Guest guest Posted July 4, 2001 Report Share Posted July 4, 2001 Everytime I think the phrase " the other side " I feel like I'm in an episode of " The Twilight Zone " and the operation is some portal to a parallel universe.....lol Anyway, I did pre-op on Monday. The food was pretty bad in the Coffee Shop but then I realized I didn't have to eat it when I came back! Got lost a few times, I really have no picture in my head of how the hospital is connected one part to another, and there was no map, no floorplan (I kept asking) so I wandered around in circles for awhile. I was relieved when I finally reached the pre-testing at The Surgical Center and it seemed to make sense. (I really hate not understanding where I am.) But I am very very anxious - Mom is flying in Sunday night just to take care of me for the summer. That's good. But my b/f and I broke up end of May and I wasn't prepared for that. There's this empty void and feeling like the ground has been pulled out from me....losing a vital piece of my support network. And as I wrote to Lori, I failed at that relationship, what if I fail at this? What if I can't take the pain, or I can't stop crying, or I decide I can't live without potato chips? Anyway, I went from being so sure to this confusion....and I don't know if it's normal cos everyone else I read about says they were so calm and sailed right thru. Well, it isn't me right now! Devon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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