Blessings in spite of..... Have others had this experience??

[Guest guest]

Even though this is an awful thing to have happen, I tell the very

few who are around me to not feel sorry for me because I've still had

my blessings because of it too. I've learned alot also. One of the

biggest gains I've received from this tremendous loss...is peace of

mind. I'm extremely curious if those who were laid up a long time

have had the same experience? I am not a worrier. I would say that

I've still felt happy almost every single day...in spite of being

ill. I've simplified my life beyond belief...and therefore

experience very little stress.

Don't misunderstand me... this is not the life I want. My passion

was running and weightlifting; I'm a very physical person. I like to

hike, bike, play tennis... do anything that requires energy. I never

watched t.v.-not even as a child. This has completely altered who I

was....but that's okay-it has to be okay. I'm not suggesting the

losses from the implants are even the slightest bit okay...but

rather, that every human on earth has hardships. If we could do our

lives over, and not have the implants, it does not mean our lives

would have been better but rather that we would have taken a

different route...and it too would have had hardships. What I've

gone through in the last nine years has been awful...as too many of

you know... but I know I've gained too and that is where I try to

keep my focus. If I am able to get my health back and resume

activities... my old life... I will do so with a greater sense of

peace of mind than I had in my previous life...because I've

learned " peace " over these last 9 years. I've gained tremendous

appreciation for " life. " I've gained appreciation for so much...I

just hope to be able to put it to use again.

Anne