Finally caught up...

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yay i finally got through all the posts from the last 3 days!!

I am having a down afternoon Not really looking forward to tonight.

My sister is having her friends over tonight. Now i dont know if any

of you remember my story about sis and her friends and last summer?

yup, those are the same friends...they're coming over tonight and

should be here real soon. There is only one of them that's coming

over that i like. That is her new bf, he's pretty cool and is nice

to me but all her girl friends (all 3 that're coming over) are

just...not the people i want to hang out with. SO I will be making

myself scarce this evening, hanging out only for a little while but

as soon as the negativity starts i will high-tail it outta

here...probably watch tv or somethin...i would invite my friend over

(i only have one that talks to me right now) but she's working

tonigh. i dont knwo when she gets off work either. anyway i'm

just...eh kinda blah today. I had a bad weigh in i'm 1 lb

more...which doesnt sound like much but i'm jsut sick and tired of

battling this...i'm so ready to just say ya know what i want to have

surgery can ya suck everything off me? PLEASE? get rid of it, i dont

want it...and i dont want to battle it. HOWEVER i know the battle

will be all the more worth it in the end, because i know i will have

fought for it and i will have won and deserved all the goodness that

comes in the end. A quote i like to keep with me, a co-worker of

mine read it to me " Nothing Tastes as good as thin feels " .... i

want to live by that...not that i eat a lot because i really dont,

it's that i'm not workin gout!!!!!!!! argh...maybe i should go

upstairs in my room and shut the door adn do a video? i think i

may...shut teh door lock it turn up music real loud and do a video,

take a shower and feel better? then maybe i can battle the friends

coming over.

i think i may. wish me enough.

I wish you all enough.

Amy

318/311/290/160ish

s/c/mg/fg