HOPING FOR PERIOD #2 POST HYS/LAP

August 3, 2002

I am hoping for my second period since my hys/lap procedure in May,

and my first period in July. I do not have any PMS symptoms yet and

am trying not to be anxious in speculating that something is still

wrong. I guess this cautious thinking behavior is something that I

have developed since my miscarriage.

Just thought to vent about that. Overall, my depression has

alleviated somewhat where it is manageable. However, I still find

it hard to get out of bed to go to work... I definitely know that I

am not happy there and have been keeping my eyes on for

opportunities. I have been managing my work stress as best as

possible and still weighing everything out. The dilemma may be

simple to others and I realize it is between financial reasons and

my health-- choosing one over the other. I am a stubborn wanna be

super woman who wants both, everything if possible. Yes, I know the

answer is my health. Implementing it is the hard part, especially

when it involves finances.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! Okay, gotta go rest...........

We went fishing-camping this weekend and it was so relaxing. I am

not the outdoorsy type but have no regrets on going. My hubby and

some friends of ours took our bay boats to go fishing and settled in

floating house for the night. Fishing at night and then sleeping

under the stars with the water rustling was refreshing. I felt

close to nature and God. Our surroundings were quiet and calm, and

gave me the opportunity to reflect on things I am grateful for. I

also got to make wishes under the stars.... one of them included

healthy children of our own SOON!

Alma

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