Re: Does life still go 'whoooossh' ??

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Vicky... a lot of us can relate to how you are feeling.. the brain fog.... 'brain farts'... feeling unsure and self doubting.... it's all part of the hormones adjusting... it's a hard thing to go through....All of our beings, our insides all of that.. point of reference, center of self... all that stuff gets shifted when these hormones go kerflunky... for me as I've gone through the stages it was the sense of sync ness with the world around me that was always shifting..... as my body speeded up the world became slow.... not to the extreme that they show on TV but it was still there.... I'd practically hold my breath waiting for someone to complete a sentence, a train of thought.... often I'd jump in and finish it for them cuz my mind was already there and I was too impatient to wait for their mouth to catch up... Some called me a smart a** others wondered if I was a mind reader or something... I was neither... my brain was just processing faster... then, after RAI, going hypo... everything slowing down for me..... stuff around me was out of sync, off... too fast.... whirling by me faster that I could register or follow.... again, not so huge that it would show like on TV but just 'off'.

The closest I can come up with to how it feels is if you are walking a straight line..... paint a line on the ground that is four inches wide and ten feet long... you can walk it easily... one foot right after the other, not a care in the world...

Now put a 2 X 4 on top of that painted line. Even though you are only 2 inches up off the ground you have to pay closer attention to what you are doing, or you'll lose your balance and stumble..... Now try a balance beam that is still four inches wide, still ten feet long... but four feet off the ground... how you walk it is a LOT different that when it was that line painted on the ground. Everything is the same, the width, the length..... but everything around you has changed and if you goof the rest of the world.. the ground, comes crashing up at you and you can't stop it.

We have to change how we think of the rest of the world and how we perceive them and relate them to us... we have to get used to a new 'base norm' and make it a part of us again so that we can change our focus from that balance beam and take in the rest of the world around us....

Geez.... am I making sense?

Riding in a car at sixty miles an hour. If you look out the side window everything whoooooshes by, by the time you see it it's already past and you can't react... whoooosh it's gone... but if you look out the front window you can see things coming from a distance. .You can process what it is and how to react to it before the car reaches it.... it's still gonna whooosh by... but you have been able to process what it was and react to it in time .....

We have to learn to not look out only the side windows of life... we have to look out the front window.....

I'm weird... I should shut up now....

*blush*

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On Sun, 01 Jan 2006 10:06:24 -0000 "Vicky" writes:

Hi,

I still have my thyroid and don't take any replacement hormone as my thyroid is still functioning enough as far as I know, so I wait until it's non functioning.

Here I am still awake but did sleep a couple of hours. It's like time has changed and become faster so time passes quickly and I don't even feel like its late. I have noticed I have lost my mental shapness and mental egde, I can't concentrate and keep misplacing things,even accidently throwing things away, I hardly ever did that before. It's like "mind fog"

I was already on something to calm my anxiety and he doubled it. Even though it's enough to put an elephant to sleep. ithelps me stay somewhat less tremorous inside but I can;t believe that I am taking 2mg of klonopin twice a day and almost nothing.

Yes, I am seeing a psychiatrist now as he is concerned about my mind. The though has occured to me that I'm loosing it.

I'll have to contact him again or go to the ER because I can't hard stand this any lomger.zThanks and HappyNew Year

Vicky