my relationship is suffering because of Mr. P

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Hi guys, I'm having problems latley with my relationship with my

fiancee, I won't get into details because it's such a personal

subject to me, but lets just say things are not too well right now, I

think he's having a hard time coping with me being sick all the time,

he's told me he's depressed and doesn't know what to do for me

anymore, I'm afraid my pancreas will split us up. He's always been

very supportive, and up until now has had alot of patience, I will

admit that it isn't all him, actually it's probabaly mostly me, I

have severe mood swings that cause me to get very angry and cry for

no reason, and they have been getting more frequent, just the other

night I walked out of a resteraunt on him because I took something he

said the wrong way, of course I was mortified after and apoligized,

this is definitly not me, I used to be one of those people who was

always in a pretty good mood. I mentioned this to my primary care

doctor, about these mood swings, and he said that being in pain, and

having graves disease on top of that will cause some mood changes, so

now I'm back on Paxil, and my heart medication dose was increased to

calm my graves symptoms. I just feel as though I am such a burden to

him, even though he tells me never to feel that way, I still do, he's

such a good guy, never gets upset{unless I really push him}, and he's

very funny. I feel as though I can't give to him what I used to and

he would be better off with some younger girl who can work and go out

and eat a full meal, and who isn't a total nutcase! I suggested the

other night that maybe we should seperate for awhile, he has so much

more energy and life than I do at the moment and I don't want to

bring him down, I don't know.... I'm sure some of you have had

similar problems with relationships because of this disease, how do

we cope?

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