5 months post op and quite a bit NCC

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Hi Everyone!

As much as I hate to say this, because I feel like I

will be jinxing myself, I think I am finally

recovered. Don't get me wrong, I have said all along

that I was doing really well, and I was, but I think I

was thinking only in terms of how I was doing in

relation to my surgery, not in relation to where I

wanted to be. (Not sure if that will make sense to

anyone else but me).

Ever since my surgery in September it has been kind of

like living in a fog. You are so wrapped up in your

pain and then your fear and then your recovery that

you almost can't even remember your life before

" CHIARI " .

I think a certain amount of depression might have set

in during this time. I hate to rely on other people

for things I should be able to do myself and that

really got to me. I am a strong, independent,

intelligent woman who absolutely resented calling

friends to help me carry in groceries or asking a

co-worker to help me with certain cases because I was

having difficulty concentrating on my client.

I don't really even know what or when it happened. I

woke up on Saturday cleaned my house, ran errands,

worked in the yard and didn't have to drug myself to

go out Saturday night!! Thinking I would end up

sleeping most of Sunday because of Saturday I

cancelled some plans with friends, but then woke up on

Sunday feeling alive and rejuvenated. I have noticed

all this week at work and at night that I am just

alive again. I don't need to take a nap when I get

home from work and I am sleeping well through the

night. I am sure that there is a better word then

alive, but that is the only one I can think of that

describes how I feel. I am sitting here with tears in

my eyes right now because I really never thought I

would make it back here.

My headaches are gone, the soreness in my neck and

shoulders is gone, the numbness and tingling in my

hands and feet is gone, and the hundred other things I

had wrong with me are all gone!! I haven't felt this

good since I was in high school/early college. Even

my co-workers, family, and friends who have seen me

this week have commented how much better I look and

how I sound like my old self.

I think I am back, and in the nick of time, I was

missing myself.

XOXOXOXOX

Amy, decompressed 09/21/01

Favorite quote of the week: (As said by one of my

client's girlfriends in reference to saying with him)

" I don't want to be hooked on stupid or addicted to

dumb. " Rather profound if you ask me, even made it on

my Hall of Fame for favorite comments.

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