Guest guest Posted December 16, 2003 Report Share Posted December 16, 2003 Deep Breath, .... I know what you're talking about. As descibed in my previous post, I've been using up lots of flex point usage the last couple of weeks (first week it was a one-day meltdown, second week, it was a little bit each day, this week it was a too-heavy meal on Saturday night). I've been feeling frustrated with myself as well. Now, I've technically been totally On-Program, but I don't feel like it - I feel, like you, as if " I've been totally pigging out " lately. - too many big meals, snacks, " rich " desserts.... so, I'm stepping back and looking at the big picture... I'm over 90 pounds down!!!! I've basically maintained between 189 and 190 pounds the last 2 weeks (despite the heavy FP usage). My food choices, while not ideal these last few weeks haven't been the bad choices I made in my prior life. I'm still doing my workouts religiously .... and I'm re-focusing and getting myself back to where I'm comfortable eating.... You have 58 pounds to lose - more then attainable - remember , this is for life so it doesn't matter if you lose it tomorrow or a year from now - you'll be better for just knowing you can keep yourself in control of what you're doing. At first I was mad at myself for not losing the last 2-3 weeks - I'm anxious to get to goal - then I thought, " I'm going to have to deal with these times/events/stresses for the rest of my life and this is simply part of my education - learning that I can control myself, can eat my flex points if I need to; even if I maintain for a few weeks, it's not like the past - where I'd totally throw my hands up, head to Mc's fo the SuperSize Value Meal. I've proven to myself that I can handle a few stressful weeks, eat a bit more then I would normally like, but still make better choices, continue my exercise - and maintain my weight " . So, my point is don't beat yourself up. Congratulate yourself for what you've been able to accomplish so far. Learn from the mistakes you feel you've made. Recognize that stresses, tough situations, bad choices are always going to happen - and the key is how you react to them.... " it's not what you do. It's what you do next... " Last, I eat my APs regularly. My body needs the fuel to produce the energy it takes to earn those APs. When I didn't eat my APs, I didn't lose as fast. So, don't ever feel guilty about using APs --- for many people its' better to eat them then to not. That said, I'm not so sure I'd spend 4 of them on mints .... and it sounds like you regret that too - but, again, we learn from our mistakes ..... Best, Mitch wrote: >Feel free to skip right over this if you don't feel like listening >to me whine! > >I'm a little frustrated today with myself. I don't really have any >particular reason. But I always get mad at myself when I eat my >activity points. I had a subway sandwich for lunch (roasted chicken >with ff italian, YUM), which was within my regular amount of points, >but then my friend gave me some mints for Christmas (4 points for 3 >mints) and I used my activity points for them. I shouldn't feel >guilty, but I do! Ugh! > >I get so mad at myself for the lack of faith I have in myself. I >have 58 more lbs to lose to get to my goal weight, and if I lose a >pound a week, I will be there by January 2005. It seems so >unattainable, but at the same time, I know it is. I just wonder if I >can hold on that long. But at the same time, I haven't had that hard >of a time so far. I know, I'm contradicting myself, but for some >reason, my mind is going a mile a minute today! It must be the >stress of finals week... > >I feel like I pigged out all weekend! I used some flex Saturday, and >an Activity point on Sunday, but I had dessert both days! I mean, it >was only a cookie on Saturday and an absolutely tiny piece of cake >on Sunday, but still. Why I am beating myself up over this? AGHH! >Ok, I'm done. I just needed to vent! Thanks! > > in OKC <>< >238/223/215/165 > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 16, 2003 Report Share Posted December 16, 2003 , Try not to beat yourself up too much. I sometimes feel the same way, guilty for using the flex points or activity points. What you have to remember is that you are completely on program when you do that. Flex points were made so you can have those mints! Ideally, they were made so you wouldn't feel guilty about eating the mints (and possiblity go off progam because you'd blown it), but it sounds like they are doing the opposite. It is hard sometimes because we are used to feeling like we are on a " diet " when we want to lose weight, therefore we should deprive ourselves of things. But with WW, it isn't a diet. It is a way of life. The program is flexible and not about deprivation, but we sometimes still feel the need to deprive ourselves to feel like we are doing something. Just work the program, and it will work for you. April : ) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 16, 2003 Report Share Posted December 16, 2003 , Of course we won't skip over this, lol!! Go ahead and vent because this is the place to do it. We all have our frustrations and slow periods. You WILL get there to your goal, just hang in there okay?? Even if it seems slow sometimes, if you don't do it at all then the weight will come back on for sure right?? That's what I try to tell myself when it seems to slow down or stop, I don't want the weight back that I've lost. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is get through those slow or frustrating times but if we hang tough then we see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know what you mean by the up and down feelings all in one day, they seem like you're on a roller coaster with no safety strap. When the feelings rage or you agonize over the points or the exercise or the clothes, just take a deep breath and pat yourself on the back for what you've done so far and reflect on the strength that you had to come this far. I've agonized some days over the fact that I haven't lost enough to date or fast enough or why aren't these clothes looser by now, etc. but I just try to deal with it and then tomorrow is better. Maybe for the next few weeks, just try to not eat the flex points and then if you have a treat use the AP points?? That might take some of the frustration away. If you don't get AP's then you don't have a treat?? Good luck okay?? Venting Feel free to skip right over this if you don't feel like listening to me whine! I'm a little frustrated today with myself. I don't really have any particular reason. But I always get mad at myself when I eat my activity points. I had a subway sandwich for lunch (roasted chicken with ff italian, YUM), which was within my regular amount of points, but then my friend gave me some mints for Christmas (4 points for 3 mints) and I used my activity points for them. I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do! Ugh! I get so mad at myself for the lack of faith I have in myself. I have 58 more lbs to lose to get to my goal weight, and if I lose a pound a week, I will be there by January 2005. It seems so unattainable, but at the same time, I know it is. I just wonder if I can hold on that long. But at the same time, I haven't had that hard of a time so far. I know, I'm contradicting myself, but for some reason, my mind is going a mile a minute today! It must be the stress of finals week... I feel like I pigged out all weekend! I used some flex Saturday, and an Activity point on Sunday, but I had dessert both days! I mean, it was only a cookie on Saturday and an absolutely tiny piece of cake on Sunday, but still. Why I am beating myself up over this? AGHH! Ok, I'm done. I just needed to vent! Thanks! in OKC <>< 238/223/215/165 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 23, 2004 Report Share Posted September 23, 2004 Donna thank you so much for writing....your Bubble analogy is right on. I keep telling my husband I get this out of body...on the outside looking in sort of feeling all the time. On the outside I look fine but inside I feel like mush. I have my good days and then my very bad days....this week has been a string of very bad days. Thanks again! Amy G. Venting > Hi Amy, > I'm fairly new to the group but your message touched me so much I had > too write you. I know how you are feeling on the nasty predisone. I > have been on it many times and years at a time not for my IgA but for > my Crohn's and esinophilic esophagusitis (sp). I remember many times > feeling like I was in a bubble looking out at everyone else and no > one could see me. I hated the weight gain but I did eventually lose > it. I found that when they put me on a dose every other day it just > made me crazy. I needed the constant dose to feel like I was on an > even keel. I remember the crying nights and sleep less nights. > But remember why you are on the meds and remember it will get better. > Please keep writing when you need to, that will get you through the > roughest time. It will get better, I know after many years on this > drug. Take care and do something nice for yourself. > Donna > > > > > > To edit your settings for the group, go to our Yahoo Group > home page: > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/iga-nephropathy/ > > To unsubcribe via email, > iga-nephropathy-unsubscribe > Visit our companion website at www.igan.ca. The site is entirely supported by donations. If you would like to help, go to: > http://www.igan.ca/id62.htm > > Thank you > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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