I will be leaving for awhile.

[Guest guest]

Hi all:

I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

in a million......we think alike.

In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

believe that there were actually people out there with all of

the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

crazy.

God bless you all

Kaye

[Guest guest]

Dear Kaye,

It is so understandable that you are frightened right now, and everybody

here wants to be here to support and help you get through this.

Please don't deny us that chance to help.

Go ahead, be afraid... Join the crowd!

You've mentioned so many times how lucky you feel, how fortunate you are

to not have to go through so much - searching for a caring and competent

doctor, GI, pain management group... well, now you're just like the rest of

us.

We're here for solutions, for sympathy when it doesn't work out, for a

shoulder when we feel our lowest. Many, many times you've been that shoulder

and offered that sympathy. So now you need some. So what.

You're allowed to feel sorry for yourself, just read the messages for a

while and not respond if you don't feel like it. You don't have to be strong

all the time.

But you're NOT allowed to run away because you're scared or depressed.

You're not a quitter, so don't start acting like one. And see someone

for your depression. It's normal and understandable, and there is plenty of

help available. Just ask, for gosh sake.

I can't speak for the others, but I need you. Please don't let your own

(understandable) self-pity drive you to do anything silly, like leave the one

place where you can find solutions... That's this list and you know it.

Also scared,

Terry in KC

<< Hi all:

I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

in a million......we think alike.

In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

believe that there were actually people out there with all of

the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

crazy.

God bless you all

Kaye >>

[Guest guest]

Dear Kaye,

It is so understandable that you are frightened right now, and everybody

here wants to be here to support and help you get through this.

Please don't deny us that chance to help.

Go ahead, be afraid... Join the crowd!

You've mentioned so many times how lucky you feel, how fortunate you are

to not have to go through so much - searching for a caring and competent

doctor, GI, pain management group... well, now you're just like the rest of

us.

We're here for solutions, for sympathy when it doesn't work out, for a

shoulder when we feel our lowest. Many, many times you've been that shoulder

and offered that sympathy. So now you need some. So what.

You're allowed to feel sorry for yourself, just read the messages for a

while and not respond if you don't feel like it. You don't have to be strong

all the time.

But you're NOT allowed to run away because you're scared or depressed.

You're not a quitter, so don't start acting like one. And see someone

for your depression. It's normal and understandable, and there is plenty of

help available. Just ask, for gosh sake.

I can't speak for the others, but I need you. Please don't let your own

(understandable) self-pity drive you to do anything silly, like leave the one

place where you can find solutions... That's this list and you know it.

Also scared,

Terry in KC

<< Hi all:

I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

in a million......we think alike.

In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

believe that there were actually people out there with all of

the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

crazy.

God bless you all

Kaye >>

[Guest guest]

Dear Kaye,

It is so understandable that you are frightened right now, and everybody

here wants to be here to support and help you get through this.

Please don't deny us that chance to help.

Go ahead, be afraid... Join the crowd!

You've mentioned so many times how lucky you feel, how fortunate you are

to not have to go through so much - searching for a caring and competent

doctor, GI, pain management group... well, now you're just like the rest of

us.

We're here for solutions, for sympathy when it doesn't work out, for a

shoulder when we feel our lowest. Many, many times you've been that shoulder

and offered that sympathy. So now you need some. So what.

You're allowed to feel sorry for yourself, just read the messages for a

while and not respond if you don't feel like it. You don't have to be strong

all the time.

But you're NOT allowed to run away because you're scared or depressed.

You're not a quitter, so don't start acting like one. And see someone

for your depression. It's normal and understandable, and there is plenty of

help available. Just ask, for gosh sake.

I can't speak for the others, but I need you. Please don't let your own

(understandable) self-pity drive you to do anything silly, like leave the one

place where you can find solutions... That's this list and you know it.

Also scared,

Terry in KC

<< Hi all:

I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

in a million......we think alike.

In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

believe that there were actually people out there with all of

the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

crazy.

God bless you all

Kaye >>

[Guest guest]

Kaye. No way no how. I don't want you to go anywhere. If you like I will

go online and find another doctor for you. You tell me what you are looking

for in a Doc and I will interview him myself. You brighten many people's

day even when you think you might be negative. I hope you will reconsider.

I will always be here for you regardless of your choice. I am glad that I

have met you. I hope you are continuing to work on your book. When I write

songs, I find that I write the best when my life is in turmoil. It is real

emotion. Again, I hope you will reconsider...

Talk to me..

Your Friend

Mark

Mark E. Armstrong

www.top5plus5.com

I will be leaving for awhile.

> Hi all:

>

> I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

> a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

> the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

> kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

> nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

> hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

> him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

> We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

> complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

> has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

> because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

> in a million......we think alike.

>

> In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

> looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

> so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

>

> I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

> years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

> beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

> I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

>

> I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

> and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

> probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

> want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

>

> You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

> believe that there were actually people out there with all of

> the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

> crazy.

>

> God bless you all

>

> Kaye

>

>

> PANCREATITIS Association, Intl.

> Online e-mail group

>

> To reply to this message hit " reply " or send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis@...

>

> To subscribe to this e-mail group, simply send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis-subscribe@...

>

>

[Guest guest]

Kaye. No way no how. I don't want you to go anywhere. If you like I will

go online and find another doctor for you. You tell me what you are looking

for in a Doc and I will interview him myself. You brighten many people's

day even when you think you might be negative. I hope you will reconsider.

I will always be here for you regardless of your choice. I am glad that I

have met you. I hope you are continuing to work on your book. When I write

songs, I find that I write the best when my life is in turmoil. It is real

emotion. Again, I hope you will reconsider...

Talk to me..

Your Friend

Mark

Mark E. Armstrong

www.top5plus5.com

I will be leaving for awhile.

> Hi all:

>

> I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

> a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

> the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

> kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

> nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

> hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

> him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

> We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

> complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

> has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

> because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

> in a million......we think alike.

>

> In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

> looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

> so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

>

> I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

> years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

> beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

> I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

>

> I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

> and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

> probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

> want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

>

> You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

> believe that there were actually people out there with all of

> the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

> crazy.

>

> God bless you all

>

> Kaye

>

>

> PANCREATITIS Association, Intl.

> Online e-mail group

>

> To reply to this message hit " reply " or send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis@...

>

> To subscribe to this e-mail group, simply send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis-subscribe@...

>

>

[Guest guest]

Kaye. No way no how. I don't want you to go anywhere. If you like I will

go online and find another doctor for you. You tell me what you are looking

for in a Doc and I will interview him myself. You brighten many people's

day even when you think you might be negative. I hope you will reconsider.

I will always be here for you regardless of your choice. I am glad that I

have met you. I hope you are continuing to work on your book. When I write

songs, I find that I write the best when my life is in turmoil. It is real

emotion. Again, I hope you will reconsider...

Talk to me..

Your Friend

Mark

Mark E. Armstrong

www.top5plus5.com

I will be leaving for awhile.

> Hi all:

>

> I posted a note yesterday about my doctor " retiring " . I am still in

> a state of panic. I know that you all understand the " doc " thing but

> the " general population " doesn't have a clue. I have not had any

> kind of depression in a very very long time. But, I have done

> nothing but cry since yesterday morning. Right now I feel absolutely

> hopeless about all of this. I went through so much before finding

> him and to me it is just a nightmare to have to go that route again.

> We don't have many docs in this area. Because of lots of

> complications I have had in the past because of this disease, my doc

> has done everything in his power to keep me out of the hospital

> because of the way the system really is. Im telling you, he is one

> in a million......we think alike.

>

> In my heart I don't think he is really retiring, but I do think he is

> looking for another practice and hasn't found one yet. He has values

> so close to mine it is scary. I am rambling now and need to stop.

>

> I had a major depression about 9 years ago that lasted for about 6

> years, meds and the whole bit and it is a horrible feeling. I am

> beginning to feel the exact same way now. I hate that feeling cause

> I always think what is the friggin use, just give up!

>

> I don't want to bring anybody in this group " down " from my depression

> and I have really nothing " positive " to say right now. I will

> probably duck out of the group for awhile if not for good. I do not

> want anyone to feel as bad mentally as I do right now.

>

> You guys are wonderful and when I found this group I could not

> believe that there were actually people out there with all of

> the " odd symptoms " as me! I was beginning to think I really was

> crazy.

>

> God bless you all

>

> Kaye

>

>

> PANCREATITIS Association, Intl.

> Online e-mail group

>

> To reply to this message hit " reply " or send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis@...

>

> To subscribe to this e-mail group, simply send an e-mail to:

Pancreatitis-subscribe@...

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hello Kaye,

I don't usually post very often but i read your post

and i felt i really needed to respond to you. About

two years ago my doctor that i cared for very deeply

left and i went through the same thing that you did. I

cried for about a week. I told my husband i was going

to move wherever my doc was going(which is crazy). I

had gone through a few docs before i got this one and

he was just great. I eventually found a new doc and

he is a good doc not like the other one. I guess I

just wanted you to know that things will work out. I

will pray for you and pray that you find a good doc.

And i want you to know that i will be there for you

and i don't want to see you leave the group. We are

all victims of this disease and we need to stick

together and support each other. I will be here for

you if you want to talk or cry or whatever. I know

what depression is like and i don't want to see

someone else go through that. I hope you reconsider

leaving the group. I am here not ever forget it even

if you leave the group. I have icq, yahoo messanger or

you can even call me. I hope this message helps.

Crystal

>

>

__________________________________________________

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[Guest guest]

Hello Kaye,

I don't usually post very often but i read your post

and i felt i really needed to respond to you. About

two years ago my doctor that i cared for very deeply

left and i went through the same thing that you did. I

cried for about a week. I told my husband i was going

to move wherever my doc was going(which is crazy). I

had gone through a few docs before i got this one and

he was just great. I eventually found a new doc and

he is a good doc not like the other one. I guess I

just wanted you to know that things will work out. I

will pray for you and pray that you find a good doc.

And i want you to know that i will be there for you

and i don't want to see you leave the group. We are

all victims of this disease and we need to stick

together and support each other. I will be here for

you if you want to talk or cry or whatever. I know

what depression is like and i don't want to see

someone else go through that. I hope you reconsider

leaving the group. I am here not ever forget it even

if you leave the group. I have icq, yahoo messanger or

you can even call me. I hope this message helps.

Crystal

>

>

__________________________________________________

Terrorist Attacks on U.S. - How can you help?

Donate cash, emergency relief information

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/fc/US/Emergency_Information/

[Guest guest]

Hello Kaye,

I don't usually post very often but i read your post

and i felt i really needed to respond to you. About

two years ago my doctor that i cared for very deeply

left and i went through the same thing that you did. I

cried for about a week. I told my husband i was going

to move wherever my doc was going(which is crazy). I

had gone through a few docs before i got this one and

he was just great. I eventually found a new doc and

he is a good doc not like the other one. I guess I

just wanted you to know that things will work out. I

will pray for you and pray that you find a good doc.

And i want you to know that i will be there for you

and i don't want to see you leave the group. We are

all victims of this disease and we need to stick

together and support each other. I will be here for

you if you want to talk or cry or whatever. I know

what depression is like and i don't want to see

someone else go through that. I hope you reconsider

leaving the group. I am here not ever forget it even

if you leave the group. I have icq, yahoo messanger or

you can even call me. I hope this message helps.

Crystal

>

>

__________________________________________________

Terrorist Attacks on U.S. - How can you help?

Donate cash, emergency relief information

http://dailynews.yahoo.com/fc/US/Emergency_Information/

[Guest guest]

Kaye,

please do leave the group. We need you as much as you need us,

especially if you are feeling depressed. When you are, you need

someplace you can let go and vent and scream and cry and this is that

place for all of us. Have you asked your doctor to try and help you find

a suitable candidate, one who will do the same things? If he's as good

as he is, he should do that for you not just leave you hanging for

another doctor as compassionate and caring as he is.

Kimber

--

Kimber

hominid2@...

California State Chapter Representative

Pancreatitis Association, International

[Guest guest]

Kaye,

please do leave the group. We need you as much as you need us,

especially if you are feeling depressed. When you are, you need

someplace you can let go and vent and scream and cry and this is that

place for all of us. Have you asked your doctor to try and help you find

a suitable candidate, one who will do the same things? If he's as good

as he is, he should do that for you not just leave you hanging for

another doctor as compassionate and caring as he is.

Kimber

--

Kimber

hominid2@...

California State Chapter Representative

Pancreatitis Association, International