Re: Nutritional counseling?

June 29, 2011

Hi Tai, something Gillian said to me yesterday was about getting my life active. We had talked alot about everything but food/eating and she commented on how that might seem like we didn't get to the food issue. But she is trying to have me get re-engaged if life, in the things I loved and used to do or new things I might like to start. And that once that aspect of my life got more in balance, the food issue would too. After I thought about it for a while I realized how right she was. And I had been thinking the phone call had been a " waste of time " . But I am still isolating myself and not using my creative abilities. That keeps me at home a lot and a low grade depression. Of course to get some pleasure out of life then I eat. We talked about my birthday gift from my brother was and engraved glass bucket, for my bucket list accomplishments. So Gillian gave me a web site to try and when she typed it in, up came " Bucket List " . Coincidence or the universe at work? Did you ever see the movie " The Bucket List " about two old men who are dying and decide to throw caution to the wind and do all the extreme things they had never done. They had nothing to lose now. It was a good funny movie the first time I saw it, but not so much the second. Any way it was about living life in the moment and not putting things off. I am going to look into either finishing up some projects if they still bring me joy and pleasure, or trying something new. I read a book called " Refuse to choose " which says it is ok to have many pleasures, even unfinished ones. I am going to and Noble tomorrow with my gift card and find something new. Sandy

Hi, Sandy, I know the need to want to go on living and accomplishing things, but again, without going into detail on the board, my faith in God allows me to think that will happen sometime in the future. As far as the present, I don't know how guilty I feel about eating the forbidden foods. I think I wish I could live on celery sticks. But I can't. I'll wait for a while to see how this plays out. I'm 67 and still waiting to see how things play out. Maybe by 68 I'll have it figured out? :-) Tai

From: Beaulieu

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 11:40 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: I think I have had my fill of college after getting my Masters. I think I have spent a lifetime in school. But I do like learning new things and teaching others. Maybe I will learn something along with my grandson when he gets to that level. That is if I can keep up with him. I was thinking about maybe not being around, not be alive when he goes to/finishes school or other mile stones. Any way I am not going to think negatively. It's just that being 68 is like a wake up call. Did you enjoy the nuts though? That's what I don't do well. I feel guilty about eating those formally " forbidden " foods and don't enjoy them always. Sometimes I eat them so fast as if I need to hide it from ? My inner critic/parent? I live alone so there is no " real " person here to " spy " on me. Well it's almost midnight here so I need to go to bed. Sandy

Hi, Sandy. Today, after all that good eating, I received from my loving husband, at my request, a bag of peanuts and a bag of pistachios. And that was my addition to lunch as well as my din-din. I don't think I will be weighing myself for a while any more. I'm just going to wing it. for a while. sigh. I ate the peanuts and pistachios until I could not eat any more, not enough to make myself sick, but enough to not want to put another one in my mouth. Yes, I believe I " ll be getting rid of most of my diet books and " fat-free " cooking books. I have scads of them.

I am so glad you are enjoying your grandson. Yet you cannot go to college, but perhaps you can study some course anyway, without the credit? Or expand your horizons in some area of art or even do volunteer

work?With regards, Tai

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 3:30 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: Sounds like you might want to throw out that book with the severe eating plan. I think my issue with age is that there is not enough time left it seems to do lots of things. Then I sit in the house and do nothing. But my grandson is 5 and I will probably be here to see him graduate from high school, maybe college. He really is so incredibly smart(not just a grand mother saying that) that he might get through his education early. He has been reading for a while and is doing math. I really feel like I got a new lease on life after my " brain " surgery last year. Before that I think I have said I could hardly walk, or think and was wearing depends. Now I walk normally, think real good most of the time, have pretty good bladder control and can run after my grandson and play. We went bowling last week. It was nice to have the child bumpers up so even I didn't get any gutter balls. He beat me by one

point ad it was his first time ever. I am not afraid of dying, just not wanting to run out of time. I have so many things I enjoyed and had to give them up before my surgery. Your salad sounded great. I like a good salad sometimes too and not for weight loss reasons. Today my tummy has been upset so I am not craving much of anything. But I am getting hungry. Just don't know what I will eat. Later. Sandy

June 29, 2011

Sandy, once again I can appreciate what you're saying. Tonight I was lying in bed, exhausted, and some folk songs kept running around my head. I also had some sad thoughts about the past. Anyway, I got up and looked for the youtube replays of Judy ' version of "Oh, Had I a Golden Thread," took out my instrument and began singing and playing it. It soothed me. There are a few things I can do, another thing I like to do is crochet, but I am losing my passion for it, although I am crocheting borders around some of my kitchen towels. :-) I like that look. I am trying new recipes and have a project to use a book of herbal recipes to try out new flavors and see what they taste like.I saw an older lady (maybe my age) on youtube singing "Golden thread," with her guitar, seemingly in her room, recording herself. She had

such a pretty voice, I was amazed. But she really did not look well. That is what happens when we age. So much talent in the world and so little time to really explore it. But I don't let it get me down, I just appreciate what I have and work from there.We (my husband and I) went out to eat tonight at a new restaurant and I decided to throw caution to the winds and order what I wanted. Not really knowing what I wanted, I decided to order the first thing on the menu. Next time I"m going to order the second thing on the menu. It was good, by the way, something I would not have usually ordered (short ribs and sweet potato fries and broccoli).Music soothes me sometimes when I'm depressed. Sometimes I cry listening to music if it's particularly beautiful or meaningful. I can get sad but not depressed. I had some painful memories tonight, but that's life, and I know one day God will remove all causes of pain and suffering, that is what I

believe. But now it can be tough. Did you ever hear the song "Sunday Morning Sidewalk"? The first time I heard it (recently, as a matter of fact), I cried. Why? Because it reminded me of my past when he spoke about the smell of fried chicken when he was a child and how good it was. Yes, good family memories that we can only remember now.If you had a choice right now, what might be your endeavor at the present time to occupy your time? It seems with your attitude, you should be out there helping people, you have a loving spirit.I ate a big dinner, have the pistachios right by my side, but so far tonight have not eaten one because I'm just not hungry enough to, coupling that with the fact that I don't want to eat anything. It's not easy, girl. We'll just keep going until the good Lord says enough, and I can hope to be the pleasantest person I can hope to be and that basically, my friend, is it. :-) Nighty-nite, my friend. TaiTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Wednesday, June 29, 2011 11:25 AMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Hi Tai, something Gillian said to me yesterday was about getting my life active. We had talked alot about everything but food/eating and she commented on how that might seem like we didn't get to the food issue. But she is trying to have me get re-engaged if life, in the things I loved and used to do or new things I might like to start. And that once that aspect of my life got more in balance, the food issue would too. After I thought about it for a while I realized how right she was. And I had been thinking the phone call had been a "waste of time". But I am still isolating myself and not using my creative abilities. That keeps me at home a lot and a low grade depression. Of course to get some pleasure out of life then I eat. We talked about my birthday gift from my brother was and engraved glass bucket, for my bucket list accomplishments. So Gillian gave me a web site to try and when she typed it in,

up came "Bucket List". Coincidence or the universe at work? Did you ever see the movie "The Bucket List" about two old men who are dying and decide to throw caution to the wind and do all the extreme things they had never done. They had nothing to lose now. It was a good funny movie the first time I saw it, but not so much the second. Any way it was about living life in the moment and not putting things off. I am going to look into either finishing up some projects if they still bring me joy and pleasure, or trying something new. I read a book called "Refuse to choose" which says it is ok to have many pleasures, even unfinished ones. I am going to and Noble tomorrow with my gift card and find something new. Sandy

Hi, Sandy, I know the need to want to go on living and accomplishing things, but again, without going into detail on the board, my faith in God allows me to think that will happen sometime in the future. As far as the present, I don't know how guilty I feel about eating the forbidden foods. I think I wish I could live on celery sticks. But I can't. I'll wait for a while to see how this plays out. I'm 67 and still waiting to see how things play out. Maybe by 68 I'll have it figured out? :-) Tai

From: Beaulieu

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 11:40 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: I think I have had my fill of college after getting my Masters. I think I have spent a lifetime in school. But I do like learning new things and teaching others. Maybe I will learn something along with my grandson when he gets to that level. That is if I can keep up with him. I was thinking about maybe not being around, not be alive when he goes to/finishes school or other mile stones. Any way I am not going to think negatively. It's just that being 68 is like a wake up call. Did you enjoy the nuts though? That's what I don't do well. I feel guilty about eating those formally "forbidden" foods and don't enjoy them always. Sometimes I eat them so fast as if I need to hide it from ? My inner critic/parent? I live alone so there is no "real" person here to "spy" on me. Well it's almost midnight here so I need to go to bed. Sandy

Hi, Sandy. Today, after all that good eating, I received from my loving husband, at my request, a bag of peanuts and a bag of pistachios. And that was my addition to lunch as well as my din-din. I don't think I will be weighing myself for a while any more. I'm just going to wing it. for a while. sigh. I ate the peanuts and pistachios until I could not eat any more, not enough to make myself sick, but enough to not want to put another one in my mouth. Yes, I believe I"ll be getting rid of most of my diet books and "fat-free" cooking books. I have scads of them.

I am so glad you are enjoying your grandson. Yet you cannot go to college, but perhaps you can study some course anyway, without the credit? Or expand your horizons in some area of art or even do volunteer

work?With regards, Tai

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 3:30 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: Sounds like you might want to throw out that book with the severe eating plan. I think my issue with age is that there is not enough time left it seems to do lots of things. Then I sit in the house and do nothing. But my grandson is 5 and I will probably be here to see him graduate from high school, maybe college. He really is so incredibly smart(not just a grand mother saying that) that he might get through his education early. He has been reading for a while and is doing math. I really feel like I got a new lease on life after my"brain" surgery last year. Before that I think I have said I could hardly walk, or think and was wearing depends. Now I walk normally, think real good most of the time, have pretty good bladder control and can run after my grandson and play. We went bowling last week. It was nice to have the child bumpers up so even I didn't get any gutter balls. He beat me by one

point ad it was his first time ever. I am not afraid of dying, just not wanting to run out of time. I have so many things I enjoyed and had to give them up before my surgery. Your salad sounded great. I like a good salad sometimes too and not for weight loss reasons. Today my tummy has been upset so I am not craving much of anything. But I am getting hungry. Just don't know what I will eat. Later. Sandy

June 29, 2011

Sandy, once again I can appreciate what you're saying. Tonight I was lying in bed, exhausted, and some folk songs kept running around my head. I also had some sad thoughts about the past. Anyway, I got up and looked for the youtube replays of Judy ' version of "Oh, Had I a Golden Thread," took out my instrument and began singing and playing it. It soothed me. There are a few things I can do, another thing I like to do is crochet, but I am losing my passion for it, although I am crocheting borders around some of my kitchen towels. :-) I like that look. I am trying new recipes and have a project to use a book of herbal recipes to try out new flavors and see what they taste like.I saw an older lady (maybe my age) on youtube singing "Golden thread," with her guitar, seemingly in her room, recording herself. She had

such a pretty voice, I was amazed. But she really did not look well. That is what happens when we age. So much talent in the world and so little time to really explore it. But I don't let it get me down, I just appreciate what I have and work from there.We (my husband and I) went out to eat tonight at a new restaurant and I decided to throw caution to the winds and order what I wanted. Not really knowing what I wanted, I decided to order the first thing on the menu. Next time I"m going to order the second thing on the menu. It was good, by the way, something I would not have usually ordered (short ribs and sweet potato fries and broccoli).Music soothes me sometimes when I'm depressed. Sometimes I cry listening to music if it's particularly beautiful or meaningful. I can get sad but not depressed. I had some painful memories tonight, but that's life, and I know one day God will remove all causes of pain and suffering, that is what I

believe. But now it can be tough. Did you ever hear the song "Sunday Morning Sidewalk"? The first time I heard it (recently, as a matter of fact), I cried. Why? Because it reminded me of my past when he spoke about the smell of fried chicken when he was a child and how good it was. Yes, good family memories that we can only remember now.If you had a choice right now, what might be your endeavor at the present time to occupy your time? It seems with your attitude, you should be out there helping people, you have a loving spirit.I ate a big dinner, have the pistachios right by my side, but so far tonight have not eaten one because I'm just not hungry enough to, coupling that with the fact that I don't want to eat anything. It's not easy, girl. We'll just keep going until the good Lord says enough, and I can hope to be the pleasantest person I can hope to be and that basically, my friend, is it. :-) Nighty-nite, my friend. TaiTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Wednesday, June 29, 2011 11:25 AMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Hi Tai, something Gillian said to me yesterday was about getting my life active. We had talked alot about everything but food/eating and she commented on how that might seem like we didn't get to the food issue. But she is trying to have me get re-engaged if life, in the things I loved and used to do or new things I might like to start. And that once that aspect of my life got more in balance, the food issue would too. After I thought about it for a while I realized how right she was. And I had been thinking the phone call had been a "waste of time". But I am still isolating myself and not using my creative abilities. That keeps me at home a lot and a low grade depression. Of course to get some pleasure out of life then I eat. We talked about my birthday gift from my brother was and engraved glass bucket, for my bucket list accomplishments. So Gillian gave me a web site to try and when she typed it in,

up came "Bucket List". Coincidence or the universe at work? Did you ever see the movie "The Bucket List" about two old men who are dying and decide to throw caution to the wind and do all the extreme things they had never done. They had nothing to lose now. It was a good funny movie the first time I saw it, but not so much the second. Any way it was about living life in the moment and not putting things off. I am going to look into either finishing up some projects if they still bring me joy and pleasure, or trying something new. I read a book called "Refuse to choose" which says it is ok to have many pleasures, even unfinished ones. I am going to and Noble tomorrow with my gift card and find something new. Sandy

Hi, Sandy, I know the need to want to go on living and accomplishing things, but again, without going into detail on the board, my faith in God allows me to think that will happen sometime in the future. As far as the present, I don't know how guilty I feel about eating the forbidden foods. I think I wish I could live on celery sticks. But I can't. I'll wait for a while to see how this plays out. I'm 67 and still waiting to see how things play out. Maybe by 68 I'll have it figured out? :-) Tai

From: Beaulieu

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 11:40 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: I think I have had my fill of college after getting my Masters. I think I have spent a lifetime in school. But I do like learning new things and teaching others. Maybe I will learn something along with my grandson when he gets to that level. That is if I can keep up with him. I was thinking about maybe not being around, not be alive when he goes to/finishes school or other mile stones. Any way I am not going to think negatively. It's just that being 68 is like a wake up call. Did you enjoy the nuts though? That's what I don't do well. I feel guilty about eating those formally "forbidden" foods and don't enjoy them always. Sometimes I eat them so fast as if I need to hide it from ? My inner critic/parent? I live alone so there is no "real" person here to "spy" on me. Well it's almost midnight here so I need to go to bed. Sandy

Hi, Sandy. Today, after all that good eating, I received from my loving husband, at my request, a bag of peanuts and a bag of pistachios. And that was my addition to lunch as well as my din-din. I don't think I will be weighing myself for a while any more. I'm just going to wing it. for a while. sigh. I ate the peanuts and pistachios until I could not eat any more, not enough to make myself sick, but enough to not want to put another one in my mouth. Yes, I believe I"ll be getting rid of most of my diet books and "fat-free" cooking books. I have scads of them.

I am so glad you are enjoying your grandson. Yet you cannot go to college, but perhaps you can study some course anyway, without the credit? Or expand your horizons in some area of art or even do volunteer

work?With regards, Tai

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 3:30 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: Sounds like you might want to throw out that book with the severe eating plan. I think my issue with age is that there is not enough time left it seems to do lots of things. Then I sit in the house and do nothing. But my grandson is 5 and I will probably be here to see him graduate from high school, maybe college. He really is so incredibly smart(not just a grand mother saying that) that he might get through his education early. He has been reading for a while and is doing math. I really feel like I got a new lease on life after my"brain" surgery last year. Before that I think I have said I could hardly walk, or think and was wearing depends. Now I walk normally, think real good most of the time, have pretty good bladder control and can run after my grandson and play. We went bowling last week. It was nice to have the child bumpers up so even I didn't get any gutter balls. He beat me by one

point ad it was his first time ever. I am not afraid of dying, just not wanting to run out of time. I have so many things I enjoyed and had to give them up before my surgery. Your salad sounded great. I like a good salad sometimes too and not for weight loss reasons. Today my tummy has been upset so I am not craving much of anything. But I am getting hungry. Just don't know what I will eat. Later. Sandy

June 29, 2011

Hi Tai, Liked your post. I don't know what my next endeavor is yet. I guess it is discovering my endeavor, my passion, or re-discovering an old one. Tomorrow I spend the day with my " significant other " , male friend, not husband as we always do on Thursdays. He has such a gentle and loving spirit that I look forward to seeing him. Being with him seems to ground me and his peace is " contagious " . He is very spiritual. We will be going out to eat and then to the book store and I will browse around for a book on some new creative activity. I am leaning towards a Japanese philosophy of Wabi Sabi. It is not my first encounter with it. Basically it is just being aware of the beauty and simplicity around us and finding peace through that. I also noticed a book on Japanese art(how to do it). I went grocery shopping today but could not go down the dog food aisle. Or rather I chose not to today. I am doing my grieving a little at a time and that seems right for me just now. I do miss her. Well it is past my bed time and I have not been getting enough sleep. Sandy

Sandy, once again I can appreciate what you're saying. Tonight I was lying in bed, exhausted, and some folk songs kept running around my head. I also had some sad thoughts about the past. Anyway, I got up and looked for the youtube replays of Judy ' version of " Oh, Had I a Golden Thread, " took out my instrument and began singing and playing it. It soothed me. There are a few things I can do, another thing I like to do is crochet, but I am losing my passion for it, although I am crocheting borders around some of my kitchen towels. :-) I like that look. I am trying new recipes and have a project to use a book of herbal recipes to try out new flavors and see what they taste like.

I saw an older lady (maybe my age) on youtube singing " Golden thread, " with her guitar, seemingly in her room, recording herself. She had

such a pretty voice, I was amazed. But she really did not look well. That is what happens when we age. So much talent in the world and so little time to really explore it. But I don't let it get me down, I just appreciate what I have and work from there.

We (my husband and I) went out to eat tonight at a new restaurant and I decided to throw caution to the winds and order what I wanted. Not really knowing what I wanted, I decided to order the first thing on the menu. Next time I " m going to order the second thing on the menu. It was good, by the way, something I would not have usually ordered (short ribs and sweet potato fries and broccoli).

Music soothes me sometimes when I'm depressed. Sometimes I cry listening to music if it's particularly beautiful or meaningful. I can get sad but not depressed. I had some painful memories tonight, but that's life, and I know one day God will remove all causes of pain and suffering, that is what I

believe. But now it can be tough. Did you ever hear the song " Sunday Morning Sidewalk " ? The first time I heard it (recently, as a matter of fact), I cried. Why? Because it reminded me of my past when he spoke about the smell of fried chicken when he was a child and how good it was. Yes, good family memories that we can only remember now.

If you had a choice right now, what might be your endeavor at the present time to occupy your time? It seems with your attitude, you should be out there helping people, you have a loving spirit.I ate a big dinner, have the pistachios right by my side, but so far tonight have not eaten one because I'm just not hungry enough to, coupling that with the fact that I don't want to eat anything. It's not easy, girl. We'll just keep going until the good Lord says enough, and I can hope to be the pleasantest person I can hope to be and that basically, my friend, is it. :-) Nighty-nite, my friend. Tai

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Wednesday, June 29, 2011 11:25 AMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Hi Tai, something Gillian said to me yesterday was about getting my life active. We had talked alot about everything but food/eating and she commented on how that might seem like we didn't get to the food issue. But she is trying to have me get re-engaged if life, in the things I loved and used to do or new things I might like to start. And that once that aspect of my life got more in balance, the food issue would too. After I thought about it for a while I realized how right she was. And I had been thinking the phone call had been a " waste of time " . But I am still isolating myself and not using my creative abilities. That keeps me at home a lot and a low grade depression. Of course to get some pleasure out of life then I eat. We talked about my birthday gift from my brother was and engraved glass bucket, for my bucket list accomplishments. So Gillian gave me a web site to try and when she typed it in,

up came " Bucket List " . Coincidence or the universe at work? Did you ever see the movie " The Bucket List " about two old men who are dying and decide to throw caution to the wind and do all the extreme things they had never done. They had nothing to lose now. It was a good funny movie the first time I saw it, but not so much the second. Any way it was about living life in the moment and not putting things off. I am going to look into either finishing up some projects if they still bring me joy and pleasure, or trying something new. I read a book called " Refuse to choose " which says it is ok to have many pleasures, even unfinished ones. I am going to and Noble tomorrow with my gift card and find something new. Sandy

Hi, Sandy, I know the need to want to go on living and accomplishing things, but again, without going into detail on the board, my faith in God allows me to think that will happen sometime in the future. As far as the present, I don't know how guilty I feel about eating the forbidden foods. I think I wish I could live on celery sticks. But I can't. I'll wait for a while to see how this plays out. I'm 67 and still waiting to see how things play out. Maybe by 68 I'll have it figured out? :-) Tai

From: Beaulieu

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 11:40 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: I think I have had my fill of college after getting my Masters. I think I have spent a lifetime in school. But I do like learning new things and teaching others. Maybe I will learn something along with my grandson when he gets to that level. That is if I can keep up with him. I was thinking about maybe not being around, not be alive when he goes to/finishes school or other mile stones. Any way I am not going to think negatively. It's just that being 68 is like a wake up call. Did you enjoy the nuts though? That's what I don't do well. I feel guilty about eating those formally " forbidden " foods and don't enjoy them always. Sometimes I eat them so fast as if I need to hide it from ? My inner critic/parent? I live alone so there is no " real " person here to " spy " on me. Well it's almost midnight here so I need to go to bed. Sandy

Hi, Sandy. Today, after all that good eating, I received from my loving husband, at my request, a bag of peanuts and a bag of pistachios. And that was my addition to lunch as well as my din-din. I don't think I will be weighing myself for a while any more. I'm just going to wing it. for a while. sigh. I ate the peanuts and pistachios until I could not eat any more, not enough to make myself sick, but enough to not want to put another one in my mouth. Yes, I believe I " ll be getting rid of most of my diet books and " fat-free " cooking books. I have scads of them.

I am so glad you are enjoying your grandson. Yet you cannot go to college, but perhaps you can study some course anyway, without the credit? Or expand your horizons in some area of art or even do volunteer

work?With regards, Tai

To: IntuitiveEating_Support

Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 3:30 PMSubject: Re: Nutritional counseling?

Tai: Sounds like you might want to throw out that book with the severe eating plan. I think my issue with age is that there is not enough time left it seems to do lots of things. Then I sit in the house and do nothing. But my grandson is 5 and I will probably be here to see him graduate from high school, maybe college. He really is so incredibly smart(not just a grand mother saying that) that he might get through his education early. He has been reading for a while and is doing math. I really feel like I got a new lease on life after my " brain " surgery last year. Before that I think I have said I could hardly walk, or think and was wearing depends. Now I walk normally, think real good most of the time, have pretty good bladder control and can run after my grandson and play. We went bowling last week. It was nice to have the child bumpers up so even I didn't get any gutter balls. He beat me by one

point ad it was his first time ever. I am not afraid of dying, just not wanting to run out of time. I have so many things I enjoyed and had to give them up before my surgery. Your salad sounded great. I like a good salad sometimes too and not for weight loss reasons. Today my tummy has been upset so I am not craving much of anything. But I am getting hungry. Just don't know what I will eat. Later. Sandy

June 29, 2011