slightest desire for cookie dough for a week. i can't explain why i ate it anyway, and plenty of it. then some oreos. probably about 12 cookies worth in all. > > so i thought, well, at least you're not hungry now, call it a meal and forget about it. but then part of me was whispering "and you won't need to eat the rest of the day.. so you shouldn't. and you should exercise". i didn't but i ate little things the rest of the day until midnight, when i was suddenly outrageously hungry and went out for a fast food sandwich.> > this morning i woke up feeling not at all hungry and thought ok, i'm probably not going to need to eat a lot today. partly because i really wasn't very hungry and partly because i secretly felt i should make up for yesterday. i thought i should go to the gym also, so i went to an aerobics class -- on a lousy cup of yogurt -- and almost passed out. (like, literally, ears ringing, tunnel vision...)> > so i came home and ate a nice dinner until i was full and here i am, ok, but honestly a little dizzy. but what the hell? what is this resurgence of diet mentality? why am i suddenly doing this to myself? i was doing really well, eating when hungry, enjoying reasonable exercise, all of a sudden i'm a nutcase again? how do i get out of this?> > thea > > > > > > > > > > > ------------------------------------> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2009 Report Share Posted April 29, 2009 You had one of those days. I would bet we have all had them. Please don't think of it in terms of good or bad - it was just a day with an unusual eating pattern. The Food Police are ganging up on you - don't let them. Don't feel badly about yesterday. Food is food. Not good or bad. I hope this helps get you out of the spiral! Kimberlie Subject: old spiralTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Date: Wednesday, April 29, 2009, 1:27 AM so i have been more anxious than usual lately with regard to my dissertation, which is in a very iffy state. yesterday i woke up anxious, irritated from having slept badly, and hungry. i ate a roll. i thought about the cookie dough in the freezer, thought, "i don't actually want any of that... but what the hell". i hadn't had the slightest desire for cookie dough for a week. i can't explain why i ate it anyway, and plenty of it. then some oreos. probably about 12 cookies worth in all. so i thought, well, at least you're not hungry now, call it a meal and forget about it. but then part of me was whispering "and you won't need to eat the rest of the day.. so you shouldn't. and you should exercise". i didn't but i ate little things the rest of the day until midnight, when i was suddenly outrageously hungry and went out for a fast food sandwich.this morning i woke up feeling not at all hungry and thought ok, i'm probably not going to need to eat a lot today. partly because i really wasn't very hungry and partly because i secretly felt i should make up for yesterday. i thought i should go to the gym also, so i went to an aerobics class -- on a lousy cup of yogurt -- and almost passed out. (like, literally, ears ringing, tunnel vision...)so i came home and ate a nice dinner until i was full and here i am, ok, but honestly a little dizzy. but what the hell? what is this resurgence of diet mentality? why am i suddenly doing this to myself? i was doing really well, eating when hungry, enjoying reasonable exercise, all of a sudden i'm a nutcase again? how do i get out of this?thea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 4, 2009 Report Share Posted May 4, 2009 all the replies were helpful to hear and I thought a lot about all of them. it's an brain-ingrained pattern to diet and exercise unhealthily; at least i know what it's about and that's good; and just let it go as one of those days. partly i think my acting so weird lately was due to my new gym membership. even though i'm consciously thinking that the gym is for FUN and i don't have to go unless i want to, i think the association of gyms and bad diet behavior is so strong with me, it's bringing up all kinds of weird stuff. after a pretty long stretch of eating only for hunger and not really eating in the night, i've been eating again for all kinds of reasons -- angrily, anxiously, knowing that i'm not hungry. i've weighed myself a couple times, but i know from my clothes i'm heavier and being upset about that is just perpetuating the cycle. it's hard for me to accept that i'm doing something for reasons OTHER than i think i am, but i suppose it has to be true. i guess the next thing is to try to use my awareness and either journal about my feelings before eating, or just sit with them for five minutes, something like that. find some other way to channel emotions. right? thea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 4, 2009 Report Share Posted May 4, 2009 If you are like me, you are pressuring yourself to go to the gym to get your money's worth. ? If so, maybe get a wii fit... They. are lots of fun. KnoblochSent from my BlackBerry® wireless device from U.S. CellularFrom: "thea_kronborg" Date: Mon, 04 May 2009 08:24:11 -0000To: <IntuitiveEating_Support >Subject: Re: old spiral all the replies were helpful to hear and I thought a lot about all of them. it's an brain-ingrained pattern to diet and exercise unhealthily; at least i know what it's about and that's good; and just let it go as one of those days. partly i think my acting so weird lately was due to my new gym membership. even though i'm consciously thinking that the gym is for FUN and i don't have to go unless i want to, i think the association of gyms and bad diet behavior is so strong with me, it's bringing up all kinds of weird stuff. after a pretty long stretch of eating only for hunger and not really eating in the night, i've been eating again for all kinds of reasons -- angrily, anxiously, knowing that i'm not hungry. i've weighed myself a couple times, but i know from my clothes i'm heavier and being upset about that is just perpetuating the cycle. it's hard for me to accept that i'm doing something for reasons OTHER than i think i am, but i suppose it has to be true. i guess the next thing is to try to use my awareness and either journal about my feelings before eating, or just sit with them for five minutes, something like that. find some other way to channel emotions. right? thea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 8, 2009 Report Share Posted May 8, 2009 yeah, I think you're really right. like styxia said, it is such an ingrained pattern. i just don't know why I haven't internalized the part about it not helping at all. I think i'm bouncing back a little. a few stressful things have happened and I mostly didn't eat about them, or if I did, I was aware of it. I've been trying not to weigh myself and I bought some bigger clothes, now it's getting warm here. bigger clothes really do help. thea > > Hi Thea-- Your first line " so i have been more anxious than usual lately with regard to my dissertation, which is in a very iffy state. " kind of summed it up for me. When I feel anxious I find myself reverting to old patterns of how I think I can " fix " myself and my life which of course ends up not helping at all. For me it is a way of avoiding what I feel are " bad " or " negative " emotions. > > I am glad you are exploring journaling... I think just embracing the emotions of anxiety and saying " it's okay that you are here-- i can handle you " helps-- the food is always just food nothing more. > > My best, > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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