Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 OK ...... I'm back ....... and with a better attitude I might add! Rick seems to at least be somewhat stablized ....albeit " stablized with total exhaustion " . We finally dug out an old bottle of Lortab and started giving him one of those and an 800mg Ibuprofen about every 6 hours .......... that seems to keep him more comfortable. If he doesn't take that, he tends to start feeling like he's having those " spells " again, and he says he can feel the pressure in his head. He's still sleeping much of the day ........ but hasn't gotten any worse. (Funny how just " not getting worse " becomes a sign of progress in these situations!) Most of the time his thoughts are clear ...... and he's verbalizing everything just fine. Last night, however, he wasn't as clear .... but of course THOUGHT he was. You know, saying we had never discussed things that we had discussed at length in the last two months or so ........ and when my son, , mentioned going to talk to the basketball coach at the local high school (to apply for a coaching job - graduating from college in two months) ...... Rick asked him " how is Lance doing, anyway? " Well ......... Lance hasn't been the coach here since 1998! He had several of those little " slips " last night ........ but seemed fine today. Not sure what all this means ...... but we are sitting tight and waiting to see how he does over the next week or so ..... I think that will give us a better picture of whether this is " radiation brain & exhaustion " ...... or if the treatment didn't have the desired results and he's not getting better. Until then ........ I'm settled in and ready for the ride. All in all, I'm doing " wonderful ...... by choice!! " That's my new answer when people ask how I am! I've always answered that question with " wonderful! " and meant it. Now when I say it, they KNOW I can't possibly be " wonderful " ....... so I've started adding " by choice!! " You see, I really believe it is a choice ....not one easily made, ..... or even possible every day........ but still a conscious choice. I learned a long time ago ....... if you wait for everything in your life to be just right in order to find happiness ....... you're going to be waiting a very long time ....perhaps forever!! So, I have become one of the happiest people I know, by deciding to enjoy WHATEVER there is to enjoy out of each and every day ....... and even in our current situation, there are sooooo many things to be thankful for and find pleasure in. So, after allowing myself to have a brief " tantrum " ;-) ...... I'm " wonderful " once again!! (I told you it's not possible EVERY DAY!!) It's like it says in ians ...... the secret to happiness is learning to be happy " where you are " ......... and that is soooo right!! Here's hoping you can each find a way to do the same ....... at least " some days " ! ) Hugs to all! Donna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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