weight gain and weight loss struggles during pregnancy...

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i can relate to fears of losing or gaining weight during pregnancy and non

pregnancy. i had bulemia for 10 years after my son was born because i learned

that while i hated being pregnant and having hyperemesis, and throwing up,

that postpartum throwing up made me feel in control . i still struggle with

bulemia, compulsive overeating issues because i never dealt with them before

my surgery. i knew if i would have mentioned any of these issues i would have

never qualified for the surgery. now that i am pregnant, i cant be bulemic,

only compulsive and i have gained a frightening amount of weight in a short

period as my appetite is larger then most then 11 months out because of non

compliance issues with my surgery. prior to pregnancy i could play games with

overeating and starving myself then to reset my stoma/appetite, obviously

pregnant i cant do that.

i guess what i am saying in a roundabout way, is a couple of

things. food issues or eating disorders whether is anorexia, bulemia or

compulsive overeating is about struggle for appropriate control within

ourselves, usually very little its about food or weight on its own. if we

werent struggling with food or weight issues but havent resolved r self

esteem and self worth issues we would be struggling with something else.

pregnancy is a really bad time to be dieting, and also in my case to be

overeating like i am as the eating i am doing is not healthy and its causing

me a lot of anxiety. i am in therapy now, but still that i am in food fugue

and i am still not making wise choices about what i eat, as i am a compulsive

overeater, carb and sugarholic.in addition to being in therapy to help

control this, i just started last week a national ossg board for those like

me who struggle with food issues post op. i am hoping to help others at the

same time as helping myself.

because my body was in a forced dieting/starvation stage being

obese with my hyperemesis, with my 1st pregnancy,i can honestly tell you that

that between being now a post op and having another pregnancy with

nutritional concerns that you have to help your baby the best you can and put

your needs for control and fear of weight gain aside, as scary as it is. i

was extremely lucky with being in ketosis and losing weight with my 1st son

that he was healthy. while you read previous posts from other people

especially other post ops early out who had healthy pregnancies and lost a

lot of weight at the same time, that is not the norm, the info we have

access to belonging to weight loss support surgery groups whether this one or

other ones,its only a small cross section as you arent hearing nor do you

have full insight of clinically how devastating and risky sometimes creating

a non nutrionally sound environment for your baby whether its intentional or

not.

i am looking at my situation where, i want to be healthy inside and

out, i want to create a healthy environment for my baby in me and once its

born. that i have to go through the flow of working out my food issues and

other self destructive tendancies once and for all. i never ever thought i

could lose weight and keep it off, while i have proved to myself i can lose

weight, i have to work out in therapy that i can keep it off(first i have to

decide if i want to, which i think i do, but obviously have some abivalence

towards being lighter or i wouldnt have all these overeating problems to

being with) so look at your pregnancy as time to nourish yourself and your

baby, thats what i have to do, and i know its hard. try to seek support when

you can and if you have made some missteps along the way its not too late to

change what you do and how you feel about what you do. i am looking at my

situation as a hard core food issues person that i will resolve my food

issues once and for all.. if unfortunately i have done too much damage to my

new stoma and stretched it out, i will look at having a revision once i have

conqured my demons once and for all. but most postops with a healthy outlook

dont do anything that cant be rectified after the baby is born and are able

to lose the weight they gained during pregnancy. so you can do it. i wish for

all of you struggling the best of luck....sorry so long!!!!

lisa, mother of zachary and zoe who is due 3-18-3 and the

moderator of the hopefully helpful new yahoogroup ossg-foodissues (which if

you have an interest please let me know privately and please hopefully this

isnt considered spamming)