Advice

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Ok everyone, i need a boost. I'm feeling sooooooo scared, and I feel

like I'm gonna lose it. The funny thing is that nothing triggered

these feelings. Usually a trip to emerg or a bad day at the

neurologist does the trick but I'm just sooo tired. Tired. Tired of

all of it. I have sooo much help between the ped, ot, nursing, early

intervention... you name it I got it but just want everyone to go

away! But I can't.... i need the help. I just want to cry. I just

want someone to wake me up from this dream. I usually pretty tough

but I just feel like I'm crumbling. SOrry everyone, I try to stay

positive for everyone but I'm tonight I'm letting it all out. I love

me little ALissa, I just wish I could do this all on my own. All

these people are taking over my house. God do I ever envy all you

parents out there that seem like you got a grip on all of this. Your

all soo strong. I feel soo bad for not being that strong for

Allissa. God delt me these cards for a reason. Some days I feel soo

blessed and then other days I'm lost in the dark. I think these

feelings have arised because up until now Ive been told Allissa will

have poor vision. Now I'm starting to look into her hearing and I

don't think it's gonna be a good outcome. Deaf and blind. I don't

know how to handle this anymore. Please help. You guys always know

just what to say.