(current pg ment.)

[Guest guest]

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I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. A good friend at my

church just had her baby on my ep baby's due date (Nov.20th). It was

so hard to see her at church and watch her stomach grow. There were

Sundays I went home and just cried. Now, I am very blessed as I

found out I was pg in Aug. and at least had that consolation at the

end of her pg. BUt I just missed my ep baby so much. When her baby

was finally born, it actually got easier. I look at him and know

that I'd have a baby about that size that I'd be loving and enjoying

and yet somehow, I've come to terms with it. I'm happy for her and

their family and I'm glad that they have a blessing. Seeing him, I

guess, has helped me to fall in love with him and think of that

instead of my jealousy. Last week I looked across the pews and my

first thought was " Now what is it about that baby that makes me

sad? " Then I remembered my ep. It was so weird, I mean that all

happened in seconds, but it wasn't the first thought I had with him

anymore. It used to be my jealousy. I hope it gets easier for you,

too. I know my situation is a little different because I am so

blessed, but I hope that your feelings will be the same! Thinking of

you! I know it's so hard!

Joleen