Barb**Say Yes to Love - (Affirmation I Liked)

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In a message dated 6/22/2003 12:00:19 PM Central Daylight Time,

sunshineqt99999@... writes:

> My actions today will say yes to love.

Oooooooh man...you have NO idea how much I NEEDED to read that today.

Without (for once lol) getting into a longggggg and drawn out explanation, I

have just had such a battle of wills with myself lately over

love/committment/relationships. I see Mike (ex hubby) going thru the (mostly

self inflicted I

might add) bumps of new relationships and think ''holy crap I am glad that isnt

me..I dont have the time or the inclination for that BS'' but .....then I see

a really happy couple and think ''geeeeeeeeze when am I ever going to feel

open enough to get ''there'' with someone again?''. Its a catch 22 because part

of my mind continues reaffirming that I am NOT ready for a ''real''

relationship but then this other part just screams out sometimes that life is

not meant

to be lived alone....AAAARRRGHHHHHHH!!!!

Dont get me wrong..I am perfectly ok with my life as it is and I love love

love NOT sharing living space and every single moment w/ another creature

but...siiiiiiiiiighss....at the same time I have to wonder if I let myself be

alone

too long ..will I EVER be able to get that close to someone again? It takes me

soooooooo long to trust blahblah and reallllllly open myself up to someone

and ooooooh wait a minute..I said I wasnt going to let this get long and winded

didnt I??!! LOL!!! Ooooooooh anyway!!! Suffice it to say...thank you Barb for

giving me something to really think about at just the right time

HUGS!!

Shan