Thanks! (ttc, rel ment) - long

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Ladies,

Thank you for your kind messages. I've slowly but surely been

brewing, working through emotions, etc. over our latest arrival of

AF. I guess my overall tone is that I'm just ticked off that our

struggle with infertility continues. I've been asking God

continually what's so wrong with wanting a child to love, to hold, to

rear into a young man/woman with a beautiful heart? And while I know

the answer is " Nothing - but in My timing " , it still doesn't help

with the emotions right now. So, I continue to struggle with the

injustice of all of this when there are babies being born all over

the place to unloving parent(s). But I find comfort in knowing that

this struggle is only normal.

So, what am I going to do about it? Well, I'm making a personal

decision to focus my attention on other things - good things - things

that lift my spirit, not drown it. Things that bring out my gifts,

not stifle them. I may not be able to change our current situation,

but I can control how I respond to it. Sound familiar you Dr. Phil

fans?

Medically, I thankfully crossed paths via phone with the Chief of the

infertility clinic a few weeks ago. And come to find out, when he

received my fax which include my scan results, he was impressed with

how much I knew about my care. And he offered to meet with me to

revisit my case and get us going on the hcg trigger and anything else

that can help. Finally, I feel like I've found an attentive

professional in our clinic that can finally DO SOMETHING and not just

fart around hoping that the inadquate monitoring is just lucky enough

to nail timing.

So, my appt. w/ him is on cd12 of this cycle (a week from Tuesday)

where he'll do a scan himself, do the hcg trigger and discuss our

next plan of action. Personally, my dh and I plan on two more iui

cycles w/ the trigger shot since we know my body's responding well to

the Clomid. Unless the doc has a persuasive case for putting us on

injectibles w/ IUI afterward, we'll be ready to move onto IVF. And

we're even thinking about doing the lap/hyst that we forewent last

February to make sure everything else is OK. We'll see what this doc

says about that - my questions for him are growing by the day.

Surprise, suprise.

Thanks again for your messages - I'm back and by the length of this

message, obviously ready to talk about it. lol

Take care,

Kristi Q.

32, 1 m/c

ttc #1 (cd3 and getting geared up for IUI #4)

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Kristi Q-

I am so glad you are feeling better. Sometimes we are able to take AF in

stride, and sometimes she just does us in. You sound so wonderfully

positive and ready to fight another round or two. Go for it! It sounds

like the doc you are working with now is willing to put some effort into

specializing your care to get you the best possible chances.

We will be right here with you,

Fused UD.