Becca

March 13, 2001

In my quest to find a reliable Service Provider, I may have missed your

posts. You talked about pain from your rupture that was only a little more

severe than normal pain. Just a question...When they saw the free fluid, did

they have to do surgery? Or just treat with Metho?

I ask because with my pregnancy in October, I thought I was having an

intense ovulation, but my left side was still sore 2 days later so I went in

and asked them to check for a cyst, but my preg test came back pos. The U/S

showed nothihng so they labeled it a miscarriage, but I know it was ectopic.

I ask if you had to have surgery because I'm wondering if the preg could've

burst the tube without me knowing.

M

> Hi Terri,

>

> How I knew I ruptured: severe pain *but* it was only a little 'more severe'

> than the 'normal' pain. I finally convinced them to do another ultrasound

> when they saw the free fluid. How many women have to beg for a vaginal

> ultrasound?!

>

March 15, 2001

Becca,

It is nice to know that someone out there understands this rollercoaster of

emotions. I didn't have anything planned to memorialize the day, and I think

it would have been easier if I had (like releasing balloons or donating

moneyfor fertility research [again) or something). I just felt so sad that

this should have been a day of joyous excitement (and I see my evil co-worker

getting to experience it) and instead it will always be a reminder of grief

and loss. I find it bittersweet to think that somehow somewhere my little one

is being looked after, but I have a hard time understanding the sense of the

EP experience.

I do think that one day I will be united with my little one. It may be in

this lifetime or another, but I know that this little person wasn't meant to

be a forever stranger to me. Thanks for you words of support, and I am sure

the pain will lessen with time. Know that I am saying a prayer for you

tonight that you are able to find the peace you deserve.

Dana

March 15, 2001