What do you think?

[Guest guest]

Hi IE'rs

I'm effectively new to this group and love it. I'm currently

listening to Geneen Roth's CD set on what I believe is a similar

approach. Eat when you're hungry and learn what that means and find

out why you want to eat when you're not hungry. Oh and the part I

want to ignore: Love and accept yourself for you who you are right

now.

So, I've been doing this incrementally for about two weeks now and

I'm much more conscious of what I'm eating and when and WHY.

Therefore, here's my question.

Yesterday I shopped and asked my body what it wanted. I purchased

those foods. I ate those foods when I was hungry yesterday and I

felt full and knew when I was full. THEN, it was 6:00 p.m. and I was

alone and I felt like a reject for being in this condition (51, 60

lbs over my " healthy body weight " and single for 10 years). I then

proceed to the grocery store to buy food that would numb this super-

reject feeling - mission accomplished for a short period of time.

I did think: " Hey Patti, you're eating because you feel lonely and

you're trying to feel satisfied in a way eating won't help, because

you're full " But, then my other voice that says " You won't be loved

if you're overweight " told me " Uou can't be with anyone, because

you're fat, so there's no answer here for you today " .

So, you get my question: I'm eating because I'm alone and I'm alone

because I'm overweight - it's a vicious circle?? I am in Los

Angeles, after all. This theory could be a lot of B.S. Although,

I'm relatively sure I'm feeding the " alone " with food.

Any and all comments are appreciated. I've been in a 12 step group

for my binge eating for five years, and honesty will not offend me

(down 70 lbs and holding for a couple years now).

Thanks so much for reading this and sorry for the tome.

Patti