Re: Fear, Anger, Frustration and Terror

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Good luck Lee Anne - we're here...

Best,

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With or without the clinging cross God is right beside you. It is extra comforting however to have that physical reminder right in hand. I am going to my oncologist today for my "options". I too am terrified and angry. I just can't seem to pull myself together which is so unlike me. Just getting ready to go seems like more than I can bear. Know that you are not alone Lee Anne. I'll be praying for you and your family. CarolLee Anne wrote: I got the pathology report on Monday. I have infiltrated carcinoma, phase 3. Basically that means that the cancer came from somewhere else. It didn't start in the breast. I go to the radiologist today and the oncologist tomorrow.Before my surgery a precious friend of mine gave me a "clinging cross". This cross looks like chocolate,

but is made of resin. If you can imagine a soft cross placed in the palm of your hand and your fingers fold over the cross bar. If you squeeze, the cross changes shape and conforms to your hand. This is what the clinging cross looks like. It's something wonderful to hold and I've used it so many times over the past couple of weeks, until now. I've misplaced it. Last night I was searching for it and my brother asked me what I was so frantically looking for. I told him and told him why I need it. His response was, "You could have talked to me all day without saying that." He walked away crying. It made me so angry because I don't know how to talk to my family. I talked to Mom about it this morning and she said that the doctor should not have said that he got it all when obviously he didn't. I explained to her that he did get all of the cancer in the breast, but that the pathology report says it came from a different source. She

thinks that they should have waited to tell me this and ran more tests without my knowing why. I disagree. I want to know what I'm looking at and what I'm facing.It would be a lie if I said I am okay today. I'm terrified. I'm angry. And I'm frustrated. I wish my family were more supportive, but I guess they are doing the best they can. I know they are scared. I just don't know how to talk to them.I haven't slept much this past couple of weeks and finally broke down and took a valium last night. It helped me to relax enough to get some sleep, but now I'm dealing with the hangover. I don't know which is worse, dragging from lack of sleep or drug enduced hangover.I go see the radiologist today and a couple of gals from my OA group are joining me. I don't know what I'd do without those two precious angels. Thank God for them.Keep me and my family in your prayers. I'm going to be okay. I know I have a long road

ahead of me and I know I'll not travel that road alone. I just wish my family would support me during this journey.LoveLee Anne_________________________________________________________________Don’t just search. Find. Check out the new MSN Search! http://search.msn.click-url.com/go/onm00200636ave/direct/01/

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Lee Anne,

Get all the reports you can from the dr so you know exactly what you are

dealing with. I had infiltrating ductal carcimona Stage II but it started in

the breast and went to one node.

I would love to find one of the crosses you are talking about. Do you know

where they sell them?

I am sorry your family isn't more supportive. We are here for you. I will

continue to keep you in my prayers.

Hugs

nne

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Fear, Anger, Frustration and Terror

>I got the pathology report on Monday. I have infiltrated carcinoma, phase

> 3. Basically that means that the cancer came from somewhere else. It

> didn't start in the breast. I go to the radiologist today and the

> oncologist tomorrow.

>

> Before my surgery a precious friend of mine gave me a " clinging cross " .

> This cross looks like chocolate, but is made of resin. If you can imagine

> a

> soft cross placed in the palm of your hand and your fingers fold over the

> cross bar. If you squeeze, the cross changes shape and conforms to your

> hand. This is what the clinging cross looks like. It's something

> wonderful

> to hold and I've used it so many times over the past couple of weeks,

> until

> now. I've misplaced it. Last night I was searching for it and my brother

> asked me what I was so frantically looking for. I told him and told him

> why

> I need it. His response was, " You could have talked to me all day without

> saying that. " He walked away crying. It made me so angry because I don't

> know how to talk to my family. I talked to Mom about it this morning and

> she said that the doctor should not have said that he got it all when

> obviously he didn't. I explained to her that he did get all of the cancer

> in the breast, but that the pathology report says it came from a different

> source. She thinks that they should have waited to tell me this and ran

> more tests without my knowing why. I disagree. I want to know what I'm

> looking at and what I'm facing.

>

> It would be a lie if I said I am okay today. I'm terrified. I'm angry.

> And I'm frustrated. I wish my family were more supportive, but I guess

> they

> are doing the best they can. I know they are scared. I just don't know

> how

> to talk to them.

>

> I haven't slept much this past couple of weeks and finally broke down and

> took a valium last night. It helped me to relax enough to get some sleep,

> but now I'm dealing with the hangover. I don't know which is worse,

> dragging from lack of sleep or drug enduced hangover.

>

> I go see the radiologist today and a couple of gals from my OA group are

> joining me. I don't know what I'd do without those two precious angels.

> Thank God for them.

>

> Keep me and my family in your prayers. I'm going to be okay. I know I

> have

> a long road ahead of me and I know I'll not travel that road alone. I

> just

> wish my family would support me during this journey.

>

> Love

>

> Lee Anne

>

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>

>

>

>

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Carol,

Prayers that all goes/went well with your oncologist. Let us know what he says.,

Hugs

nne

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Re: Fear, Anger, Frustration and Terror

With or without the clinging cross God is right beside you. It is extra comforting however to have that physical reminder right in hand. I am going to my oncologist today for my "options". I too am terrified and angry. I just can't seem to pull myself together which is so unlike me. Just getting ready to go seems like more than I can bear. Know that you are not alone Lee Anne. I'll be praying for you and your family.

CarolLee Anne wrote:

I got the pathology report on Monday. I have infiltrated carcinoma, phase 3. Basically that means that the cancer came from somewhere else. It didn't start in the breast. I go to the radiologist today and the oncologist tomorrow.Before my surgery a precious friend of mine gave me a "clinging cross". This cross looks like chocolate, but is made of resin. If you can imagine a soft cross placed in the palm of your hand and your fingers fold over the cross bar. If you squeeze, the cross changes shape and conforms to your hand. This is what the clinging cross looks like. It's something wonderful to hold and I've used it so many times over the past couple of weeks, until now. I've misplaced it. Last night I was searching for it and my brother asked me what I was so frantically looking for. I told him and told him why I need it. His response was, "You could have talked to me all day without saying that." He walked away crying. It made me so angry because I don't know how to talk to my family. I talked to Mom about it this morning and she said that the doctor should not have said that he got it all when obviously he didn't. I explained to her that he did get all of the cancer in the breast, but that the pathology report says it came from a different source. She thinks that they should have waited to tell me this and ran more tests without my knowing why. I disagree. I want to know what I'm looking at and what I'm facing.It would be a lie if I said I am okay today. I'm terrified. I'm angry. And I'm frustrated. I wish my family were more supportive, but I guess they are doing the best they can. I know they are scared. I just don't know how to talk to them.I haven't slept much this past couple of weeks and finally broke down and took a valium last night. It helped me to relax enough to get some sleep, but now I'm dealing with the hangover. I don't know which is worse, dragging from lack of sleep or drug enduced hangover.I go see the radiologist today and a couple of gals from my OA group are joining me. I don't know what I'd do without those two precious angels. Thank God for them.Keep me and my family in your prayers. I'm going to be okay. I know I have a long road ahead of me and I know I'll not travel that road alone. I just wish my family would support me during this journey.LoveLee Anne_________________________________________________________________Don’t just search. Find. Check out the new MSN Search! http://search.msn.click-url.com/go/onm00200636ave/direct/01/

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Hi Lee Anne,

I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis.

Are you absolutely sure your cancer came from somewhere else?

Infiltrated carcinoma generally starts in the milk ducts and then

spreads to surrounding tissue.

Is Phase 3 the same as Stage 3? Stage 3 can either be 3A or 3B.

It means the cancer has spread to the lymph nodes and if 3B, has spread

to tissue near the breast. But Stage 3 is still localized cancer.

The pathology report helps the doctor determine your staging and your

treatment recommendation. If you have any questions about it, please ask

your doctor. There's alot of information in it and even if the doctor

goes over it with you, you might have alot of questions that come up

after the visit.

take care,

-

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Lee Anne

Welcome to the list and we have all been through the waiting, then waiting

again, and waiting again. First for the biopsy report, then for the

lumpectomy date, then to starting chemo and radiation. I have now completed

one month. I go today for a cat scan of my liver as it is inflamed altho

the dr did say it might be a gallstone (even though I had mine out thirty

years ago.

I'll pray for you and your family. They mean well but sometimes we just

have to say what we need to........Too bad your brother didn't understand.

And your Mom is wrong. It is much better to know exactly what you are

looking at and what the dr is doing for it. But the waiting is really

really hard. Been there, done that.

Big Hug

Janet A

IDC -invasive ductal carcinoma

Stage I

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Lee Anne, I will keep you in my prayers. Look under the edges of furniture for that cross...always works for me! :*) ( In your car between the seats? Floorboard?...trying to help.) Just hug your family, tell them you love them and to keep praying!

{{{{{{LEE ANNE}}}}}

CAT Fear, Anger, Frustration and Terror

I got the pathology report on Monday. I have infiltrated carcinoma, phase 3. Basically that means that the cancer came from somewhere else. It didn't start in the breast. I go to the radiologist today and the oncologist tomorrow.

Before my surgery a precious friend of mine gave me a "clinging cross". This cross looks like chocolate, but is made of resin. If you can imagine a soft cross placed in the palm of your hand and your fingers fold over the cross bar. If you squeeze, the cross changes shape and conforms to your hand. This is what the clinging cross looks like. It's something wonderful to hold and I've used it so many times over the past couple of weeks, until now. I've misplaced it. Last night I was searching for it and my brother asked me what I was so frantically looking for. I told him and told him why I need it. His response was, "You could have talked to me all day without saying that." He walked away crying. It made me so angry because I don't know how to talk to my family. I talked to Mom about it this morning and she said that the doctor should not have said that he got it all when obviously he didn't. I explained to her that he did get all of the cancer in the breast, but that the pathology report says it came from a different source. She thinks that they should have waited to tell me this and ran more tests without my knowing why. I disagree. I want to know what I'm looking at and what I'm facing.

It would be a lie if I said I am okay today. I'm terrified. I'm angry. And I'm frustrated. I wish my family were more supportive, but I guess they are doing the best they can. I know they are scared. I just don't know how to talk to them.

I haven't slept much this past couple of weeks and finally broke down and took a valium last night. It helped me to relax enough to get some sleep, but now I'm dealing with the hangover. I don't know which is worse, dragging from lack of sleep or drug enduced hangover.

I go see the radiologist today and a couple of gals from my OA group are joining me. I don't know what I'd do without those two precious angels. Thank God for them.

Keep me and my family in your prayers. I'm going to be okay. I know I have a long road ahead of me and I know I'll not travel that road alone. I just wish my family would support me during this journey.

Love

Lee Anne

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