RE: Re: Good Day, Morning, Evening! - UPDATE

[Guest guest]

We shall miss you while you are gone!

Have a nice visit with your mom and crew.

> Dear Andi

> Sorry, sweetie, I'm not on any MS drugs. The only meds I take for it is

> Prednisone. The only reason I was put on Prednisone is because of my severe

> asthma. So I'm lucky to take the pills. It works for both, so it just have

> to do. You're talking about shots. I'm out of here. No needles. So sorry, I

> can't give you any advice on those things. Just glad I don't do shots. I'm

> probably the only woman who runs like mad when I see a needle. So, big

> problem there. Good luck with the meds. I'm sure someone else on the group

> will be able to help you with that.

> We will definitely miss you when you're at your mom's. Hey, I'm only in the

> internet over a year, so I used to play freecell and solitaire. The freecell

> really works my poor brain. LOL

> Love to you

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> To: MSersLife

> Sent: Sun, October 11, 2009 6:43:32 PM

> Subject: Re: Good Day, Morning, Evening! - UPDATE

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> Are you on any MS therapy drug? Like Avonex, Rebif, etc.? I'm supposed to

> be switching from Rebif to Avonex b/c I couldn't get myself to take my shots

> on a regular basis. Now I can't get myself to order the Avonex. They stress

> it, I've heard some of you all stress it... I hate it, I also smoke, (my

> addiction) and I hate that too, but the patch and this Chantx I've heard

> good things about are too expensive for me. Oh I HAD medicaid, which was

> GREAT, but they cut it this year b/c of Mike's income (?) so, which just his

> insur. some things are too expensive. I believe, off the top of my head, (I

> don't have my date/address book-LIFE) I pay no more than 100 a month in

> Rx's, which isn't bad compared to alot of ppl, but enough for us,

> considering we own our home, are trying to repair our credit from our young

> and dumb years, my medical bills, etc.!

>

> A note to those in case you may notice, when I'm at my mom's, I'm off the

> grid. She has a computer, but it's a relic and I'm lucky if I get to play

> freecell! I love that aspect of bein home, even tho this will be a first

> for me, since she has moved in w/ her b/f (an awesome guy!) it won't be

> " home " , but I'm sure I'll be fine .

>

> Much love to all!

>

> Andi

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>> > Hi Andi

>> > I'm so glad to hear from you again. Keep it up sweetie. Even if you just

>> > want to cry all over the place, just as long as you don't shut down. I

>> > know, when I'm depressed, which is always, I want to shut the whole

>> > world out. It's not good for me, but at that time, I don't care about

>> > anything. So I'm glad to hear that you're still hanging on. Good luck to

>> > you and all the problems. It's so difficult to handle even the smallest

>> > problem and tension with MS, but to handle the big stuff like you, well,

>> > that takes a lot of courage. So you hang in there.

>> > Your silly friend

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>> > From: Andi Jo <boononymous@ ...>

>> > To: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.com

>> > Sent: Thu, October 1, 2009 9:31:15 PM

>> > Subject: Good Day, Morning, Evening!

>> >

>> >

>> > Hello to all, hoping this reaches u in good spirits . For this

>> > moment, I can say I am doing ok. Now, in an hour, I might start sobbing

>> > uncontrollably or throw my hands up, but I have little mantras I repeat

>> > to myself: " I am not built to break! " " One day at a time, one hour at a

>> > time, five minutes at a time. " My mom stopped by yesterday, which is

>> > rare, and we had a good talk on my porch where I broke down and admitted

>> > to my mother, who has Lupus, that I was scared and not telling her about

>> > my problems b/c I didn't want to worry her. My family comes from a VERY

>> > small town, (about 300 ppl!) with my younger brother and my older sister

>> > living there, I feel like I don't need to burden her w/ my problems too.

>> > She was married to my alcoholic abusive father for 25 yrs and now has a

>> > wonderful relationship w/ a man who is going thru galbladder surgery,

>> > and dealing w/ my sister is a full-time job, her being the definition of

>> > an enabler. Earlier this yr,

> my

>> > brother and I tried to do an intervention w/ my sis and b/c of that and

>> > my sister's choice in her relationship (HE lives with another girl,

>> > sleeps w/ who knows how many others and has been playing this outlandish

>> > game for over 7 yrs.) MY main concern was my neice and Goddaughter, but

>> > he and her addictions convinced her that I am out to get her, having

>> > nothing better to do since " all I do is cause drama " . She banned my

>> > from my neice, which still angers me, b/c she allows the child's father

>> > in her life, who is nothing short of everything defining abuse,

>> > addiction, manipulation, etc.! They (Wonderboy-b/ f- and my sis) have

>> > brought our friends, family into this, even my friends that they don't

>> > personally know and run into they have trashed me. My sister says I

>> > think I am better than everyone...my reply to her was, " all the things

>> > I've done, how CAN I be?? We are ALL no better than anyone. " Her reply?

>> > " YEAH " UH, yeah. When I suggest finding her

> faith,

>> > seeking help, she says she doesn't need it and I am dead to her.

>> >

>> > You want to know the kicker? This " boyfriend " of hers? Is my husband's

>> > brother, my brother-in-law. My husband doesnt talk to him very much and

>> > I know this drives him to the brink as well. He has also been cut off

>> > from some of his " friends " b/c of this, but it's like we say, we cannot

>> > allow ourselves to be drug down with that. Its sad to see people you

>> > know who could have a much better life if they would realize their

>> > worth, see a better way. Her addictions have turned me away from meds,

>> > I don't want to take anything that is going to put me down for days, but

>> > I know w/ my MS I NEED to slow down. OH, yeah, according to my sis, I

>> > have no idea what pain or suffering is, her Fibro is worse than Mom's

>> > Lupus or MS period, so she has to pop pills and drink herself into

>> > oblivion...hmmmm.

>> >

>> > But, that is the tip of the iceberg of my glacier of issues! I do take

>> > Effexor, 300 mg a day, which I think is alot and I hate that I'm

>> > dependant on it and my other meds, to the point that my husband and I

>> > myself battle w/ taking them regularly. I feel lately, that I have been

>> > at war w/ myself, between wanting to fight and do what I can to survive

>> > and LIVE with this disease, and other times just take the easy road and

>> > do what my sis does. But I can't even be an alcoholic cuz that makes my

>> > symptoms worse! UGH. So, I pray, do my little household things, and try

>> > to be the best person I can be...and I try to laugh everyday, even

>> > w/tears. I sometimes think, would they realize when I'm gone that all I

>> > want is our family to love one another and be at peace w/ themselves?

>> > MS is a humbling disease, I'm reminded every day that I'm not perfect,

>> > my body isn't going to last forever and neither am I, I do not take for

>> > granted any happy moment I do have.

>> >

>> > That being said, If I figure out how to post pics on here I will do so

>> > soon! Much Love to you all!

>> > -Andi Jo

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Jolie

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