Will I get my brain back

[Guest guest]

Man this can get me sobbing. Just before my goiter was found and

the thyroiditis, I had just started telling my 2 docs that I felt

like I had brain damage and that I wanted my brain back. It has made

accomplishing things in my day, so so so hard. And now, since

surgery, my brain is worse. I realize I've got a trunkload of

psyche stuff from the cancer word, to move through and that's in the

brain, competing for my attention. Before my goiter was found,

doing a household task had got to where it felt like doing a

calculus test and regular math is enough of a challenge to me. I

knew there was a time I could do housework without thnking about

what I was doing much. I want a brain back to where I can be

functional. Where I don't have to extend 150% brain power to get

one thing done, back to where I can use 20% to get things done.

Will it happen ? How long does it take? My thyroid was removed cuz

of cancer and I am on 200 my levothyroxine since Dec 9. My tsh as

of Dec 7 was 163 (good reason to not have follow up by the

surgeon.) I have a 1.5 cm growth on my left adrenal. Tests have

shown the epenephrines are high. We're doing more test to rule out

high cuz of stress. What do whacked out adrenals do to brain

power ? The thought of not getting my brain back puts me into

sobs. It means there's really not much I can accomplish in a day.

Energy is good, but the brain puts together the ability to do a

task, to figure out how it needs to be done and what with and what

first, second, third. I feel overwhelmed at the simplest task.

Since I've only done 8 weeks on the med and I think it will be

increased, the only thing I really can do is wait till my brain

comes back and in the meantime do just what I can. But that gets me

crying cuz I don't want it to be that way for the rest of my life --

doing what I can do. I want a brain where I can get back to

juggling all the balls in a day that I used to be able to do. What

gets me is feeling overwhelmed at things I consider doing. The last

3 yrs when brain wasn't working well, I pushed myself 150% and I

wont do that anymore. I will work up to what I'm capable of, but

not push myself to have to do more.

So those who've done hypo and hyper, do you get your brain back.

Energy is back for me, brain to do stuff, isn't here.

sad jane in us