Re: I dont think I can take it anymore

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In a message dated 3/1/2004 7:49:46 PM Eastern Standard Time,

erica259@... writes:

I know I should not so self consumed that my nervousness and anxiety should

actually come into play here.. but I can't help it. Right now as I type she is

at the table in her wheel chair with my dad.. trying to take pills. I want to

run screaming out of there house.... I want to keep running until I as far

away as possible and I can't see it anymore.

I know even that will not do anything to take this away.....

In the whole fight of flight battle.. I am a frequent flier and now I

honestly don't know what to do here....

a

oh, a....my heart breaks for you as I read this. I am so so sorry for

what you are going through. Please know that I am praying hard for you and your

family even though I may not be that present on the list right now. If you

can, try not to beat up on yourself for any of your emotions. You are in the

midst of a terribly tough situation and you have the right to feel whatever it

is you feel. There are no shoulds at times like this so please try to be

gentle with yourself, ok?

Keep writing and keep sharing...and we will all keep praying. I wish there

was something more I could do...

Love to you and yours,

terry in ga

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In a message dated 3/1/2004 7:49:46 PM Eastern Standard Time,

erica259@... writes:

I know I should not so self consumed that my nervousness and anxiety should

actually come into play here.. but I can't help it. Right now as I type she is

at the table in her wheel chair with my dad.. trying to take pills. I want to

run screaming out of there house.... I want to keep running until I as far

away as possible and I can't see it anymore.

I know even that will not do anything to take this away.....

In the whole fight of flight battle.. I am a frequent flier and now I

honestly don't know what to do here....

a

oh, a....my heart breaks for you as I read this. I am so so sorry for

what you are going through. Please know that I am praying hard for you and your

family even though I may not be that present on the list right now. If you

can, try not to beat up on yourself for any of your emotions. You are in the

midst of a terribly tough situation and you have the right to feel whatever it

is you feel. There are no shoulds at times like this so please try to be

gentle with yourself, ok?

Keep writing and keep sharing...and we will all keep praying. I wish there

was something more I could do...

Love to you and yours,

terry in ga

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a: In the hospital they put the pills in pudding,applesauce and in some

cases

were able to halve them,to make it easier. Keeping a bowl of water in the

room prevents dry throat and facilitates swallowing. Sometimes holding something

warm

up against you helps relax muscles. You have such a burden to carry,share it

with

Him,and he will help you bear the load. Prayers and hugs and warmest wishes

Nick & Jane

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a- I feel so very bad for you, and your mom and dad.

At least from what you have said in the recent past, it sounds like

your mom is not having the extremely sharp pains and cramping as

before. But seeing her so weakened, I think I would feel the same

way you do. I wish there were something I could do to help.

Try to take care of yourself. My prayers are with you.

Kris

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a- I feel so very bad for you, and your mom and dad.

At least from what you have said in the recent past, it sounds like

your mom is not having the extremely sharp pains and cramping as

before. But seeing her so weakened, I think I would feel the same

way you do. I wish there were something I could do to help.

Try to take care of yourself. My prayers are with you.

Kris

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a:

I wish I could take this pain away from you. It is so very hard.

When my husband started having such difficulty taking pills, the

visiting nurses and/or hospice nurses switched his medications over

to different forms so that he did not need to swallow pills. When we

could, we would crush the pills into a very small amount of ice

cream. They also switched some of them to liquid form. The very

best ones were concentrated forms, gels, that either were put on the

inside of his cheek in his mouth, or put on the inside of his wrist.

(We wore plastic gloves so we did not absorb the medication.) These

methods worked to take away his and our stress about the medication.

In addition, it was absorbed more quickly and acted much faster. As

a result, my husband did not need to swallow pills or be poked with

needles. It made these days much less stressful for all of us. Talk

to these nurses about this. If they can't do it, call the director of

the service. (We had this in the Boston area.) It should be

available to you. They should be able to make these changes

immediately.

Good luck.

Hugs,

Amie

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O a

It's o.k. Go ahead and cry scream whatever. This is so terribly hard and I

wish I could take it away. The only words I can come up with are that God has

not abandoned you though I am sure that is how it feels! He is very close so go

ahead and pour your heart out to Him, good and bad He can take it!

Know that prayers are being offered for you and if there is anything you need

from your cyber friends don't hesitate to ask.

With hugs prayers and admiration

God bless you

Narice

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a,

I really feel for you. I know what it is like to feel so helpless. When hospice

was coming for Ron, they mentioned a time might come that he couldn't swallow

his pills anymore and they already had an alternative plan. Talk to them to see

if they can do something for your mom.

A few times I did fall apart in front of Ron it couldn't be helped. But I

mostly I waited till I got to the bathroom to break down badly. Has hospice

talked to you about some kind of couseling for you? The hospice here was

concerned even about our children that no longer lived at home, and tried

helping where they could.

a, I am praying for you and your family and so are alot of others. I am

here if you need to talk.

Tammy

I dont think I can take it anymore

I am totally falling apart and I am afraid all the time these days. I am a

nervous wreck and it only gets worse at night. My mom is getting so weak, so

weak and I am so afraid a simple thing like taking a pill that she needs to

dogest the little food she does take in, is going to make her choke because she

can't swallow...

I can't keep myself together in front of her too well anymore either. The

change is so dramatic, so scary, so unreal... I just start to cry, or worse have

a panic attack and have to make an excuse to leave her house ( my dad is there

of course )

I know I should not so self consumed that my nervousness and anxiety should

actually come into play here.. but I can't help it. Right now as I type she is

at the table in her wheel chair with my dad.. trying to take pills. I want to

run screaming out of there house.... I want to keep running until I as far away

as possible and I can't see it anymore.

I know even that will not do anything to take this away.....

In the whole fight of flight battle.. I am a frequent flier and now I honestly

don't know what to do here....

a