Re: Responding to your responses and also going off topic if u dont mind :(

[Guest guest]

Vicki... look at the name of the group... see the word SUPPORT? We are here to support each other...yeah... it's mostly thyroid, but we are all made up of a lot more than our thyroids... you're part of our family now... and we're a family that cares about each other.... We can't be there with you.. but we're here with you.. the whole bunch of us...

We share our good times and our bad. Talk about heath stuff and vent about things that made us angry or sad or hurt us. We keep each other posted on major events in our lives, like grandbabies being born and hurricanes getting too close... it's all part of being a family.. sharing good and bad.

You're going through some bad now... and when the time comes you'll share your good, too, right?

That all said.... You go get those tests done, the biopsy and that second lump... it might be nothing at all and then it's over with, no worries... and if it turns out to be something that needs your attention, getting busy with it sooner, rather than later, is going to make it easier to deal with.... you know that's true.

You've got hundreds of us here, in your corner, you're not totally alone... not of us is anymore... we have each other... and even if what you need to unload about is something that no one can really respond to at least you can know that others are listening (reading) and have compassion and empathy for you even if we can't come up with the words to tell you that we care.

My time... why I'm here. When I was at the rock bottom of my life and just couldnt' do it anymore.. there were folks that reached out their hands and helped me to get up. They started me in understanding that you don't have to settle for the care that is doled out to you, that with some time, some research, some effort we can all learn more about our health issues and have a better understanding of what proper and appropriate care is. From that first step I have come a long long long way and the only way I have of paying back that debt is to help others to take that first step, as I was helped over three years ago.

I don't see me ever stopping being here.... how can I walk away knowing that there might be someone reaching out a hand and there might not be anyone there to take it. I know.. I'm not the only one here.. ..there are nearly a thousand of us now.... but, I can't bear the thought of how it would feel to be reaching out and have no one there... it just meant too much to me, it changed my life soooo much, when someone was there to take my hand when I reached out.

Now.. even in your vent you came up with a bit of info that you may not have mentioned before, or that I missed.. that you had chemo.... I need to do some research on that....

Has anyone else here been through chemo?

I'm wondering how that MIGHT affect thyroid, hypothalamus and pituitary function... if that is why the numbers and your symptoms are so... 'different'

Fibro is long term low thyroid.... so the doc is not off there, at all... the treatment he mentions prolotherapy... I've never heard of that before... I can't say it's good or bad. I am a believer in doing things that help the body to repair itself. I wrecked my knees biking, I did a LOT of biking, 100 to 150 miles a day for years. I was 18 when my doc told me that I needed both of them replaced. That I'd pedaled too many miles on a bike that was too small for me and that I'd damaged the cartilage in my knees. That's why the kept popping out, why I kept falling down, and why I couldn't kneel.

I didn't want fake knees at 18... I worked on exercises and such to keep going.. I was in my late thirties when I heard of glucosimine/chondroitin. It sounded too good to be true. I research on line for weeks before I had enough information to be sure it was worth trying... An BOY was it ever!!! It does stimulate and encourage regrowth of cartilage. Even though I was told mine was shot an unrepairable. It's been a LONG time since I've popped a knee, and YEARS since I've popped one so bad as to fall. And I don't even take the stuff all the time. I did it steady for about a year. Then again for a few months a couple of years later. Then for a while when I first started on natural thyroid.. now I have half a bottle still sitting here, I should check the date on it, it's been there for three years.

Finding something that will encourage the body to heal is profound. BUT too many quacks claim that they have that magic thing.... so how do you know what is real and what is snake oil? That's what I need to find out... I'll look into the prolotherapy and see what I find... I know... it's not of my business... but it's how I learn, be presented with something that tickles my brain into learning more about it...

Okay.. now mine is getting long enough... I need to get going here... I'll be back...

big grin

Topper ()

On Sun, 25 Sep 2005 06:17:50 -0000 "miraclemakerof2" writes:

Thanks Topper for reassuring me that you guys werent just sick of me already, I appreciate it. Sounds so silly but I guess I am one of those people overly sensitive because I have always been told I was a burden and just dont want to do that to you all here since you are all so great and make me feel that there is truly some hope.As to responding, I do think I like this doc but not sure about trying things out just to see if they will work, though I know that is normal in a way cause I wont know unless I try but afraid it may back fire but if it does then I will just go off the thyroid meds to help me get out of hypo. Its Levothyroxiazine (sp) that he has me on just been off for a bit over a week now hoping that things will start to look up...Not sure who brought up the fibromylgia coming from untreated thyroid probs but yes this doctor completely believes that I have the severe FMS from not ever having my thyroid taken care of. So am thinking you will all think thats a good thing that is how he thinks and also is very willing to help me/very understanding of my pain and quite patient as well just hard cause he has so many patients it takes so long to get an appt. but its worth waiting for if he can help me.To (((E))) I was on Norco for pain, valium for anxiety, prozac, nexium and detrol when I had my blood work taken, also was on Levothryoxazine as well then stopped it the day I had the blood work taken cause primary said I was hyper not hypo like the specialist said I was....but am going back on it cause he wants me to give it a try for a bit longer to see if it works at all. And though he is a Rhemy he does believe that FMS is caused from untreated hypo and believes in some natural ways of healing, like accupunture which I want so bad but ins doesnt cover it and boyfriend has yet to say he will pay for it also am planning on going through with the prolotherapy no matter what it cost, that I know he will pay for cause we both truly believe its going to help me, it may take time and quite a bit of money but it will be worth it in the end. If anyone here has ever heard of this therapy please let me know what you all think....I have read about it but never spoke to anyone who has had it.. I know that I am very complicating and would completely understand if you didnt want to use your personal time trying to help me figure out my screwed up body, please dont put yourself out just because of that....I know everyone has there own lives and are quite busy so understand if they cant respond to my million posts...but to be completely honest with you it just helps me typing to you all, makes me feel like I have someone listening though I am not talking and helps get things off my chest so it means a lot.Speaking of getting things of my chest, I am not sure if I can do this but am just really upset about my boyfriend right now and have no one to talk to....just kinda wanted to vent and hope no one will be upset with me for doing so but have no one to vent to except you all here cause I dont know anyone else on the net...., my boyfriend and father of my smaller babies works out of state all week from Sunday night till late Friday evening...its very hard that we dont see eachother and he also doesnt see our kids so we have a lot going on during the weekends, we are looking at buying a house and just normnal things that we try and fit in just two days...he also hasnt moved out of his fathers either, he stays with me every single night but cause my place is to small his stuff isnt here so goes there to shower and comes right back, well is 38 and his father cant stand him being with me, has been single all his life till he met me and stayed with his dad cause he was on the road all the time....well his father still hastn excepted me yet and is all his father has and this next weekend there is a wedding in NYC that his father wants to go to and is taking him...and when he asked if the kids and I could go he said forget he wouldnt go so now is taking him and we are not going to be with him so therefore will go two weeks without seeing him....He doesnt understand why I am not only upset but angry as well....its very hard going all week without seeing him and now two weeks, not to mention the kids miss him as well and he is letting his father tell him who can go in his vehicle and who cant...as far as I am concerned he should say we are a family except her and my babies or good bye I would do it for him, he also knows that I am going through so much medical crap and need his support which I get very lil cause he doesnt understand any of it plus we were suppose to drive out to see my son that day as well, well next Sunday as we do everyother weekend and that is 4 hours away and I dont drive...so now I will miss not seeing him as well...it just really hurts that he will let his father tell him what he can do or not do, it makes me feel that I am far from being priority in his life and I feel its cause of all my medical probs are driving him nuts.Like two weeks ago I threw my back out and was in bed for 3 days and then I did it again tonight...and here he has a bit of an ache in his collar bone from it popping out of place and I am rubbing it, microwaving a wet towel for him so on and so forth, babying him but when something major goes on with me I am just a burden, that is why it took me so long to even tell him and my family that I am being checked for breast cancer....two weeks before fathers day I was seen and had a mamo that was showing a very suspicious lump since then I havent gone back cause I was scared and also knew that once again if I had cancer I would be a burden to everyone, recently I saw my primary and she wants me to have another mamo and if its still there then have a biopsy but she doesnt understand I am gonig through this basically alone and its way to overwhelming, infact I cancelled my Mamo cause I dont drive due to anxiety and no one to take me cause he is gone all week and now there is a lump under my arm as well, not sure if related or not and with me having ovarian cancer and then cervical cancer x 2 I am a high risk at getting breast cancer...just dont know how much more I can handle right now, this is all really trying to break me and bring me down more but I try not to let it win but at times I truly feel it is exspecially when I have no one to talk to about it cause they few people in my life just dont want to hear about it cause it upsets them...how do they think I feel, I am the one who may loose her breast and go through chemo again which I just dont think I could do at this point....K am sorry I am going on whining, I just needed to get this of my chest or was going to explode big time, I truly hope its ok that I did that hear if I affended anyone by talking about my personal probs and about a different medical prob I have I am truly sorry and please forgive me, dont want to upset anyone at this group cause truly feel this is going to be my lifesavor....I dont know anyone here but feel so at home when I come to the group and I thank you all for that.Hope all who is in the way of Rita is safe and same with there loved ones, please all be safe no matter where you are.Love,Vicki

[Guest guest]

Vicki... look at the name of the group... see the word SUPPORT? We are here to support each other...yeah... it's mostly thyroid, but we are all made up of a lot more than our thyroids... you're part of our family now... and we're a family that cares about each other.... We can't be there with you.. but we're here with you.. the whole bunch of us...

We share our good times and our bad. Talk about heath stuff and vent about things that made us angry or sad or hurt us. We keep each other posted on major events in our lives, like grandbabies being born and hurricanes getting too close... it's all part of being a family.. sharing good and bad.

You're going through some bad now... and when the time comes you'll share your good, too, right?

That all said.... You go get those tests done, the biopsy and that second lump... it might be nothing at all and then it's over with, no worries... and if it turns out to be something that needs your attention, getting busy with it sooner, rather than later, is going to make it easier to deal with.... you know that's true.

You've got hundreds of us here, in your corner, you're not totally alone... not of us is anymore... we have each other... and even if what you need to unload about is something that no one can really respond to at least you can know that others are listening (reading) and have compassion and empathy for you even if we can't come up with the words to tell you that we care.

My time... why I'm here. When I was at the rock bottom of my life and just couldnt' do it anymore.. there were folks that reached out their hands and helped me to get up. They started me in understanding that you don't have to settle for the care that is doled out to you, that with some time, some research, some effort we can all learn more about our health issues and have a better understanding of what proper and appropriate care is. From that first step I have come a long long long way and the only way I have of paying back that debt is to help others to take that first step, as I was helped over three years ago.

I don't see me ever stopping being here.... how can I walk away knowing that there might be someone reaching out a hand and there might not be anyone there to take it. I know.. I'm not the only one here.. ..there are nearly a thousand of us now.... but, I can't bear the thought of how it would feel to be reaching out and have no one there... it just meant too much to me, it changed my life soooo much, when someone was there to take my hand when I reached out.

Now.. even in your vent you came up with a bit of info that you may not have mentioned before, or that I missed.. that you had chemo.... I need to do some research on that....

Has anyone else here been through chemo?

I'm wondering how that MIGHT affect thyroid, hypothalamus and pituitary function... if that is why the numbers and your symptoms are so... 'different'

Fibro is long term low thyroid.... so the doc is not off there, at all... the treatment he mentions prolotherapy... I've never heard of that before... I can't say it's good or bad. I am a believer in doing things that help the body to repair itself. I wrecked my knees biking, I did a LOT of biking, 100 to 150 miles a day for years. I was 18 when my doc told me that I needed both of them replaced. That I'd pedaled too many miles on a bike that was too small for me and that I'd damaged the cartilage in my knees. That's why the kept popping out, why I kept falling down, and why I couldn't kneel.

I didn't want fake knees at 18... I worked on exercises and such to keep going.. I was in my late thirties when I heard of glucosimine/chondroitin. It sounded too good to be true. I research on line for weeks before I had enough information to be sure it was worth trying... An BOY was it ever!!! It does stimulate and encourage regrowth of cartilage. Even though I was told mine was shot an unrepairable. It's been a LONG time since I've popped a knee, and YEARS since I've popped one so bad as to fall. And I don't even take the stuff all the time. I did it steady for about a year. Then again for a few months a couple of years later. Then for a while when I first started on natural thyroid.. now I have half a bottle still sitting here, I should check the date on it, it's been there for three years.

Finding something that will encourage the body to heal is profound. BUT too many quacks claim that they have that magic thing.... so how do you know what is real and what is snake oil? That's what I need to find out... I'll look into the prolotherapy and see what I find... I know... it's not of my business... but it's how I learn, be presented with something that tickles my brain into learning more about it...

Okay.. now mine is getting long enough... I need to get going here... I'll be back...

big grin

Topper ()

On Sun, 25 Sep 2005 06:17:50 -0000 "miraclemakerof2" writes:

Thanks Topper for reassuring me that you guys werent just sick of me already, I appreciate it. Sounds so silly but I guess I am one of those people overly sensitive because I have always been told I was a burden and just dont want to do that to you all here since you are all so great and make me feel that there is truly some hope.As to responding, I do think I like this doc but not sure about trying things out just to see if they will work, though I know that is normal in a way cause I wont know unless I try but afraid it may back fire but if it does then I will just go off the thyroid meds to help me get out of hypo. Its Levothyroxiazine (sp) that he has me on just been off for a bit over a week now hoping that things will start to look up...Not sure who brought up the fibromylgia coming from untreated thyroid probs but yes this doctor completely believes that I have the severe FMS from not ever having my thyroid taken care of. So am thinking you will all think thats a good thing that is how he thinks and also is very willing to help me/very understanding of my pain and quite patient as well just hard cause he has so many patients it takes so long to get an appt. but its worth waiting for if he can help me.To (((E))) I was on Norco for pain, valium for anxiety, prozac, nexium and detrol when I had my blood work taken, also was on Levothryoxazine as well then stopped it the day I had the blood work taken cause primary said I was hyper not hypo like the specialist said I was....but am going back on it cause he wants me to give it a try for a bit longer to see if it works at all. And though he is a Rhemy he does believe that FMS is caused from untreated hypo and believes in some natural ways of healing, like accupunture which I want so bad but ins doesnt cover it and boyfriend has yet to say he will pay for it also am planning on going through with the prolotherapy no matter what it cost, that I know he will pay for cause we both truly believe its going to help me, it may take time and quite a bit of money but it will be worth it in the end. If anyone here has ever heard of this therapy please let me know what you all think....I have read about it but never spoke to anyone who has had it.. I know that I am very complicating and would completely understand if you didnt want to use your personal time trying to help me figure out my screwed up body, please dont put yourself out just because of that....I know everyone has there own lives and are quite busy so understand if they cant respond to my million posts...but to be completely honest with you it just helps me typing to you all, makes me feel like I have someone listening though I am not talking and helps get things off my chest so it means a lot.Speaking of getting things of my chest, I am not sure if I can do this but am just really upset about my boyfriend right now and have no one to talk to....just kinda wanted to vent and hope no one will be upset with me for doing so but have no one to vent to except you all here cause I dont know anyone else on the net...., my boyfriend and father of my smaller babies works out of state all week from Sunday night till late Friday evening...its very hard that we dont see eachother and he also doesnt see our kids so we have a lot going on during the weekends, we are looking at buying a house and just normnal things that we try and fit in just two days...he also hasnt moved out of his fathers either, he stays with me every single night but cause my place is to small his stuff isnt here so goes there to shower and comes right back, well is 38 and his father cant stand him being with me, has been single all his life till he met me and stayed with his dad cause he was on the road all the time....well his father still hastn excepted me yet and is all his father has and this next weekend there is a wedding in NYC that his father wants to go to and is taking him...and when he asked if the kids and I could go he said forget he wouldnt go so now is taking him and we are not going to be with him so therefore will go two weeks without seeing him....He doesnt understand why I am not only upset but angry as well....its very hard going all week without seeing him and now two weeks, not to mention the kids miss him as well and he is letting his father tell him who can go in his vehicle and who cant...as far as I am concerned he should say we are a family except her and my babies or good bye I would do it for him, he also knows that I am going through so much medical crap and need his support which I get very lil cause he doesnt understand any of it plus we were suppose to drive out to see my son that day as well, well next Sunday as we do everyother weekend and that is 4 hours away and I dont drive...so now I will miss not seeing him as well...it just really hurts that he will let his father tell him what he can do or not do, it makes me feel that I am far from being priority in his life and I feel its cause of all my medical probs are driving him nuts.Like two weeks ago I threw my back out and was in bed for 3 days and then I did it again tonight...and here he has a bit of an ache in his collar bone from it popping out of place and I am rubbing it, microwaving a wet towel for him so on and so forth, babying him but when something major goes on with me I am just a burden, that is why it took me so long to even tell him and my family that I am being checked for breast cancer....two weeks before fathers day I was seen and had a mamo that was showing a very suspicious lump since then I havent gone back cause I was scared and also knew that once again if I had cancer I would be a burden to everyone, recently I saw my primary and she wants me to have another mamo and if its still there then have a biopsy but she doesnt understand I am gonig through this basically alone and its way to overwhelming, infact I cancelled my Mamo cause I dont drive due to anxiety and no one to take me cause he is gone all week and now there is a lump under my arm as well, not sure if related or not and with me having ovarian cancer and then cervical cancer x 2 I am a high risk at getting breast cancer...just dont know how much more I can handle right now, this is all really trying to break me and bring me down more but I try not to let it win but at times I truly feel it is exspecially when I have no one to talk to about it cause they few people in my life just dont want to hear about it cause it upsets them...how do they think I feel, I am the one who may loose her breast and go through chemo again which I just dont think I could do at this point....K am sorry I am going on whining, I just needed to get this of my chest or was going to explode big time, I truly hope its ok that I did that hear if I affended anyone by talking about my personal probs and about a different medical prob I have I am truly sorry and please forgive me, dont want to upset anyone at this group cause truly feel this is going to be my lifesavor....I dont know anyone here but feel so at home when I come to the group and I thank you all for that.Hope all who is in the way of Rita is safe and same with there loved ones, please all be safe no matter where you are.Love,Vicki

[Guest guest]

Vicki... look at the name of the group... see the word SUPPORT? We are here to support each other...yeah... it's mostly thyroid, but we are all made up of a lot more than our thyroids... you're part of our family now... and we're a family that cares about each other.... We can't be there with you.. but we're here with you.. the whole bunch of us...

We share our good times and our bad. Talk about heath stuff and vent about things that made us angry or sad or hurt us. We keep each other posted on major events in our lives, like grandbabies being born and hurricanes getting too close... it's all part of being a family.. sharing good and bad.

You're going through some bad now... and when the time comes you'll share your good, too, right?

That all said.... You go get those tests done, the biopsy and that second lump... it might be nothing at all and then it's over with, no worries... and if it turns out to be something that needs your attention, getting busy with it sooner, rather than later, is going to make it easier to deal with.... you know that's true.

You've got hundreds of us here, in your corner, you're not totally alone... not of us is anymore... we have each other... and even if what you need to unload about is something that no one can really respond to at least you can know that others are listening (reading) and have compassion and empathy for you even if we can't come up with the words to tell you that we care.

My time... why I'm here. When I was at the rock bottom of my life and just couldnt' do it anymore.. there were folks that reached out their hands and helped me to get up. They started me in understanding that you don't have to settle for the care that is doled out to you, that with some time, some research, some effort we can all learn more about our health issues and have a better understanding of what proper and appropriate care is. From that first step I have come a long long long way and the only way I have of paying back that debt is to help others to take that first step, as I was helped over three years ago.

I don't see me ever stopping being here.... how can I walk away knowing that there might be someone reaching out a hand and there might not be anyone there to take it. I know.. I'm not the only one here.. ..there are nearly a thousand of us now.... but, I can't bear the thought of how it would feel to be reaching out and have no one there... it just meant too much to me, it changed my life soooo much, when someone was there to take my hand when I reached out.

Now.. even in your vent you came up with a bit of info that you may not have mentioned before, or that I missed.. that you had chemo.... I need to do some research on that....

Has anyone else here been through chemo?

I'm wondering how that MIGHT affect thyroid, hypothalamus and pituitary function... if that is why the numbers and your symptoms are so... 'different'

Fibro is long term low thyroid.... so the doc is not off there, at all... the treatment he mentions prolotherapy... I've never heard of that before... I can't say it's good or bad. I am a believer in doing things that help the body to repair itself. I wrecked my knees biking, I did a LOT of biking, 100 to 150 miles a day for years. I was 18 when my doc told me that I needed both of them replaced. That I'd pedaled too many miles on a bike that was too small for me and that I'd damaged the cartilage in my knees. That's why the kept popping out, why I kept falling down, and why I couldn't kneel.

I didn't want fake knees at 18... I worked on exercises and such to keep going.. I was in my late thirties when I heard of glucosimine/chondroitin. It sounded too good to be true. I research on line for weeks before I had enough information to be sure it was worth trying... An BOY was it ever!!! It does stimulate and encourage regrowth of cartilage. Even though I was told mine was shot an unrepairable. It's been a LONG time since I've popped a knee, and YEARS since I've popped one so bad as to fall. And I don't even take the stuff all the time. I did it steady for about a year. Then again for a few months a couple of years later. Then for a while when I first started on natural thyroid.. now I have half a bottle still sitting here, I should check the date on it, it's been there for three years.

Finding something that will encourage the body to heal is profound. BUT too many quacks claim that they have that magic thing.... so how do you know what is real and what is snake oil? That's what I need to find out... I'll look into the prolotherapy and see what I find... I know... it's not of my business... but it's how I learn, be presented with something that tickles my brain into learning more about it...

Okay.. now mine is getting long enough... I need to get going here... I'll be back...

big grin

Topper ()

On Sun, 25 Sep 2005 06:17:50 -0000 "miraclemakerof2" writes:

Thanks Topper for reassuring me that you guys werent just sick of me already, I appreciate it. Sounds so silly but I guess I am one of those people overly sensitive because I have always been told I was a burden and just dont want to do that to you all here since you are all so great and make me feel that there is truly some hope.As to responding, I do think I like this doc but not sure about trying things out just to see if they will work, though I know that is normal in a way cause I wont know unless I try but afraid it may back fire but if it does then I will just go off the thyroid meds to help me get out of hypo. Its Levothyroxiazine (sp) that he has me on just been off for a bit over a week now hoping that things will start to look up...Not sure who brought up the fibromylgia coming from untreated thyroid probs but yes this doctor completely believes that I have the severe FMS from not ever having my thyroid taken care of. So am thinking you will all think thats a good thing that is how he thinks and also is very willing to help me/very understanding of my pain and quite patient as well just hard cause he has so many patients it takes so long to get an appt. but its worth waiting for if he can help me.To (((E))) I was on Norco for pain, valium for anxiety, prozac, nexium and detrol when I had my blood work taken, also was on Levothryoxazine as well then stopped it the day I had the blood work taken cause primary said I was hyper not hypo like the specialist said I was....but am going back on it cause he wants me to give it a try for a bit longer to see if it works at all. And though he is a Rhemy he does believe that FMS is caused from untreated hypo and believes in some natural ways of healing, like accupunture which I want so bad but ins doesnt cover it and boyfriend has yet to say he will pay for it also am planning on going through with the prolotherapy no matter what it cost, that I know he will pay for cause we both truly believe its going to help me, it may take time and quite a bit of money but it will be worth it in the end. If anyone here has ever heard of this therapy please let me know what you all think....I have read about it but never spoke to anyone who has had it.. I know that I am very complicating and would completely understand if you didnt want to use your personal time trying to help me figure out my screwed up body, please dont put yourself out just because of that....I know everyone has there own lives and are quite busy so understand if they cant respond to my million posts...but to be completely honest with you it just helps me typing to you all, makes me feel like I have someone listening though I am not talking and helps get things off my chest so it means a lot.Speaking of getting things of my chest, I am not sure if I can do this but am just really upset about my boyfriend right now and have no one to talk to....just kinda wanted to vent and hope no one will be upset with me for doing so but have no one to vent to except you all here cause I dont know anyone else on the net...., my boyfriend and father of my smaller babies works out of state all week from Sunday night till late Friday evening...its very hard that we dont see eachother and he also doesnt see our kids so we have a lot going on during the weekends, we are looking at buying a house and just normnal things that we try and fit in just two days...he also hasnt moved out of his fathers either, he stays with me every single night but cause my place is to small his stuff isnt here so goes there to shower and comes right back, well is 38 and his father cant stand him being with me, has been single all his life till he met me and stayed with his dad cause he was on the road all the time....well his father still hastn excepted me yet and is all his father has and this next weekend there is a wedding in NYC that his father wants to go to and is taking him...and when he asked if the kids and I could go he said forget he wouldnt go so now is taking him and we are not going to be with him so therefore will go two weeks without seeing him....He doesnt understand why I am not only upset but angry as well....its very hard going all week without seeing him and now two weeks, not to mention the kids miss him as well and he is letting his father tell him who can go in his vehicle and who cant...as far as I am concerned he should say we are a family except her and my babies or good bye I would do it for him, he also knows that I am going through so much medical crap and need his support which I get very lil cause he doesnt understand any of it plus we were suppose to drive out to see my son that day as well, well next Sunday as we do everyother weekend and that is 4 hours away and I dont drive...so now I will miss not seeing him as well...it just really hurts that he will let his father tell him what he can do or not do, it makes me feel that I am far from being priority in his life and I feel its cause of all my medical probs are driving him nuts.Like two weeks ago I threw my back out and was in bed for 3 days and then I did it again tonight...and here he has a bit of an ache in his collar bone from it popping out of place and I am rubbing it, microwaving a wet towel for him so on and so forth, babying him but when something major goes on with me I am just a burden, that is why it took me so long to even tell him and my family that I am being checked for breast cancer....two weeks before fathers day I was seen and had a mamo that was showing a very suspicious lump since then I havent gone back cause I was scared and also knew that once again if I had cancer I would be a burden to everyone, recently I saw my primary and she wants me to have another mamo and if its still there then have a biopsy but she doesnt understand I am gonig through this basically alone and its way to overwhelming, infact I cancelled my Mamo cause I dont drive due to anxiety and no one to take me cause he is gone all week and now there is a lump under my arm as well, not sure if related or not and with me having ovarian cancer and then cervical cancer x 2 I am a high risk at getting breast cancer...just dont know how much more I can handle right now, this is all really trying to break me and bring me down more but I try not to let it win but at times I truly feel it is exspecially when I have no one to talk to about it cause they few people in my life just dont want to hear about it cause it upsets them...how do they think I feel, I am the one who may loose her breast and go through chemo again which I just dont think I could do at this point....K am sorry I am going on whining, I just needed to get this of my chest or was going to explode big time, I truly hope its ok that I did that hear if I affended anyone by talking about my personal probs and about a different medical prob I have I am truly sorry and please forgive me, dont want to upset anyone at this group cause truly feel this is going to be my lifesavor....I dont know anyone here but feel so at home when I come to the group and I thank you all for that.Hope all who is in the way of Rita is safe and same with there loved ones, please all be safe no matter where you are.Love,Vicki

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--- topper2@... wrote:

> Vicki... look at the name of the group... see the

> word SUPPORT? We are

> here to support each other...yeah... it's mostly

> thyroid, but we are all

> made up of a lot more than our thyroids... you're

> part of our family

> now... and we're a family that cares about each

> other.... We can't be

> there with you.. but we're here with you.. the whole

> bunch of us...

>

> We share our good times and our bad. Talk about

> health stuff and vent

> about things that made us angry or sad or hurt us.

> We keep each other

> posted on major events in our lives, like

> grandbabies being born and

> hurricanes getting too close... it's all part of

> being a family.. sharing

> good and bad.

I agree with Topper here Vicki. Support is what we

are here for, to get AND to give. My mother died last

weekend on the 17th and I don't know what I'd do

without my online family and their love and support.

I now have the " pleasure " of finding a home for us to

live in (my sister and I). She isn't one to do

anything and says she can't because her credit sucks.

Well mine isn't good either, but I did find out I can

qualify for a manufactured home (mobile home/trailer)

on my credit and income alone, so I'm going for it.

It's also going to be MY name on the mortgage and she

can rent from me. I'd rather shell out $$ to pay for

something I'm going to eventually own instead of

renting, although there are good points and bad points

to both situations. My unofficial fiance will be

living with us as well. He doesn't make as much, but

he can still contribute and the little bit of

inheritance from Mom will help for a few years. I

wish we could afford to purchase the house we are in

now, but it's too expensive for us to handle. We just

moved here 2.5 years ago and I'm certainly NOT looking

forward to the packing and moving yet again. Mom's

will also stipulated that the assets will be sold and

put into a trust to be doled out at $10,000 per year

to each of us (there are 5) until it's gone. My 3

brothers don't need the $$ and my oldest brother

actually quit speaking to Mom when the will was set to

leave my sister and I the house originally. When he

found out she'd changed it, he started speaking to her

again. It's funny how the prospect of an inheritance

or lack thereof will bring out the worst in family.

Kathy >^,,^<

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