Re: To Everyone

[Guest guest]

a,

Glad you stuck around. Your contributions did bring something

to the group and you have helped us an incredible amount, but I

think also there probably comes a time when you have to put the

colon cancer part of your life behind and if you are at that point,

saying goodbye to the group is a very good thing and you should have

no regrets whatsoever about it. You've paid more dues than anybody

should ever have to. Best of luck. I'm sure we all want, as would

your mom, for you nothing but happiness from here on out.

Joe

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

a,

Glad you stuck around. Your contributions did bring something

to the group and you have helped us an incredible amount, but I

think also there probably comes a time when you have to put the

colon cancer part of your life behind and if you are at that point,

saying goodbye to the group is a very good thing and you should have

no regrets whatsoever about it. You've paid more dues than anybody

should ever have to. Best of luck. I'm sure we all want, as would

your mom, for you nothing but happiness from here on out.

Joe

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

a,

Glad you stuck around. Your contributions did bring something

to the group and you have helped us an incredible amount, but I

think also there probably comes a time when you have to put the

colon cancer part of your life behind and if you are at that point,

saying goodbye to the group is a very good thing and you should have

no regrets whatsoever about it. You've paid more dues than anybody

should ever have to. Best of luck. I'm sure we all want, as would

your mom, for you nothing but happiness from here on out.

Joe

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Dear a,

I know exactly how you feel. I, too, do not feel that I bring much to the

party--I read every single entry on this board, but have no " firsthand "

knowledge of cancer. I also have gotten to " know " all on the board and feel

sooo bad

when I see unhappy results and soooo elated when someone gets a good

" reading. "

My brother and sister-in-law are treading water right now. They so want to

enjoy their new found freedom of retirement. I don't even bring up cancer to

them now because they want to free themselves from even thinking about it.

They are watchful, have their tests on schedule, etc.

However, I continue to " lurk " her because I know that I can continue to

learn. once told me that just being here brought something to the party

and

so even though it hurts a lot when I see someone like you and how you are

still missing your Mom so very much--and wanting to not THINK about cancer no

wanting to be here--I do understand. You have to decide what's best for you.

Just know that you will be greatly missed.

Love,

Betty

Younger brother in KY. age-62

10/01 CC; resection; TMN stage: pT3N2MX (Stage III) 5FU/Lev-6 months

9/03 PET showed recurrent met (left para-aortic malignant lymph nodes);

Xeloda/Oxiplatin infusions and 25 radiation treatments

Hospitalized 2/04--8 days severe hand/foot syndrome & diahrrea- 30 lb weight

loss; colonscopy-clear. Infection.

Finished treatment after hospitalization.

On cancer Vacation @ present; Waiting one month before another PET

May 10 - PET showed NED

June 30 - next scheduled PET scan

July 2 --PET

NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE

PRAISE THE LORD!!

[Guest guest]

Dear a,

I know exactly how you feel. I, too, do not feel that I bring much to the

party--I read every single entry on this board, but have no " firsthand "

knowledge of cancer. I also have gotten to " know " all on the board and feel

sooo bad

when I see unhappy results and soooo elated when someone gets a good

" reading. "

My brother and sister-in-law are treading water right now. They so want to

enjoy their new found freedom of retirement. I don't even bring up cancer to

them now because they want to free themselves from even thinking about it.

They are watchful, have their tests on schedule, etc.

However, I continue to " lurk " her because I know that I can continue to

learn. once told me that just being here brought something to the party

and

so even though it hurts a lot when I see someone like you and how you are

still missing your Mom so very much--and wanting to not THINK about cancer no

wanting to be here--I do understand. You have to decide what's best for you.

Just know that you will be greatly missed.

Love,

Betty

Younger brother in KY. age-62

10/01 CC; resection; TMN stage: pT3N2MX (Stage III) 5FU/Lev-6 months

9/03 PET showed recurrent met (left para-aortic malignant lymph nodes);

Xeloda/Oxiplatin infusions and 25 radiation treatments

Hospitalized 2/04--8 days severe hand/foot syndrome & diahrrea- 30 lb weight

loss; colonscopy-clear. Infection.

Finished treatment after hospitalization.

On cancer Vacation @ present; Waiting one month before another PET

May 10 - PET showed NED

June 30 - next scheduled PET scan

July 2 --PET

NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE

PRAISE THE LORD!!

[Guest guest]

Dear a,

I know exactly how you feel. I, too, do not feel that I bring much to the

party--I read every single entry on this board, but have no " firsthand "

knowledge of cancer. I also have gotten to " know " all on the board and feel

sooo bad

when I see unhappy results and soooo elated when someone gets a good

" reading. "

My brother and sister-in-law are treading water right now. They so want to

enjoy their new found freedom of retirement. I don't even bring up cancer to

them now because they want to free themselves from even thinking about it.

They are watchful, have their tests on schedule, etc.

However, I continue to " lurk " her because I know that I can continue to

learn. once told me that just being here brought something to the party

and

so even though it hurts a lot when I see someone like you and how you are

still missing your Mom so very much--and wanting to not THINK about cancer no

wanting to be here--I do understand. You have to decide what's best for you.

Just know that you will be greatly missed.

Love,

Betty

Younger brother in KY. age-62

10/01 CC; resection; TMN stage: pT3N2MX (Stage III) 5FU/Lev-6 months

9/03 PET showed recurrent met (left para-aortic malignant lymph nodes);

Xeloda/Oxiplatin infusions and 25 radiation treatments

Hospitalized 2/04--8 days severe hand/foot syndrome & diahrrea- 30 lb weight

loss; colonscopy-clear. Infection.

Finished treatment after hospitalization.

On cancer Vacation @ present; Waiting one month before another PET

May 10 - PET showed NED

June 30 - next scheduled PET scan

July 2 --PET

NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE

PRAISE THE LORD!!

[Guest guest]

a,

I will miss your wise counsel; you have helped me in ways you cannot

know. I understand that this must be difficult for you and appreciate

that you need to move on.

Best wishes,

Sharon

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because I

do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I don't

feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

a,

I will miss your wise counsel; you have helped me in ways you cannot

know. I understand that this must be difficult for you and appreciate

that you need to move on.

Best wishes,

Sharon

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because I

do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I don't

feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

a,

I think I understand how you feel. I lost my mom over 4 years ago

and I still get the " what if's " all the time. It hurts a lot and

reading about others going through the pain and it opens a lot of

wounds.

Actively participating in the board takes a lot of time and emotional

involvement (at least for me). That's why I only post once in a blue

moon, but I'm always lurking. Most people talk about chemo and I

don't have much to add to the discussion.

I'm grateful for all the advice and support I got by reading your

posts, especially around 6 months ago. Maybe after some time you

might feel like posting again. Maybe not. Who knows what's in the

future.

Take care of yourself and good luck.

Miracles happen,

Cliff H.

> Betty,

> Thank you for your kind words. You and everyone who responded to

that post.

> I have thought long and hard about it. I have to be honest and say

that the drive to research and learn part of me is MIA. I don't feel

the same way I once did with regard to that. However, I feel a strong

bond with many people here. A bond I am not going to break by "

leaving " . Instead I will lurk and post when I have something of help

to add.

> It's not that I don't want to hear about CC, its just that I feel

sometimes given the fact that it claimed my mom's life at 58 years

old, I am biter. It doesn't help anyone else to have someone who is

biter around you know? I want so much to still have the hope I once

did, but I am afraid I can't because I have seen what this disease

can do and its ugly. I visit a stone every Sunday and its because of

CC. I don't want anyone else to have to do that. I don't know what I

can do to prevent it though.

> a

>

[Guest guest]

a- I too would like to thank you for all your support and great

advice. I was so encouraged when your mother rallied, and so very

saddened with her subsequent decline. I can only imagine how much

more devestating it has been for you. As I have often said, I

believe the task of a caregiver, harder than that of being the

patient.

You need to take time for yourself and family. I hope that your Dad

is finding his way a bit better these days. Do let us know how

things are going with you if you feel up to it occasionally.

Best wishes,

Kris

[Guest guest]

a

You are a dear woman, and I wish you the best and Thank you for

helping all the new people who have came here.

I Know the Loss of a Mother is great, I lost mine 4 years ago to a

different kind of cancer,a battle it was, sickness and all,same time

hubby got sick .Now I am going thru it again up and down with Hubby

with CC & Met.

Just thank you and U take care of yourself now!!

The best to you!

Liz

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because I

do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I don't

feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Liz, I so well can relate to what you are going through. I am

battling with my mom diagosed two years ago with lung cancer, not

operable, and my husband diagnosed July 2003 with colon cancer. It

is so hard sometimes...isn't it.

Hugs,

Monika

> > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

formost.

> > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

intention,

> but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I

> do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't

> feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > a

> >

> > __________________________________________________

> >

[Guest guest]

Liz, I so well can relate to what you are going through. I am

battling with my mom diagosed two years ago with lung cancer, not

operable, and my husband diagnosed July 2003 with colon cancer. It

is so hard sometimes...isn't it.

Hugs,

Monika

> > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

formost.

> > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

intention,

> but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I

> do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't

> feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > a

> >

> > __________________________________________________

> >

[Guest guest]

Liz, I so well can relate to what you are going through. I am

battling with my mom diagosed two years ago with lung cancer, not

operable, and my husband diagnosed July 2003 with colon cancer. It

is so hard sometimes...isn't it.

Hugs,

Monika

> > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

formost.

> > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

intention,

> but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because

I

> do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

don't

> feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > a

> >

> > __________________________________________________

> >

[Guest guest]

a, I love you too and while I shall miss your wise counsel, I too

realize that there comes a point where this whole " cancer " thing

needs to be put behind us and we need to go on. You, I am sure, will

continue to contribute outside of this group and will always be a

strong advocate for the fight against cancer. Drop by every once in

a while, if you like, just to stay in touch. You've been a great

cyber-bud to me and may God watch over you and keep you.

Hugs,

Monika

> I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and formost.

> I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my intention,

but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care, because I

do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I don't

feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> a

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Monika

Yes it is hard, life just doesn't feel real at times, and u get so

discouraged just wanting to give up,(sometimes would be so much

easier) but we can't do that either. My belief anymore and tell all I

know, Enjoy life while u can cuz u never know what is going to come

later! Galen and I have done a lot but we wanted to do more, oh well!

We are enjoying and trying to make the best of the situation, as he

says u have to play the hand dealt to you.

As far as mom goes, she put up one heck of a battle, and fought all

the way, still hard to talk about at times.Mom's started in 99-passed

in 2000,galen's started 2000,month after we moved to the Ozarks, Met

in 2003,Liver surgery,but not able to get tumor!

Just hang in there it will be a rough road at times,and fun times -u

will never regret it tho!!

Just take a little time for yourself when u can,which you probably

already know to do.

Take care & Hugs to you!

Liz

> > > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

> formost.

> > > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> > part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

> intention,

> > but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care,

because

> I

> > do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

> don't

> > feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > > a

> > >

> > > __________________________________________________

> > >

[Guest guest]

Monika

Yes it is hard, life just doesn't feel real at times, and u get so

discouraged just wanting to give up,(sometimes would be so much

easier) but we can't do that either. My belief anymore and tell all I

know, Enjoy life while u can cuz u never know what is going to come

later! Galen and I have done a lot but we wanted to do more, oh well!

We are enjoying and trying to make the best of the situation, as he

says u have to play the hand dealt to you.

As far as mom goes, she put up one heck of a battle, and fought all

the way, still hard to talk about at times.Mom's started in 99-passed

in 2000,galen's started 2000,month after we moved to the Ozarks, Met

in 2003,Liver surgery,but not able to get tumor!

Just hang in there it will be a rough road at times,and fun times -u

will never regret it tho!!

Just take a little time for yourself when u can,which you probably

already know to do.

Take care & Hugs to you!

Liz

> > > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

> formost.

> > > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> > part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

> intention,

> > but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care,

because

> I

> > do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

> don't

> > feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > > a

> > >

> > > __________________________________________________

> > >

[Guest guest]

Monika

Yes it is hard, life just doesn't feel real at times, and u get so

discouraged just wanting to give up,(sometimes would be so much

easier) but we can't do that either. My belief anymore and tell all I

know, Enjoy life while u can cuz u never know what is going to come

later! Galen and I have done a lot but we wanted to do more, oh well!

We are enjoying and trying to make the best of the situation, as he

says u have to play the hand dealt to you.

As far as mom goes, she put up one heck of a battle, and fought all

the way, still hard to talk about at times.Mom's started in 99-passed

in 2000,galen's started 2000,month after we moved to the Ozarks, Met

in 2003,Liver surgery,but not able to get tumor!

Just hang in there it will be a rough road at times,and fun times -u

will never regret it tho!!

Just take a little time for yourself when u can,which you probably

already know to do.

Take care & Hugs to you!

Liz

> > > I love each of you, I want you all to know that first and

> formost.

> > > I thought that after my mom passed away I would easily remain a

> > part of this wonderful group and help others. That was my

> intention,

> > but I am having a hard time with it. Not that I don't care,

because

> I

> > do, very much. Its just that I feel as though I am jaded now. I

> don't

> > feel I am bringing anything to the group.

> > > I wish each of you all the best, continued succeses and faith

> > > a

> > >

> > > __________________________________________________

> > >

[Guest guest]

a and Cliff,

You are both incredible people. It is an honor to know you and to see how much

you give back to this list.

If this list becomes too painful there are many ways to continue the fight

against this cancer. You are always wanted and needed at CCNetwork.

Priscilla

Colorectal Cancer Network

www.colorectal-cancer.net

>

>

> Date: 2004/07/18 Sun PM 04:59:41 EDT

> To: colon_cancer_support

> Subject: Re: To Everyone

>

>

Priscilla Savary

Executive Director

Colorectal Cancer Network

PO Box 182, Kensington MD 20895

www.colorectal-cancer.net

psavary@...

[Guest guest]

a and Cliff,

You are both incredible people. It is an honor to know you and to see how much

you give back to this list.

If this list becomes too painful there are many ways to continue the fight

against this cancer. You are always wanted and needed at CCNetwork.

Priscilla

Colorectal Cancer Network

www.colorectal-cancer.net

>

>

> Date: 2004/07/18 Sun PM 04:59:41 EDT

> To: colon_cancer_support

> Subject: Re: To Everyone

>

>

Priscilla Savary

Executive Director

Colorectal Cancer Network

PO Box 182, Kensington MD 20895

www.colorectal-cancer.net

psavary@...

[Guest guest]

a: I want you to read this. It's was Nicks choice. The prayers.love and

support you

and others give to all who enter this board is a phenomenonal help and I know

where you are coming from:

Miss me,but let me go

When I come to the end of the road

and the sun has set for me

I want no rites in a gloom-filled room

Why cry for a soul set free?

Miss me a little-but not to o long

and not with your head bowed low

remember the love we once shared

Miss me- but let me go.

for the jouney we all must take.

and each must go alone

It's all part of the Master's plan

A step on the road to home

When you are lonely and sick of heart

Go to the friends we know

and bury your sorrows in doing

Good Deeds

MISS ME- BUT LET ME GO

iT WILL NEVER BE EASY BUT THAT .LIKE YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT WILL

HELP ME ON. I DON'T BELIEVE I CAN EVER NOT MISS HIM TO MUCH BUT

I WILL TRY AND EACH DAY I WILL LOOK FOR ONE DDED TO DO AND IN HIS

MEMORY I WILL CARRY ON

jANE

[Guest guest]

a: I want you to read this. It's was Nicks choice. The prayers.love and

support you

and others give to all who enter this board is a phenomenonal help and I know

where you are coming from:

Miss me,but let me go

When I come to the end of the road

and the sun has set for me

I want no rites in a gloom-filled room

Why cry for a soul set free?

Miss me a little-but not to o long

and not with your head bowed low

remember the love we once shared

Miss me- but let me go.

for the jouney we all must take.

and each must go alone

It's all part of the Master's plan

A step on the road to home

When you are lonely and sick of heart

Go to the friends we know

and bury your sorrows in doing

Good Deeds

MISS ME- BUT LET ME GO

iT WILL NEVER BE EASY BUT THAT .LIKE YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT WILL

HELP ME ON. I DON'T BELIEVE I CAN EVER NOT MISS HIM TO MUCH BUT

I WILL TRY AND EACH DAY I WILL LOOK FOR ONE DDED TO DO AND IN HIS

MEMORY I WILL CARRY ON

jANE

[Guest guest]

a: I want you to read this. It's was Nicks choice. The prayers.love and

support you

and others give to all who enter this board is a phenomenonal help and I know

where you are coming from:

Miss me,but let me go

When I come to the end of the road

and the sun has set for me

I want no rites in a gloom-filled room

Why cry for a soul set free?

Miss me a little-but not to o long

and not with your head bowed low

remember the love we once shared

Miss me- but let me go.

for the jouney we all must take.

and each must go alone

It's all part of the Master's plan

A step on the road to home

When you are lonely and sick of heart

Go to the friends we know

and bury your sorrows in doing

Good Deeds

MISS ME- BUT LET ME GO

iT WILL NEVER BE EASY BUT THAT .LIKE YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT WILL

HELP ME ON. I DON'T BELIEVE I CAN EVER NOT MISS HIM TO MUCH BUT

I WILL TRY AND EACH DAY I WILL LOOK FOR ONE DDED TO DO AND IN HIS

MEMORY I WILL CARRY ON

jANE