Rodrigo

[Guest guest]

I'm sorry that you are in such a bad place right now. This group is

understanding and a great source to talk about all of those things that are

scary and unfair and cold and shouldn't be happening to us. I think I can

say with some certainty that we have all been there in one-way or another...

I am a 35-year-old mommy of two wonderful children (age 9 months and six

years). I was diagnosed in September of 2002 and all I could think was that

my children were going to grow up without me. It was this dark cloud that

hung over everything I did. I would look at my new baby and just cry my

eyes out. I didn't feel like I could really share what was in my heart

because I didn't want to worry anyone more than they already were. My hubby

didn't have a job and we were almost out of money. It was a really really

dark time. I found this group a little while ago and have found some sort

of grieving process in the mean time. I am starting to see the light again

now and I am confident that you will too! All we can do is to keep trying

and keep trying to think positive things. I hope it's ok to do this here,

but if you want to see my wonderful kids our website is www.dantrace.org.

Hope I didn't break any rules there....

I am definitely no expert, but I had a lymph node scare this month too.

Mine ended up being negative, but I read anything I could find in the mean

time. I did read (and maybe someone who knows more can clarify this) that

lymph node involvement does not change the prognosis in Thyroid Cancer.

Gosh, I wish I could figure out where I read that..... ANYONE???

Aren't there beautiful beaches there? We recently moved further away from

the coast, but I used to love just going and listening to the waves. Just

let each wave take one negative thing away and bring a positive one in it's

place. I was sitting on Cannon Beach, OR when I got the FNA diagnosis. I

remember how peaceful the surf made me feel. Grab a newspaper, look through

the want ads, and find a peaceful place to park yourself.

I hope that you can find a happier place to be. My thoughts are with you

today.

Tracey

dx Sept/02

RAI Oct/02 (dose 175)

eagerly awaiting my first scan

And i just wanted to tell you all of this... not to make you down.... no to

bring the 'blue' to the group..... just to share it.

I'm sad. I can't talk to anyone. I just have this cold pc, this cold outlook

express, this cold keyboard.... this cold soul, with this dying heart, with

this hands that sometime where used to write poetry about life, and nice

things..... but............ i just have you to listen....... you know.....

other people just don't seem to get it...

Rodrigo, from this deep hole...... called Buenos Aires, Argentina.

almost 23..... and.... who knows how many to come.... i don't even think God

knows.

bye