Horrible Week

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I have had the week from hell at work and at home. I had to split up a horrible

fight between 2 coworkers on Mon, which resulted in me having to report it to

the supervisor and of course one of the girls, who was a good friend of mine,

got fired. I feel absolutely terrible about that. My student has been totally

off the wall this week and so non-compliant and aggressive. So, I've been

getting the crap beat out of me all week and I'm bruised from head to toe.

Today he outdid himself when he bit my arm and broke the skin... tell me again

why I love my job, someone pleassssssssssee!!!!! And of course I come home all

stressed out and have had NO patience left for Chuck or Cassie. I try really

hard to keep it together, and usually I pull it off, but this week I'm just

hanging on by a thread! The good news is that I lost 2 pounds bringing me up to

52 in all, but don't ask me how?? I've been doing pretty well with my eating,

but just okay with my water... about 48-64oz a day, and only walking for about

30 min a day instead of 1 hour. I am proud of myself in one sense though,

because a few months ago I would have eaten myself into oblivion for a week like

this, and I really haven't done too bad.

Nicci

Re:Re:Re:Meaghan Had to share

-Gena, What a compliment that must of been for you, that you should

be a personal trainer. I bet you could...you sure have the

motivational aspect of it down, and unreal amounts of knowledge.

I wish I had got your message about not pushing too hard this

morning. Between weeding the garden and cleaning the whole house, I

think I took it a little too far today-lol. Exercising will have to

start back up tomorrow now.

As for your question I'm 5'9 " , actually 5 " 8 3/4 " . I am small boned

though and like I said I have absolutely no, zelch, zep, nada,

nothing in the chest department. 126 really does look good on me. I

know in my mind that the number on the scale doesn't matter but deep

inside it does to me. I am truly a nervous wreck all day if I don't

weigh myself in the morning and I can't sleep until I weigh myself at

night. " My name is Meaghan and I'm a scale addict. " Hey atleast I

can admit it-lol. I've worked so hard to get back to this weight and

I only have 8 more pounds to go....I can't give up now. If I get

down there and it is too thin I'll put a few pounds back on, but I

have to get there for me. I'm messed up aren't I?????? Meaghan-- In

weightlossbuddies2 , Gena Grunwald <auroragg@m...>

wrote:

>

> Meaghan,

> Oh I know how frustrating it can be. I have dealt with a lot of

> physical things through the years. Had shoulder surgery 3 years ago

for

> one. I got soo tired of not being able to do things and having to

ask

> others to do things for me! You just have to give it time. Keep

> reminding yourself that every time you push it it will just take

longer

> to heal so it's not worth it.

> I said what I did about " changing lifestyle and habits " because I

see

> it a lot here, people obsessing over the numbers on the scale. It

is

> better to focus on doing the right things because like I said, it

> doesn't matter how much you lose, if you don't change things it

will

> come back.

> Don't worry about us " getting on your case " about height. I just

like

> to get more of a visual. I know that charts really don't mean a

thing.

> The Arnold is obese by most charts! There are many factors and

being

> that you say you are shaped " like a man " with no boobs, I

understand

> that you could weigh less then most at your same height. Me on the

> other hand......... I'm short, 5'3 " but will never be and never

want to

> be the weight that charts say for me. I am muscular and have big

boobs.

> Even my doctor and chiropractor say I only have about 40 more to

go. I

> say 45-50 but we'll see.

> Oh and yes I did know you tighten your bum when lifting weights!

LOL I

> worked with a trainer when I was going to the gym. He was waiting

for a

> client and started helping me in between. The first time, OMG!!! I

hurt

> so bad for DAYS!!! I had done the same weights I had been doing for

a

> long time but I found out first hand, form is everything,

breathing,

> posture, pointing toes, ect... It's amazing! I really got to know

that

> trainer. He was a lot of help. In fact, he actually suggested I go

into

> being a personal trainer! He said I was very natural and had good

form.

> Hmmmm Don't know about that but now, years later, it is something I

am

> thinking about since my girls are getting older. It's something I

might

> look into more when I have that notorious " empty nest " .

>

> Take care,

> Gena

>

> > -Gena,-Oh I have completely changed my lifestyle as far as eating

is

> > concerned, and I don't miss the old way AT ALL!!!!!!!! I still

allow

> > myself treats and stuff, just in moderation. I've always loved to

> > exercise so that part is nothing....except finding the time with

the

> > three kids and homeschooling. I think that is why this tailbone

> > thing is driving me up the wall. I feel like I can't do anything,

> > then as soon as I feel the littlest bit of relieve I do way too

much

> > and then I'm back at square one. It's only been a week and I'm in

> > such a grumpy mood. I was on crutches for two years before and I

> > still could do arms and crunches atleast. This just sucks....I

can't

> > bend over, sit long, stand long, lay long. It will heal though.

> > Anyway I started this at 189, that was 2 1/2 years ago. I'm now

at

> > 134 and want to get to 126. We won't worry about height because

then

> > you'll all jump my case-lol. The lightest I've been, before I got

> > pregnant for the first time was 110...I know that is too light

and I

> > never want to be that thin again. 126 looks really good on me

> > though. See I have absolutely no boobs so I have to be thin. A

> > womans breasts should stand out farther then her stomach. Right?

> > Right!!!!! Well mine don't even stand out as much as my ribs.

If I

> > actually had breasts I think I would be fine right where I am, but

> > since my body is shaped like a mans this weight just won't do. I

was

> > really concetrating on my body though as far as tone. I was even

> > ALMOST to the point where I was ready to accept 136 and get really

> > tight, but now I can't do anything. Did you know you even tighten

> > your bumm to lift weights. I never new that before I tried.

Meaghan-

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