Its Just Shana-Im back again

[Guest guest]

Hello all.

It's been awhile since I've posted. I just wanted to wish everyone a

happy holidays and give an update on myself.

We're doing pretty good here. Lotsa changes in my life for sure! This

past summer was an experience in hell that I never want to repeat.

I'll spare you the long version, but to give you the bare facts....my

fiancee and I split up, and my cousin (who had been living with us

for a year, and had been my best friend for 10) up and

left at the end of August with no warning (she left at 2 AM) and

without paying her half of the rent. Then my purse was stolen with my

just cashed disability check and funds (including rent) for the

entire month....

I couldn't afford to live in the house I'd been sharing with my

fiancee and cousin. So I had to find, finance and move into an

apartment within a month.

And finding a place that allows dogs is quite a challenge, to say the

least.

Suffice to say it was not at all fun, but I survived. I'm living on

my own now with Spirit and Nikki (my dogs) and 4 cats, and loving it.

I had to place my husky pups ( and Dakota) with new families,

but found them wonderful homes and they are doing very well.

actually became a mommy November 1st, with a litter of 4 husky

pups...and she also adopted 3 pups that another dogs of theirs had a

few days after , and refused to care for (she actually killed

the other 3 pups in the litter) Dakota went to a home in the country,

28 acres, and lives with a husky brother.

I'm doing okay, same old same old...Pain is getting worse lately, but

I don't know if its because I'm becoming tolerant to my pain meds

(methadone and oxyIR) or if my pancreas is worse. Oh well.

Right now i also have am impacted wisdom tooth but am trying to

convince myself it will go away and putting off going to the dentist

as long as possible. I also discovered a lump in my throat last

week. Its right in front of where my tonsils would be, and is about

1 1/2 the size of an eraser on the end of a pencil. I looked like a

blister, but its hard as a rock. So I guess I'm gonna have to get

that checked too.

I really enjoy living on my own. I've decided to stay single for at

LEAST a year or so before getting into any long term relationships.

My last one was enough for the next 10 years!

I really enjoy living on my own. With my furkids I very rarely get

lonely. I've decided to stay single for at LEAST a year or so before

getting into any long term relationships. My last one was enough for

the next 10 years! LOL

I'm back in contact with my father and sister after not having

anything to do with them for a year due to a conflict we had between

the 3 of us. I posted quite a bit about that as some of you may

remember. I had a pretty hard time when it was all going on last

year.

But we've decided to leave the past in the past and work on being a

family. Now that my mom is gone (hard to believe it's been 2 years

already since we lost her to ovarian cancer) they're all the family I

have and i don't want to lose them again. My sister lives about an

hour bus ride away from me, and we get together once a week or so and

hang out, and we talk on the phone almost every day. It's nice to

have her as a friend as well as a sister.

All in all, I'm pretty content where I am at in life. Sure I'd like

to be working or going to school, but I've given up letting things I

can't change stress me out. I'm learning to accept that this is the

hand that fate has dealt, and all I can do is play the cards I've

been given as well as possible. My ulcer is very grateful about this

fact! *grin*

I am happy though, and it's been a long time since I've been honestly

able to say that and mean it.

Anyhow, I'm gonna sign off for now. Will post again soon.

it's good to be back.

;o)

Hugs

Shana

~*~They are not *just dogs*. They are members of my family, they are

my best friends. They are my heart and soul, and my spirit. And each

one of them, though very different, is very, very treasured. They

have brought nothing but pleasure and joy to my life, they have been

my constants in a life that hasn't had much consistency at all. They

have given me reason to get up in the morning when I had no others.

They helped me find my will to live when I thought mine was lost

forever. In short, my dogs, my " furkids " , mean more to me than

anything else on earth, and they always will.~*~

-SJS 2001