Guest guest Posted February 22, 2004 Report Share Posted February 22, 2004 Narice, You and Phil are a good example of what faith and determination will do. I am so happy to hear the good news and appoligize it took me so long to respond. My computer was shutting me down about the time of your post. Keep on posting girl!!!! I love your sense of humor. Best Wishes Joyce > Well, here we are on round 5 of the 5FU, Leucovorin, and Oxilaplatin chemo. > So far the side effects have remained minimal. Flu like aches and chills the > day of the Oxaliplatin. Dry hands from the 5 Fu (use Aquafor it is made > special to help treat that and radiation problems and is sold in most stores). > Occasionally he has a bout of nausea. > All manageable with mostly over the counter treatments or mild prescriptions. > > We had a wonderful relaxing Valentine's Day dinner etc. The Dr. told us Phil > GAINED 5 lbs. and we are looking at a 1-2 month chemo break around Easter!! > YAHOOO!!!!!!!! > Other drugs may be added to the chemo after that. so far so good. > > Thanks again for all your prayers. God certainly hears and acts on them! > God Bless you all! > Much Love, > Phil, Narice Dan & Timmy May > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Narice: I think of you and Phil often and am hoping for the best. I was so pleased to hear that things sound like they are going well for Phil. It is a difficult road to travel, but you really seem to have a good attitude about everything, even though there are times of worry. I remember that the times when I got most upset were before those tests; there was so much anxiety. Afterwards, when there were good results, I was exhausted from all of the needless worry and wished I didn't waste those good days worrying, but it is so hard not to. You also seem to be doing a great job at giving your children the support and love they need to handle everything. It is hard to live with hope when there is always the worry about what might be, but it certainly sounds like you are making plans and enjoying the " now " . burg should be just beautiful in April. What a nice place to go for R & R! I send all my best to all of you. Hugs and blue skies, Amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Narice: I think of you and Phil often and am hoping for the best. I was so pleased to hear that things sound like they are going well for Phil. It is a difficult road to travel, but you really seem to have a good attitude about everything, even though there are times of worry. I remember that the times when I got most upset were before those tests; there was so much anxiety. Afterwards, when there were good results, I was exhausted from all of the needless worry and wished I didn't waste those good days worrying, but it is so hard not to. You also seem to be doing a great job at giving your children the support and love they need to handle everything. It is hard to live with hope when there is always the worry about what might be, but it certainly sounds like you are making plans and enjoying the " now " . burg should be just beautiful in April. What a nice place to go for R & R! I send all my best to all of you. Hugs and blue skies, Amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Thanks to all of you for your support. Don't worry too much I'm O.K. for the most part. Things are so much better for us than some of you and for that I am so grateful. Off to church where I pray for all of you. Thanks again! Narice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Thanks to all of you for your support. Don't worry too much I'm O.K. for the most part. Things are so much better for us than some of you and for that I am so grateful. Off to church where I pray for all of you. Thanks again! Narice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Thanks to all of you for your support. Don't worry too much I'm O.K. for the most part. Things are so much better for us than some of you and for that I am so grateful. Off to church where I pray for all of you. Thanks again! Narice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Dear Narice, I'm so glad to hear Phil is doing well with his new chemo. It sounds identical to my sister's (dx stage IV 11/02). She has made such a huge turn around with it. She also has liver mets, something in the pancreas, and mets to the lung, but with this chemo, after 3 treatments, all tumors have shrunk dramatically. We took a trip to Southern Utah, about 4 hours away last weekend - and it was like having my old friend back. I'm just counting each day of " wellness " (of course she is much thinner and weaker than she used to be) as a great blessing. Thanks for your encouragement. Stacey > Hello all, > We had a wonderful trip to burg even took in a night in Frostburg, MD > I had been to college. My son, Dan drove part of the way giving his dad a > much welcomed break. > We took in the Governor's Palace, several of the small shops, Shield's > Tavern, the courthouse, and some speeches by men reacting as Henry and > Jefferson. We got a good deal on our room at White Lion Inn only $40/night > and they bumped us up from the typical double room to an efficiency since it is > still off season!! We also went to Busch Gardens. While the boys and Phil > loved the roller coasters. Phil stayed with the tamer ones no loops or gravity > defying dangling any more. overall though we thought the park to be too > commercial. Give us Hershey Kennywood, Idlewild, or Riverside Parks!! More for all of > us. > > The new chemo is so far going well. They give Phil a small pump with more 5FU > pumped over 46 hours. It is a bit cumbersome at first but not nearly as bad > as we had imagined. > > I did go through Phil's chart and the CT report. Liver still has multiple > mets the largest being a 9cm one on the right lobe. There also seems to be > something going on with the pancreas which I guess is some kind of met but the > reports are unclear about this. > > That's the news for now. I have mixed emotions. Happy that all appears to be > well but a bit concerned about all the numbers. > I guess we never really stop worrying, but I wish I could. > > As always thanks for the prayers > Love and God's blessings > > Narice > caregiver to Phil > diagnosed June 19, 2003 > Stage 4 with multiple liver mets > > July 2003- Severe swelling, Some Jaundice PCP tells us NOT to > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â seek treatment. > We begin treatment with Dr. Jan Rothman > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â at Regional Cancer Center Erie, PA > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â 5FU, Leucovorin, Oxilaplatin > August 2003- Phil's weight drops from 165 to 135 > > September 2003- Phil goes off diuretic (oops) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â In late September he has CT showing > significant > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â reduction of tumor. ;-) > December 2003- Tumor stable side effects so far are minimal some flu > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â like symptoms with the Oxilaplatin, dry > chapped hands > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â and occasional nausea > March 2004- Weight gain of 20 lbs (fluctuates between 155-160) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Tumor still stable, (13cm in colon multiple liver > mets. Largest being 9 cm > April 2004 1 month chemo break YIPEEE!!!!! > April 21,2004- Â Phil starts on new chemo 5 FU, Leucovorin, Oxaliplatin > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â AND Avastin via 46 hr pump. Weight 160. > > God's blessings to all on this journey! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Dear Narice, I'm so glad to hear Phil is doing well with his new chemo. It sounds identical to my sister's (dx stage IV 11/02). She has made such a huge turn around with it. She also has liver mets, something in the pancreas, and mets to the lung, but with this chemo, after 3 treatments, all tumors have shrunk dramatically. We took a trip to Southern Utah, about 4 hours away last weekend - and it was like having my old friend back. I'm just counting each day of " wellness " (of course she is much thinner and weaker than she used to be) as a great blessing. Thanks for your encouragement. Stacey > Hello all, > We had a wonderful trip to burg even took in a night in Frostburg, MD > I had been to college. My son, Dan drove part of the way giving his dad a > much welcomed break. > We took in the Governor's Palace, several of the small shops, Shield's > Tavern, the courthouse, and some speeches by men reacting as Henry and > Jefferson. We got a good deal on our room at White Lion Inn only $40/night > and they bumped us up from the typical double room to an efficiency since it is > still off season!! We also went to Busch Gardens. While the boys and Phil > loved the roller coasters. Phil stayed with the tamer ones no loops or gravity > defying dangling any more. overall though we thought the park to be too > commercial. Give us Hershey Kennywood, Idlewild, or Riverside Parks!! More for all of > us. > > The new chemo is so far going well. They give Phil a small pump with more 5FU > pumped over 46 hours. It is a bit cumbersome at first but not nearly as bad > as we had imagined. > > I did go through Phil's chart and the CT report. Liver still has multiple > mets the largest being a 9cm one on the right lobe. There also seems to be > something going on with the pancreas which I guess is some kind of met but the > reports are unclear about this. > > That's the news for now. I have mixed emotions. Happy that all appears to be > well but a bit concerned about all the numbers. > I guess we never really stop worrying, but I wish I could. > > As always thanks for the prayers > Love and God's blessings > > Narice > caregiver to Phil > diagnosed June 19, 2003 > Stage 4 with multiple liver mets > > July 2003- Severe swelling, Some Jaundice PCP tells us NOT to > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â seek treatment. > We begin treatment with Dr. Jan Rothman > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â at Regional Cancer Center Erie, PA > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â 5FU, Leucovorin, Oxilaplatin > August 2003- Phil's weight drops from 165 to 135 > > September 2003- Phil goes off diuretic (oops) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â In late September he has CT showing > significant > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â reduction of tumor. ;-) > December 2003- Tumor stable side effects so far are minimal some flu > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â like symptoms with the Oxilaplatin, dry > chapped hands > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â and occasional nausea > March 2004- Weight gain of 20 lbs (fluctuates between 155-160) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Tumor still stable, (13cm in colon multiple liver > mets. Largest being 9 cm > April 2004 1 month chemo break YIPEEE!!!!! > April 21,2004- Â Phil starts on new chemo 5 FU, Leucovorin, Oxaliplatin > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â AND Avastin via 46 hr pump. Weight 160. > > God's blessings to all on this journey! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Dear Narice, I'm so glad to hear Phil is doing well with his new chemo. It sounds identical to my sister's (dx stage IV 11/02). She has made such a huge turn around with it. She also has liver mets, something in the pancreas, and mets to the lung, but with this chemo, after 3 treatments, all tumors have shrunk dramatically. We took a trip to Southern Utah, about 4 hours away last weekend - and it was like having my old friend back. I'm just counting each day of " wellness " (of course she is much thinner and weaker than she used to be) as a great blessing. Thanks for your encouragement. Stacey > Hello all, > We had a wonderful trip to burg even took in a night in Frostburg, MD > I had been to college. My son, Dan drove part of the way giving his dad a > much welcomed break. > We took in the Governor's Palace, several of the small shops, Shield's > Tavern, the courthouse, and some speeches by men reacting as Henry and > Jefferson. We got a good deal on our room at White Lion Inn only $40/night > and they bumped us up from the typical double room to an efficiency since it is > still off season!! We also went to Busch Gardens. While the boys and Phil > loved the roller coasters. Phil stayed with the tamer ones no loops or gravity > defying dangling any more. overall though we thought the park to be too > commercial. Give us Hershey Kennywood, Idlewild, or Riverside Parks!! More for all of > us. > > The new chemo is so far going well. They give Phil a small pump with more 5FU > pumped over 46 hours. It is a bit cumbersome at first but not nearly as bad > as we had imagined. > > I did go through Phil's chart and the CT report. Liver still has multiple > mets the largest being a 9cm one on the right lobe. There also seems to be > something going on with the pancreas which I guess is some kind of met but the > reports are unclear about this. > > That's the news for now. I have mixed emotions. Happy that all appears to be > well but a bit concerned about all the numbers. > I guess we never really stop worrying, but I wish I could. > > As always thanks for the prayers > Love and God's blessings > > Narice > caregiver to Phil > diagnosed June 19, 2003 > Stage 4 with multiple liver mets > > July 2003- Severe swelling, Some Jaundice PCP tells us NOT to > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â seek treatment. > We begin treatment with Dr. Jan Rothman > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â at Regional Cancer Center Erie, PA > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â 5FU, Leucovorin, Oxilaplatin > August 2003- Phil's weight drops from 165 to 135 > > September 2003- Phil goes off diuretic (oops) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â In late September he has CT showing > significant > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â reduction of tumor. ;-) > December 2003- Tumor stable side effects so far are minimal some flu > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â like symptoms with the Oxilaplatin, dry > chapped hands > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â and occasional nausea > March 2004- Weight gain of 20 lbs (fluctuates between 155-160) > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Tumor still stable, (13cm in colon multiple liver > mets. Largest being 9 cm > April 2004 1 month chemo break YIPEEE!!!!! > April 21,2004- Â Phil starts on new chemo 5 FU, Leucovorin, Oxaliplatin > Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â AND Avastin via 46 hr pump. Weight 160. > > God's blessings to all on this journey! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Narice and Stacey, I am so happy to hear that Phil is doing well and that your sister is feeling better. Sounds like you both had a great deal of fun. May you all have many, many more good days ahead. Best wishes, Kris Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Narice and Stacey, I am so happy to hear that Phil is doing well and that your sister is feeling better. Sounds like you both had a great deal of fun. May you all have many, many more good days ahead. Best wishes, Kris Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Stacey: Wow what a turnaround for your sister,and what a great attitude,keeping count of the days of wellness. Nick has liver mets,something in the pancreas,two spots in the lung(s?) and is on a one week respite from the Xeloda( two weeks on/one week off)going for third series. Visited his oncologist today. Had CBC, seemed ok B/P steady, did a panel results in for Monday. Lost another 2 pounds,has some shaking of hands and some neuropathy particularly in feet,and I worry about driving. He paces himself,did eat for the last three days,and since we use companzine(?) spelling instead of Zofron or Azumet(cost) and a suppository sometimes his nausea returns. Going to try megace to increase appetite. Force fluids and in this off week try a little juice. We find smaller ,more frequent bites stay down. He does pace himself and we are lucky all our kids live within a 30 mile range-ditto grandkids,it makes things easier. We live in Florida and have great weather(mostly) which is another blessing. We have learned a lot from this site,share with friends,and made many new ones. I don't know where else you can laugh and cry and smile and get hope all at one time. Great to have such good news,makes us all feel better. Hugs and prayers Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Stacey: Wow what a turnaround for your sister,and what a great attitude,keeping count of the days of wellness. Nick has liver mets,something in the pancreas,two spots in the lung(s?) and is on a one week respite from the Xeloda( two weeks on/one week off)going for third series. Visited his oncologist today. Had CBC, seemed ok B/P steady, did a panel results in for Monday. Lost another 2 pounds,has some shaking of hands and some neuropathy particularly in feet,and I worry about driving. He paces himself,did eat for the last three days,and since we use companzine(?) spelling instead of Zofron or Azumet(cost) and a suppository sometimes his nausea returns. Going to try megace to increase appetite. Force fluids and in this off week try a little juice. We find smaller ,more frequent bites stay down. He does pace himself and we are lucky all our kids live within a 30 mile range-ditto grandkids,it makes things easier. We live in Florida and have great weather(mostly) which is another blessing. We have learned a lot from this site,share with friends,and made many new ones. I don't know where else you can laugh and cry and smile and get hope all at one time. Great to have such good news,makes us all feel better. Hugs and prayers Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 21, 2004 Report Share Posted April 21, 2004 Stacey: Wow what a turnaround for your sister,and what a great attitude,keeping count of the days of wellness. Nick has liver mets,something in the pancreas,two spots in the lung(s?) and is on a one week respite from the Xeloda( two weeks on/one week off)going for third series. Visited his oncologist today. Had CBC, seemed ok B/P steady, did a panel results in for Monday. Lost another 2 pounds,has some shaking of hands and some neuropathy particularly in feet,and I worry about driving. He paces himself,did eat for the last three days,and since we use companzine(?) spelling instead of Zofron or Azumet(cost) and a suppository sometimes his nausea returns. Going to try megace to increase appetite. Force fluids and in this off week try a little juice. We find smaller ,more frequent bites stay down. He does pace himself and we are lucky all our kids live within a 30 mile range-ditto grandkids,it makes things easier. We live in Florida and have great weather(mostly) which is another blessing. We have learned a lot from this site,share with friends,and made many new ones. I don't know where else you can laugh and cry and smile and get hope all at one time. Great to have such good news,makes us all feel better. Hugs and prayers Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2004 Report Share Posted June 9, 2004 Thanks for the perspective. Yes, it is a bump. I am just really feeling insecure right now and I will be leaving for a week on my own at my parents soon so I guess I just want everything nailed down. I am not too good at being out of control. In my faith life we say we should Let go and let God but I admit I often take this one back and dwell on it. Human of course but not productive. I am so very glad Phil is doing well but honestly I still wish there was a way to wave a magic wand and make it go away altogether. Add to the mix the " normal " of menopause, high blood pressure and my clinical depression and I am on a constant up and down. Work has been rough lately since I am covering more in the classroom for people's vacations.(I am in daycare) I am facing the hard reality that I am not really effective in the classroom right now. It is yet another caregiving role when at times it is all I can do to care for myself and my family. O.K. enough venting but I guess sometimes writing it down helps. Thanks Narice Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2004 Report Share Posted June 9, 2004 Of course, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. It takes much strength to abide the ups and downs, and God will provide that strength. Sharon > Hello Everyone, > > Unfortunately there is not too much to report as Phil was unable to have > chemo again due to low platelets > 78,000 > > So he'll have chemo next week instead. > We also got the results of the PT scan which really showed no change in the > tumor. Since this is the first PT I guess they are comparing it to the April, > CT scan. I am disappointed there does not seem to be any progress but also > happy to know there is no more spread. > > As for me I'm trying to hang in there. ly not really into talking about > all of it right now. Feel like it is all I think and talk about anyway. What I > really want is to feel NORMAL but only God knows when that will be so as they > say I'm faking it until I make it since the alternative stinks! > > You know it is great to see Phil feeling so well but every time the test > results come back I am reminded that the disease still looms in the background > regardless of how everything looks on the outside. Who knows maybe the CT scan > will show more progress? > > In your prayers remember all of us and ask God to renew my hope. I DO know > without a doubt that He is all that keeps me going through this. > > As always we thank everyone for there love prayers and support. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2004 Report Share Posted June 9, 2004 Narice, I understand what you mean, it is a real blow when they have been feeling okay and then the test results don't measure up.Be sure that you & Phil are in my prayers.On the up note,remember that 'no change'means the tumors are being controlled for the time being which is a measure of success.I know, you would like to see shrinkage but sometimes we have to just be happy things are stable.Much easier said than done!!!! You hang in there,and take some time for yourself,you deserve it! Hugs & Prayers, H. S/O " Hubby " ,52/diagnosed inoperable stage IV cc 7/31/03 6/1/04 started 4th-line chemo of folfox 4 > Hello Everyone, > > Unfortunately there is not too much to report as Phil was unable to have > chemo again due to low platelets > 78,000 > > So he'll have chemo next week instead. > We also got the results of the PT scan which really showed no change in the > tumor. Since this is the first PT I guess they are comparing it to the April, > CT scan. I am disappointed there does not seem to be any progress but also > happy to know there is no more spread. > > As for me I'm trying to hang in there. ly not really into talking about > all of it right now. Feel like it is all I think and talk about anyway. What I > really want is to feel NORMAL but only God knows when that will be so as they > say I'm faking it until I make it since the alternative stinks! > > You know it is great to see Phil feeling so well but every time the test > results come back I am reminded that the disease still looms in the background > regardless of how everything looks on the outside. Who knows maybe the CT scan > will show more progress? > > In your prayers remember all of us and ask God to renew my hope. I DO know > without a doubt that He is all that keeps me going through this. > > As always we thank everyone for there love prayers and support. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2004 Report Share Posted June 9, 2004 Narice, I understand what you mean, it is a real blow when they have been feeling okay and then the test results don't measure up.Be sure that you & Phil are in my prayers.On the up note,remember that 'no change'means the tumors are being controlled for the time being which is a measure of success.I know, you would like to see shrinkage but sometimes we have to just be happy things are stable.Much easier said than done!!!! You hang in there,and take some time for yourself,you deserve it! Hugs & Prayers, H. S/O " Hubby " ,52/diagnosed inoperable stage IV cc 7/31/03 6/1/04 started 4th-line chemo of folfox 4 > Hello Everyone, > > Unfortunately there is not too much to report as Phil was unable to have > chemo again due to low platelets > 78,000 > > So he'll have chemo next week instead. > We also got the results of the PT scan which really showed no change in the > tumor. Since this is the first PT I guess they are comparing it to the April, > CT scan. I am disappointed there does not seem to be any progress but also > happy to know there is no more spread. > > As for me I'm trying to hang in there. ly not really into talking about > all of it right now. Feel like it is all I think and talk about anyway. What I > really want is to feel NORMAL but only God knows when that will be so as they > say I'm faking it until I make it since the alternative stinks! > > You know it is great to see Phil feeling so well but every time the test > results come back I am reminded that the disease still looms in the background > regardless of how everything looks on the outside. Who knows maybe the CT scan > will show more progress? > > In your prayers remember all of us and ask God to renew my hope. I DO know > without a doubt that He is all that keeps me going through this. > > As always we thank everyone for there love prayers and support. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2004 Report Share Posted June 9, 2004 Narice, I understand what you mean, it is a real blow when they have been feeling okay and then the test results don't measure up.Be sure that you & Phil are in my prayers.On the up note,remember that 'no change'means the tumors are being controlled for the time being which is a measure of success.I know, you would like to see shrinkage but sometimes we have to just be happy things are stable.Much easier said than done!!!! You hang in there,and take some time for yourself,you deserve it! Hugs & Prayers, H. S/O " Hubby " ,52/diagnosed inoperable stage IV cc 7/31/03 6/1/04 started 4th-line chemo of folfox 4 > Hello Everyone, > > Unfortunately there is not too much to report as Phil was unable to have > chemo again due to low platelets > 78,000 > > So he'll have chemo next week instead. > We also got the results of the PT scan which really showed no change in the > tumor. Since this is the first PT I guess they are comparing it to the April, > CT scan. I am disappointed there does not seem to be any progress but also > happy to know there is no more spread. > > As for me I'm trying to hang in there. ly not really into talking about > all of it right now. Feel like it is all I think and talk about anyway. What I > really want is to feel NORMAL but only God knows when that will be so as they > say I'm faking it until I make it since the alternative stinks! > > You know it is great to see Phil feeling so well but every time the test > results come back I am reminded that the disease still looms in the background > regardless of how everything looks on the outside. Who knows maybe the CT scan > will show more progress? > > In your prayers remember all of us and ask God to renew my hope. I DO know > without a doubt that He is all that keeps me going through this. > > As always we thank everyone for there love prayers and support. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 2004 Report Share Posted June 12, 2004 Narice: You are always so willing to shelter others woes,and carry an extra load. Yes..put your hand in His,let Him lift your spirit,renew your faith and and Grace will lead you. Watching the pagentry and protocols in the final tributes to Regans life,I was struck by two things. His deep faith,his absolute belief that there is good in every man and what is right will always eventually triumph and there is purpose and worth in each and every man. I think people realized he adhered to the values he espoused and dignity and honor meant more than mere words. You always say the right thing at the right time,you have lifted spirits,made people believe and kept people going. Now..heed your own advice..step back...rest a minute or two every hour God is with us 24/7..365 days a year.. We sometimes forget. He wants to share the burden,He wants us to put our hands in his and let him ease our pain. Amazing Grace was played many many times last week,I never get tired,whether it is a sol, a choral or an ensemble. " And Grace will set me free " <<<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>> and prayers Love Nick & jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 2004 Report Share Posted June 12, 2004 Narice: You are always so willing to shelter others woes,and carry an extra load. Yes..put your hand in His,let Him lift your spirit,renew your faith and and Grace will lead you. Watching the pagentry and protocols in the final tributes to Regans life,I was struck by two things. His deep faith,his absolute belief that there is good in every man and what is right will always eventually triumph and there is purpose and worth in each and every man. I think people realized he adhered to the values he espoused and dignity and honor meant more than mere words. You always say the right thing at the right time,you have lifted spirits,made people believe and kept people going. Now..heed your own advice..step back...rest a minute or two every hour God is with us 24/7..365 days a year.. We sometimes forget. He wants to share the burden,He wants us to put our hands in his and let him ease our pain. Amazing Grace was played many many times last week,I never get tired,whether it is a sol, a choral or an ensemble. " And Grace will set me free " <<<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>> and prayers Love Nick & jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 18, 2004 Report Share Posted June 18, 2004 Hi Phil had a CT scan Tuesday and chemo on Wednesday. We will find out the results Monday. His blood counts are back up and I think we may wind up having chemo 1 week on 2 weeks off as that seems to give him time to bounce back. Please pray that there is some progress seen on the CT. I do no there has been no new growth and for that we are thankful. I am currently taking some R & R at my parents house in Mass. with Danny and our many friends in Erie keeping an eye on Phil. I'll return sunday night than off to Dr. Rothman with Phil Monday. It has been a relaxing time and it is good to GET AWAY from cancer for awhile. The boys are well glad to be out of school. Danny may have a job cleaning carpets and goes for his license FINALLY. Tim is basking in thoe long summer days with nothing but free time. Ahh to be 12 again!! I will have a more complete update for you when I get back from the DR Monday As always thank you for your love prayers and support! Narice Phil Danny & Timmy May Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 20, 2004 Report Share Posted June 20, 2004 Hi: Hope your brief vacation was like Chicken Soup for the Soul. No new growth is good,counts up is better,so lets hope the rainbow shines on your house and the pot of gold is a positive update for Phil. Know just how you feel. We had a month of downswings,no energy,lots of pain,nausea and not able to complete the two weeks on one week off schedule. Nick is dehydrated,low in spirts and the kids have tried everything under to sun to lift his spirits. He started a new regimine on Thursday. Goes in for blood work Tues,the real culpit is constant pain. Guess we have a half a zillion angels praying for us. Better then meds. We either had a visit or a phone call from all the kids and grandkids and they made him laugh. So like you,I take it on a day to day,visit to visit and now and then I slip off and cry and feel better. This board has been a salvation,so many people worse off, and never giving up hope,so I took a month off from work and now I feel stronger and I forgot to do what I always tell other to do. Put your hand in His,He will walk with you and His Grace will see you through. So if you guys can walk that mile,we can to,just knowing that others have the same problems,hopes and fears somehow makes it a lot easier. Gung ho and awy we go. Hugs and Prayers from Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 20, 2004 Report Share Posted June 20, 2004 Hi: Hope your brief vacation was like Chicken Soup for the Soul. No new growth is good,counts up is better,so lets hope the rainbow shines on your house and the pot of gold is a positive update for Phil. Know just how you feel. We had a month of downswings,no energy,lots of pain,nausea and not able to complete the two weeks on one week off schedule. Nick is dehydrated,low in spirts and the kids have tried everything under to sun to lift his spirits. He started a new regimine on Thursday. Goes in for blood work Tues,the real culpit is constant pain. Guess we have a half a zillion angels praying for us. Better then meds. We either had a visit or a phone call from all the kids and grandkids and they made him laugh. So like you,I take it on a day to day,visit to visit and now and then I slip off and cry and feel better. This board has been a salvation,so many people worse off, and never giving up hope,so I took a month off from work and now I feel stronger and I forgot to do what I always tell other to do. Put your hand in His,He will walk with you and His Grace will see you through. So if you guys can walk that mile,we can to,just knowing that others have the same problems,hopes and fears somehow makes it a lot easier. Gung ho and awy we go. Hugs and Prayers from Nick & Jane Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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