Kerry describes Athena's behavior

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I'm posting this with Kerry's permission. I've done some editing on punctuation and spelling . . But this is Kerry's story . . Rogene------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Athena displays a lot of Autistic signs and I¢m sooo mad!

A long time ago I thought she was Autistic.

She was soooo behind as baby on certain things. Then goes

through these spells. She doesn¢t want to grow up. She wants to always be a

baby. I¢m starting to think her behavior now at 5, there¢s no one word. I¢m wrecked

by the end of the day! She does this thing with her hands, like grabbing for a

drink, and fidgets her fingers in a wanting motion. . . like trying to grasp it

from far away, twiddling her fingers. That¢s how she asks for things w/o

speaking! I don¢t know if it¢s a habit, I just don¢t know.

Today we are going to get her a new puppy!

With everything that happened already to her. I know one

thing, her hair just doesn¢t grow!!!!!!!!!!!!! It¢s at the same length, forever

and bald forever as a baby. She wants it long, but it just doesn¢t grow any

more. . . I trimmed the ends finally 1/2 inch at the most after over a year of tangles

and I¢m right back where I was before.

When I was hospitalized while pregnant for Athena, they

found the same spot Dr. G. Wiess states is possibly silicone on my lung. Being

that they were leaking the whole time. .

I know she is a SiliconeKid. Just last week she had another

rash. This looked more like Logan¢s

kind, that full body effect, but not as bad. I couldn¢t take any more pictures

at that point. It went away in 3 days with one dose of Benadryl, dye free.

I¢m sad, but happy that and you and the Autism folks are looking into

this! I always thought this before! Sad

but true! If you need anything, we are here! I think if I taped Athena with the

camcorder it would shock a lot of people. When she is sick. . It¢s called the

bad Athena, like there two different people.

Just last night I lost it finally. You can call her name when she is sick. She knows the rules. I freak because I can¢t find her! She knows her

mommy.

I¢m scared to look up Autism. But I will again. Right now

she is sitting playing with a flashlight. I will say she is a thousand times

better as I feed her really healthy food and she plays out doors almost every day

now. With her sweating it out. This child is soaked with night sweats. It¢s

decreased with time and age. . But some nights I think she peed in the bed.

Which, at 5, she does that every other night, but I did that from sound

sleeping.

Others think I need to nip it in the bud now. But not one of those people sit here and do

the research, nor read like I do about SiliconeKids! She was not breast fed, Thank

God. But oddly still had extreme

swallowing difficulties with jar baby food. She survived on cereal bottles and I¢d

put the food in a bottle so she used the nipple to suck and swallow. But never

a whole jar because it was way too thick for her. Sorry I want to cry. .But I¢m

stronger these days.

Better go get the puppy, she named it Angel already . Oh one more thing, she looses control. Wow! She

does not care where she is, or we are at. I¢m used to it, and it¢s like she can¢t

hear what I¢m saying, no reasoning or the consequences for her actions. It¢s

like a one track mind and you can not get through to her no matter what. She is

fixated on flipping out, and you could tell her a ton of things to distract

this moment and it¢s like she is blind and deaf in the bad Athena.