venting

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I sorry but I so need to vent some stress. My boyfriend has been out

of work since Dec. and I know it not easy to find one without a car

but it getting so hard. I dont know if we are going to be able to get

help cause the city is requiring him to physical apply to 5 places a

week. And he hasn't even started. I just feeling I should just give

up on my claim and find some way to get an income coming back into

the house. I know I should be able to find work with my accounting

background. I just want to give up I feel my self getting depress. If

i start to work I stand to lose all my mainecard benifits and won't

be able to afford my meds or see my doctors. I would have to quit

physical therpy again. But I have this helpless, usefullest feeling.

I truly don't know how much more I can take feeling like this. Lately

my hands are swelling at night and it becomes sore to move them in

the moring. I use my stress ball to work out them just to move them.

I am so sorry this is long, I needed to get it out with people who

could understand where I am coming from. Well I logging for now.

MArtha