Guest guest Posted November 23, 2004 Report Share Posted November 23, 2004 Okay...I don't usually do this but I need to vent. It seems so insignificant but I was in tears all the way home because a colleague announced that she is pg today (only 6w, which I've never been past, but anyway). I'm not sure if it's stress, hormones, jealousy or all of the above, but I can't take it. As soon as someone told me, I just felt this overwhelming sadness come on. I can honestly say I haven't felt this bad since the last m/c, whih was months ago. On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a baby that would be the beautiful combination of the two of us. I feel so selfish because I truly have everything else I want - home, job, awesome DH...how horrible am I to still want more when some people haven't got half of what I have? Whew...okay, I feel a little better having gotten that off my chest. Still not " cheery " , but a bit better anyway. Just a little teary now, C 28, UD 2 m/c, ttc Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 23, 2004 Report Share Posted November 23, 2004 , I completely understand how you feel. For as long as I can remember, I've always felt that my one true calling in life was to be a mother. It may sound selfish but to those of us who have suffered through miscarriages, we know how difficult it can be to see others so joyfully expecting their children. I often feel very depressed when I'm around others with children or expecting mothers. I desperately want to feel that same joy! It's completely normal to feel the way you do. I wish you all the best! , 27 uu m/c * 5 Vent (pg, m/c ment) Okay...I don't usually do this but I need to vent. It seems so insignificant but I was in tears all the way home because a colleague announced that she is pg today (only 6w, which I've never been past, but anyway). I'm not sure if it's stress, hormones, jealousy or all of the above, but I can't take it. As soon as someone told me, I just felt this overwhelming sadness come on. I can honestly say I haven't felt this bad since the last m/c, whih was months ago. On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a baby that would be the beautiful combination of the two of us. I feel so selfish because I truly have everything else I want - home, job, awesome DH...how horrible am I to still want more when some people haven't got half of what I have? Whew...okay, I feel a little better having gotten that off my chest. Still not " cheery " , but a bit better anyway. Just a little teary now, C 28, UD 2 m/c, ttc Share bookmarks: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/links/ Share files: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/files/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ es/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2004 Report Share Posted November 24, 2004 , We haven't even started ttc yet and I feel sad when other people tell me they are pregnant. I guess it's even a little bit of jealousy. I'm jealous that they will have a " normal " pregnancy and will not have to worry about the things that we have to worry about. Talk about being selfish!! I should be happy for them... We think we will begin ttc in the next month or so. I have my 2nd HSG a week from today. I will let everyone know how it goes. ~ UD Vent (pg, m/c ment) Okay...I don't usually do this but I need to vent. It seems so insignificant but I was in tears all the way home because a colleague announced that she is pg today (only 6w, which I've never been past, but anyway). I'm not sure if it's stress, hormones, jealousy or all of the above, but I can't take it. As soon as someone told me, I just felt this overwhelming sadness come on. I can honestly say I haven't felt this bad since the last m/c, whih was months ago. On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a baby that would be the beautiful combination of the two of us. I feel so selfish because I truly have everything else I want - home, job, awesome DH...how horrible am I to still want more when some people haven't got half of what I have? Whew...okay, I feel a little better having gotten that off my chest. Still not " cheery " , but a bit better anyway. Just a little teary now, C 28, UD 2 m/c, ttc Share bookmarks: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/links/ Share files: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/files/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ es/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2004 Report Share Posted November 24, 2004 , We haven't even started ttc yet and I feel sad when other people tell me they are pregnant. I guess it's even a little bit of jealousy. I'm jealous that they will have a " normal " pregnancy and will not have to worry about the things that we have to worry about. Talk about being selfish!! I should be happy for them... We think we will begin ttc in the next month or so. I have my 2nd HSG a week from today. I will let everyone know how it goes. ~ UD Vent (pg, m/c ment) Okay...I don't usually do this but I need to vent. It seems so insignificant but I was in tears all the way home because a colleague announced that she is pg today (only 6w, which I've never been past, but anyway). I'm not sure if it's stress, hormones, jealousy or all of the above, but I can't take it. As soon as someone told me, I just felt this overwhelming sadness come on. I can honestly say I haven't felt this bad since the last m/c, whih was months ago. On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a baby that would be the beautiful combination of the two of us. I feel so selfish because I truly have everything else I want - home, job, awesome DH...how horrible am I to still want more when some people haven't got half of what I have? Whew...okay, I feel a little better having gotten that off my chest. Still not " cheery " , but a bit better anyway. Just a little teary now, C 28, UD 2 m/c, ttc Share bookmarks: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/links/ Share files: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/files/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ es/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 24, 2004 Report Share Posted November 24, 2004 , We haven't even started ttc yet and I feel sad when other people tell me they are pregnant. I guess it's even a little bit of jealousy. I'm jealous that they will have a " normal " pregnancy and will not have to worry about the things that we have to worry about. Talk about being selfish!! I should be happy for them... We think we will begin ttc in the next month or so. I have my 2nd HSG a week from today. I will let everyone know how it goes. ~ UD Vent (pg, m/c ment) Okay...I don't usually do this but I need to vent. It seems so insignificant but I was in tears all the way home because a colleague announced that she is pg today (only 6w, which I've never been past, but anyway). I'm not sure if it's stress, hormones, jealousy or all of the above, but I can't take it. As soon as someone told me, I just felt this overwhelming sadness come on. I can honestly say I haven't felt this bad since the last m/c, whih was months ago. On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a baby that would be the beautiful combination of the two of us. I feel so selfish because I truly have everything else I want - home, job, awesome DH...how horrible am I to still want more when some people haven't got half of what I have? Whew...okay, I feel a little better having gotten that off my chest. Still not " cheery " , but a bit better anyway. Just a little teary now, C 28, UD 2 m/c, ttc Share bookmarks: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/links/ Share files: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MullerianAnomalies/files/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ es/ The Congenital Uterine Anomalies Home Page: http://www.wegrokit.com/uterineanomalies/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2004 Report Share Posted November 25, 2004 - I just want to send you some really big hugs. I hate to use this phrase, but I think I know exactly where you are coming from. I am currently sharing an office with a pg gal, and some days it is all I can do to just make it through the day. Your reaction to another's pregnancy is perfectly normal in your situation. I have found that if I am having a bad day, or something hits me wrong (like a pregnancy, baby shower, etc) I just 'let' myself feel bad...I don't try to talk myself out of whatever emotion it is, sadness, anger, jealousy, whatever. I don't berate myself for feeling bad...if it is anger or jealosy I feel, I realize that I am not a mean person, if it is sadness, I know that I WILL feel better. I just give in to it for the moment and go on. I think this 'little' breakdowns have helped me keep plodding along. >On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week > now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him > that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a >baby I finally settled on a Hoover Floormate. :-) I told DH five years ago that all I wanted for Christmas was a new house, new car and a healthy baby. Well, we have been in the house for 3 years , I am working on new car number 2, and we are still working on that baby. Try to keep your chin up and keep going. I know that some days are terribly difficult....you mentioned hormones....I think they just intensify everything - It seems that my mood swings get worse with every medicated cycle. Please feel free to email me, off board if you would like, if you need to vent/share/whatever. It sounds like we are going through similar situations and I am here if I can help in any way. Hugs, fused UD, 1 m/c, ttc a very long time Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2004 Report Share Posted November 25, 2004 - I just want to send you some really big hugs. I hate to use this phrase, but I think I know exactly where you are coming from. I am currently sharing an office with a pg gal, and some days it is all I can do to just make it through the day. Your reaction to another's pregnancy is perfectly normal in your situation. I have found that if I am having a bad day, or something hits me wrong (like a pregnancy, baby shower, etc) I just 'let' myself feel bad...I don't try to talk myself out of whatever emotion it is, sadness, anger, jealousy, whatever. I don't berate myself for feeling bad...if it is anger or jealosy I feel, I realize that I am not a mean person, if it is sadness, I know that I WILL feel better. I just give in to it for the moment and go on. I think this 'little' breakdowns have helped me keep plodding along. >On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week > now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him > that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a >baby I finally settled on a Hoover Floormate. :-) I told DH five years ago that all I wanted for Christmas was a new house, new car and a healthy baby. Well, we have been in the house for 3 years , I am working on new car number 2, and we are still working on that baby. Try to keep your chin up and keep going. I know that some days are terribly difficult....you mentioned hormones....I think they just intensify everything - It seems that my mood swings get worse with every medicated cycle. Please feel free to email me, off board if you would like, if you need to vent/share/whatever. It sounds like we are going through similar situations and I am here if I can help in any way. Hugs, fused UD, 1 m/c, ttc a very long time Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2004 Report Share Posted November 25, 2004 - I just want to send you some really big hugs. I hate to use this phrase, but I think I know exactly where you are coming from. I am currently sharing an office with a pg gal, and some days it is all I can do to just make it through the day. Your reaction to another's pregnancy is perfectly normal in your situation. I have found that if I am having a bad day, or something hits me wrong (like a pregnancy, baby shower, etc) I just 'let' myself feel bad...I don't try to talk myself out of whatever emotion it is, sadness, anger, jealousy, whatever. I don't berate myself for feeling bad...if it is anger or jealosy I feel, I realize that I am not a mean person, if it is sadness, I know that I WILL feel better. I just give in to it for the moment and go on. I think this 'little' breakdowns have helped me keep plodding along. >On top of that, DH has been asking me for a week > now what I want for Christmas. I don't have the heart to tell him > that the ONLY thing I really want at this point in my life is a >baby I finally settled on a Hoover Floormate. :-) I told DH five years ago that all I wanted for Christmas was a new house, new car and a healthy baby. Well, we have been in the house for 3 years , I am working on new car number 2, and we are still working on that baby. Try to keep your chin up and keep going. I know that some days are terribly difficult....you mentioned hormones....I think they just intensify everything - It seems that my mood swings get worse with every medicated cycle. Please feel free to email me, off board if you would like, if you need to vent/share/whatever. It sounds like we are going through similar situations and I am here if I can help in any way. Hugs, fused UD, 1 m/c, ttc a very long time Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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