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KJ

You all mean the world to me. I am so lucky to have

each of you in my life, I think you all are my " bright

spot " through all of this. You said it, " it is a

great time! "

When dh and I went grocery shopping this evening, I

asked if I could get more hpt...he said, no, I think

two is enough.

As for getting a moments rest, well, I am having

trouble with that, it is 11:00 and I am usually in bed

by now!

I hope you are doing ok. Have a nice (rest of the)

weekend. Thanks again.

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KJ

You all mean the world to me. I am so lucky to have

each of you in my life, I think you all are my " bright

spot " through all of this. You said it, " it is a

great time! "

When dh and I went grocery shopping this evening, I

asked if I could get more hpt...he said, no, I think

two is enough.

As for getting a moments rest, well, I am having

trouble with that, it is 11:00 and I am usually in bed

by now!

I hope you are doing ok. Have a nice (rest of the)

weekend. Thanks again.

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[Guest guest]

, I felt compelled to reply to you. I apologize to the rest of

the group for recounting my story, but I know how easy it is to lose

hope that you will ever conceive post a diagnosis of AS and I'd like

to offer my experience as an example of miracles happening.

I have a 2 1/2 year old son so I am aware of how truly blessed I am

and my heart aches for those of you who are struggling to conceive

your first and who experience miscarriages in the process. I

suffered from severe post-partum hemorrhaging 3 weeks after my son

was born, and this was due to retained placenta. I received

transfusions and an aggressive d & c. I was diagnosed in November 2001

with AS after 8 months of ttc our second child. My periods were very

slight, not even red but brown. Somehow I knew that my experiences

after the birth of my son were to blame so I didn't waste much time

before seeing a fertility specialist. This specialist diagnosed me

with severe AS and performed my first hys/lap. He was not on the A

or B list. I hadn't found this group yet. The results were not

stellar, as the dr. was able to cut away some scarring, but according

to him, I was still about 75% scarred. (My reports said the uterus

was completely obliterated.)

I was referred to Dr. Neuwirth in NYC (a well-known hysteroscopic

surgeon) for my 2nd hys/lap which I had in May. One week after the

surgery, I found this group. I had no period after this 2nd surgery,

so two months later not wanting to waste any time, I had an HSG which

confirmed that not much progress had been made since the 1st

hys/lap. In all 4 of my HSGs from November 2001 to July 2002 the dye

trickled out implying that the scar tissue was so extensive and thick

it had no where to go.

I collected all of my medical records from 3 doctors and was prepared

to travel anywhere in the country to get another opinion about my

prognosis. In the last week of August I took a pregnancy test b/c I

was feeling under the weather and had the biggest shock of my life.

I'm now almost 29 weeks along and every day, b/c of my AS, until this

baby is delivered I will be worried about losing it.

We were never given much hope and were never told to ttc. We weren't

trying and in fact, I didn't even realize I was still ovulating.

Apparently there was a small trickle of a path to my left tube that

had been cleared and which enabled an egg to be fertilized.

Having AS is heart-breaking. but don't give up hope. Just b/c you've

been told that you most likely won't be able to have another child in

your body doesn't necessarily mean that you won't. In fact, I've

been told by a respected perinatal group that my diagnosis of severe

AS may have been wrong. Imagine that!

The message I'm trying to get across is this: in severe cases of AS

I don't think there is enough medical research available to warrant

an unequivocal ruling that pregnancy and delivery of a healthy child

can ever occur. I'm not advocating ttc with scar tissue in the

uterus. I am well aware that I'm one of the very few with severe AS

who have been able to get this far along in a pregnancy. But if I

had been using contraception I wouldn't be about 10 weeks away from

delivering my precious miracle.

While I deeply believe in surrogacy and adoption and do not mean to

discourage you, , from proceeding with surrogacy, you should not

lose hope about conceiving, carrying and delivering your own child.

Here's to hoping you are blessed with another child, whether through

surrogacy or miracle.

Tricia