Kathy - Re: Kathy D.'s update (rel ment)

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Kathy,

I know firsthand how difficult these continued failures are. But I

want to encourage you. Don't loose site that you are now one step

closer to either a pg or opening your home to a child through

adoption. Your treatment plan is changing, as it should, and you're

giving it your best shot (no pun intended - ).

Sorry to hear about AF's onset. Although we are in the full throws

of our adoption from China (currently paperchasing), I still get that

disappointment every month that AF arrives. We continue to ttc on

own and nail the timing every month, but I've stepped away from any

monitoring of my cycle via charting. It was doing me no good

emotionally, and my body O's all by itself every month and we are

together enough to know that we have as good of a chance as any every

single month.

Although we're focused on the adoption, I don't think that monthly

disappointment ever completely disappears. There will always be a

desire in my heart to have a successful pg...to feel that first

flutter of movement, laugh when the baby gets hiccups in utero, be

amazed that I can endure childbirth, etc. But *know* that the

dispair and grief over missing this experience will lessen over

time. I have a feeling the moment we have our Chinese daughter

placed in our arms, it'll all be a distant memory.

Until then, hang tough and keep the faith. God, or whoever you

worship, has the plan all figured out...we're just along for the

ride. And remember that this plan is going to be absolutely

perfect!!!!!!!!!!! So, while things continue with the monthly ups

and downs, keep focused on the overall plan and the joy you'll have

when the pieces that currently are hidden are revealed. You *will*

be a mommy - you just don't when or how (bio or adoptive).

From one future mommy to another, I'll keep you in my prayers!

Take care,

Kristi Q.

32, 1 m/c

ttc #1 for 6.5 yrs

4 failed IUI's, passed on IVF

currently paperchasing on adoption #1 from China

ttc on own to see what happens

> Hi everyone. I just wanted to update you on my progress, or lack

thereof.

> After five failed Clomid cycles and three failed IUI's, we are

moving on to

> injectibles. We will try two injectible/IUI cycles and then begin

the

> adoption process in April. AF finally came today with a

vengeance. I'm

> doubled over in pain. This was our " month off " to let my ovarian

cysts die

> down. I didn't think I'd ovulate on my own, but I actually did.

It was

> quite a surprise. And although we timed intercourse perfectly, we

were

> unable to achieve pregnancy. So, tomorrow morning I go in for b/w

and u/s

> to make sure the cysts are gone. And if all appears well, I will

begin the

> injections tomorrow evening. I'm nervous. I'll be on 1/2 an

ampule of

> Gonal-F per day. Can anyone tell me the side effects of this drug

or

> similar drugs (Follistim, etc.)? I was told to ice the injection

site prior

> to and after jabbing myself. Does anyone have any other advice?

Please

> pray for us!

> -Kathy D., 28

> t-shaped uterus

> m/c 7/02

> ttc #1 for 17 mos.

> Gonal-F/IUI cd1

>

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