Re: - hysterectomy for Deanna

[Guest guest]

Wow Deanna, I know you feel. and I tried for seven years to have a baby. Nothing wrong with him, just me. Then on our anniversary that year, I had a miscarriage. About a month later we took his nieces and my nephew fishing and I sat on the river bank watching him put the worms on their hooks and standing in that water with them for hours till the last one had enough. About midway through I got SO angry with God. Why was it that any teenage girl in highschool could drop one or two before finishing high school and I couldn't give this increddible man the one thing that he desired more than anything on this earth. He never ever said a word about it, but it just killed me to know that this great person was never going to kiss his very own child goodnight. Then that Monday I called cps and asked them what happens to the older children that can't go back home and they told me about their adoption programs. We had always thought that it would cost a fortune, which we didn't have, but when you go through the state and want older kids, it is basically free. We knew that we didn't have to start with a little baby, we just wanted to be parents, to someone! It took about six months to get our homestudy and background checks and then the training classes and then we got the call for Justen, he was eight years old and had been in a group home since he was four . We had told them that we would take ANY child, just make it one that no one wants. That will be raised in the system if we didn't take them. That was him! Five pages of phsych evals and about twenty reasons why we should take someone else, but once we saw his picture, that was it. And we could have stopped there and been SO very satisfied. But six months later we were watching the news and they featured a little girl who had been in foster care for six years waiting for a family. Because we had said that color or disabilities where not a problem with us, we moved eight year old in one month later. Then about six months after her, a caseworker that had heard about us called and asked if we would take one more. We really weren't looking, two was a blessing larger than we could have imagined, but she talked us into meeting six year old Karl at Mcdonalds and lets just say he moved in about two weeks after that. We really did think that we were done after that because he does have some behaviors that can be challanging. But then a year later we heard a heartbreaking story about a little girl that had been beaten as an infant and wound up in a wheelchair and had been waiting six years for a family. One look at Bridget , she was also eight, and we were cooked! She has been sunshine and joy from day one! When we learned about all of the bad things that happened to some of them in foster care, we decided to become foster parents. That was 16 months ago and we have since gotten Freddie, Keyone and baby Josh. What I meant to say is that when God slammed the door on us having our baby, it took awhile to realize that he was opening a really cool one that was different, but spectacular! If God was to tell me that I could hold my own biological child in my arms but I have to give these others back. No thank you, no way, I get to hold baby Josh and baby Keyone so that one last hurt spot that we never got to cuddle our baby has been filled. No matter what happens in court, every moment that they have been in our home, they have been held, cherished, cuddled and loved and life has been so much sweeter with them in it! all of the kids not just the babies , all of them. Now this past year it's been tough, I have been very sick. But we are fortunate that my parents live with us and my dad cooks dinner when I cant get to it, and grandma is a great homework helper. We are so very blessed and I know that you will be blessed somehow, someway. you will be blessed. Where would all of us be if it weren't for the wonderfull job that you do on this list!

a C

. I see him with his nephews (his brother was able to have 2 little boys) and he is such an awesome uncle – and I know he would have made an awesome dad – and yes it hurts – it hurts a lot – but I had no choice.

[Guest guest]

Wow Deanna, I know you feel. and I tried for seven years to have a baby. Nothing wrong with him, just me. Then on our anniversary that year, I had a miscarriage. About a month later we took his nieces and my nephew fishing and I sat on the river bank watching him put the worms on their hooks and standing in that water with them for hours till the last one had enough. About midway through I got SO angry with God. Why was it that any teenage girl in highschool could drop one or two before finishing high school and I couldn't give this increddible man the one thing that he desired more than anything on this earth. He never ever said a word about it, but it just killed me to know that this great person was never going to kiss his very own child goodnight. Then that Monday I called cps and asked them what happens to the older children that can't go back home and they told me about their adoption programs. We had always thought that it would cost a fortune, which we didn't have, but when you go through the state and want older kids, it is basically free. We knew that we didn't have to start with a little baby, we just wanted to be parents, to someone! It took about six months to get our homestudy and background checks and then the training classes and then we got the call for Justen, he was eight years old and had been in a group home since he was four . We had told them that we would take ANY child, just make it one that no one wants. That will be raised in the system if we didn't take them. That was him! Five pages of phsych evals and about twenty reasons why we should take someone else, but once we saw his picture, that was it. And we could have stopped there and been SO very satisfied. But six months later we were watching the news and they featured a little girl who had been in foster care for six years waiting for a family. Because we had said that color or disabilities where not a problem with us, we moved eight year old in one month later. Then about six months after her, a caseworker that had heard about us called and asked if we would take one more. We really weren't looking, two was a blessing larger than we could have imagined, but she talked us into meeting six year old Karl at Mcdonalds and lets just say he moved in about two weeks after that. We really did think that we were done after that because he does have some behaviors that can be challanging. But then a year later we heard a heartbreaking story about a little girl that had been beaten as an infant and wound up in a wheelchair and had been waiting six years for a family. One look at Bridget , she was also eight, and we were cooked! She has been sunshine and joy from day one! When we learned about all of the bad things that happened to some of them in foster care, we decided to become foster parents. That was 16 months ago and we have since gotten Freddie, Keyone and baby Josh. What I meant to say is that when God slammed the door on us having our baby, it took awhile to realize that he was opening a really cool one that was different, but spectacular! If God was to tell me that I could hold my own biological child in my arms but I have to give these others back. No thank you, no way, I get to hold baby Josh and baby Keyone so that one last hurt spot that we never got to cuddle our baby has been filled. No matter what happens in court, every moment that they have been in our home, they have been held, cherished, cuddled and loved and life has been so much sweeter with them in it! all of the kids not just the babies , all of them. Now this past year it's been tough, I have been very sick. But we are fortunate that my parents live with us and my dad cooks dinner when I cant get to it, and grandma is a great homework helper. We are so very blessed and I know that you will be blessed somehow, someway. you will be blessed. Where would all of us be if it weren't for the wonderfull job that you do on this list!

a C

. I see him with his nephews (his brother was able to have 2 little boys) and he is such an awesome uncle – and I know he would have made an awesome dad – and yes it hurts – it hurts a lot – but I had no choice.

[Guest guest]

Wow Deanna, I know you feel. and I tried for seven years to have a baby. Nothing wrong with him, just me. Then on our anniversary that year, I had a miscarriage. About a month later we took his nieces and my nephew fishing and I sat on the river bank watching him put the worms on their hooks and standing in that water with them for hours till the last one had enough. About midway through I got SO angry with God. Why was it that any teenage girl in highschool could drop one or two before finishing high school and I couldn't give this increddible man the one thing that he desired more than anything on this earth. He never ever said a word about it, but it just killed me to know that this great person was never going to kiss his very own child goodnight. Then that Monday I called cps and asked them what happens to the older children that can't go back home and they told me about their adoption programs. We had always thought that it would cost a fortune, which we didn't have, but when you go through the state and want older kids, it is basically free. We knew that we didn't have to start with a little baby, we just wanted to be parents, to someone! It took about six months to get our homestudy and background checks and then the training classes and then we got the call for Justen, he was eight years old and had been in a group home since he was four . We had told them that we would take ANY child, just make it one that no one wants. That will be raised in the system if we didn't take them. That was him! Five pages of phsych evals and about twenty reasons why we should take someone else, but once we saw his picture, that was it. And we could have stopped there and been SO very satisfied. But six months later we were watching the news and they featured a little girl who had been in foster care for six years waiting for a family. Because we had said that color or disabilities where not a problem with us, we moved eight year old in one month later. Then about six months after her, a caseworker that had heard about us called and asked if we would take one more. We really weren't looking, two was a blessing larger than we could have imagined, but she talked us into meeting six year old Karl at Mcdonalds and lets just say he moved in about two weeks after that. We really did think that we were done after that because he does have some behaviors that can be challanging. But then a year later we heard a heartbreaking story about a little girl that had been beaten as an infant and wound up in a wheelchair and had been waiting six years for a family. One look at Bridget , she was also eight, and we were cooked! She has been sunshine and joy from day one! When we learned about all of the bad things that happened to some of them in foster care, we decided to become foster parents. That was 16 months ago and we have since gotten Freddie, Keyone and baby Josh. What I meant to say is that when God slammed the door on us having our baby, it took awhile to realize that he was opening a really cool one that was different, but spectacular! If God was to tell me that I could hold my own biological child in my arms but I have to give these others back. No thank you, no way, I get to hold baby Josh and baby Keyone so that one last hurt spot that we never got to cuddle our baby has been filled. No matter what happens in court, every moment that they have been in our home, they have been held, cherished, cuddled and loved and life has been so much sweeter with them in it! all of the kids not just the babies , all of them. Now this past year it's been tough, I have been very sick. But we are fortunate that my parents live with us and my dad cooks dinner when I cant get to it, and grandma is a great homework helper. We are so very blessed and I know that you will be blessed somehow, someway. you will be blessed. Where would all of us be if it weren't for the wonderfull job that you do on this list!

a C

. I see him with his nephews (his brother was able to have 2 little boys) and he is such an awesome uncle – and I know he would have made an awesome dad – and yes it hurts – it hurts a lot – but I had no choice.

[Guest guest]

RIGHT ON, PAULA C.!!!! LOVE IS WHERE IT'S AT, NO MATTER THE AGE OF THE TARGET. MM

[Guest guest]

RIGHT ON, PAULA C.!!!! LOVE IS WHERE IT'S AT, NO MATTER THE AGE OF THE TARGET. MM