Re: To E. re: EUS

[Guest guest]

Heidi:

It's funny that you mention Hollywood. That's because there was supposed to

be a TV docudrama about me a few years ago. It was an offshoot of the

" Health " magazine story that I mentioned in an earlier post.

You see, I am a survivor of violent crime. I was assaulted during a 1989

burglary of my New York City apartment.

Thanks to the help of a wonderful therapist who specializes in working with

crime victims, I was not only able to get back my life, but I was able to go

on to better things.

Along with CP and other chronic illnesses, I have the diagnosis of PTSD (Post

Traumatic Stress Disorder.)

I have not only been interviewed in that magazine, but I've spoken in public

and on national television.

An actress known for her television work read that article and wanted to

portray me. So I had to retain a talent agent and show business attorney for

the negotiations.

This was happening just as Brown Simpson and Goldman were

murdered and dead people are much more interesting to Hollywood than someone

who lived and thrived.

-E

-E

[Guest guest]

Actually a picture of my " hot " pancreas would be great so that I could send

it to all the morons who told me that I was to fat to have pancreatitis!!

-E

[Guest guest]

Actually a picture of my " hot " pancreas would be great so that I could send

it to all the morons who told me that I was to fat to have pancreatitis!!

-E

[Guest guest]

Dear E;

I'm very sorry to hear that you had to go through such a horrible,

violent, invasive crime. How terrible. I hate to hear of suffering, and

that type of violence and rage are especially difficult to ever get past, and

are indeed events that alter us forever.

I have PTSD also, having grown up with a violent alcoholic father... Four

kids and for whatever reason, I was the target - I made an easy one to

justify, probably because I was mouthy, and he and I were so alike. Both

extremely combative, stubborn and pigheaded, and add to the mix an angry man

already with a couple truckloads of his own childhood horror, (never

addressed, of course... Men who build tires at Goodyear for a living don't

talk about " feelings " , if you know what I mean... and certainly not in the

late 60's and early 70's), and quite a bit of liquor, some financial stress

with a growing family to provide for on a blue-collar salary, our home was a

constant war zone... and the enemy was always just around t he corner,

waiting to pounce when you least expected it... with a kick to the chins, a

fist to the jaw, a smack to the nose or fist to the gut to drop you.

He saw too much of himself in me, and somehow that was threatening.

I was also molested sexually at a very young age (6 the first time) and

then again at 9, one a cousin, the other a neighbor, and both went on for

many months. I didn't tell anyone for many, many years of course. Who do

you tell at that age? A child that age doesn't even know the WORDS for what

is happening, let alone the wherewithal to figure out a way to speak to an

adult about these cruel deeds. Complicated feelings of being a fag, a sissy,

even eventually " enjoying " the pleasurable feelings that accompanied the

affection (albeit sexual and entirely inappropriate) of an " older " nice

looking man, blah blah blah.

Classic tale I'm afraid, and I fear it happens alllll-toooo-often.

Nobody's asked ME to do a movie of the week yet though. Bleah. It would

make a GREAT Hallmark presentation, yes? Something for Christmas release.

Okay, now I'm depressed for both of us. Haha... okay, not really,

because I know both you and I are survivors, and the person that each of us

IS, is a result of our respective history, good and bad. Either that's some

great Universal karmic message to bring peace and make us feel better, or

it's just a line of shit designed to bring us peace and make us feel better.

Either way. Shit. Too much pain in this world.

Gotta break,

T

<< Heidi:

It's funny that you mention Hollywood. That's because there was supposed to

be a TV docudrama about me a few years ago. It was an offshoot of the

" Health " magazine story that I mentioned in an earlier post.

You see, I am a survivor of violent crime. I was assaulted during a 1989

burglary of my New York City apartment.

Thanks to the help of a wonderful therapist who specializes in working with

crime victims, I was not only able to get back my life, but I was able to go

on to better things.

Along with CP and other chronic illnesses, I have the diagnosis of PTSD (Post

Traumatic Stress Disorder.)

I have not only been interviewed in that magazine, but I've spoken in public

and on national television.

An actress known for her television work read that article and wanted to

portray me. So I had to retain a talent agent and show business attorney for

the negotiations.

This was happening just as Brown Simpson and Goldman were

murdered and dead people are much more interesting to Hollywood than someone

who lived and thrived.

-E >>