Re:Karima -

December 26, 2004

I know what radiation does to a person. It really knocked me out.

I was tired all the time. I worked through the 6wks treatment but I

was a zombie in the afternoon. About half the time, I'd get home

from work and nap for about an hour.

I too got thrush. Diflucan took care of that. I always had a

metallic taste in my mouth. I ate a lot of jolly ranchers to rid

myself of the taste. I'm not sure if that was xeloda or radiation

that gave me that yuk taste but I would eat constantly to try to

settle my stomach. It didn't work and I gained weight (about 10lbs)

during the treatment (ugh).

All I can say is that it isn't easy, especially without support.

Hang in there because it will get better. I made it and you will

too.

The " sunburn " is uncomfortable. Mine never really got bad enough to

bother me a lot. I hope the rad. onc. has given you a cream for

it. They have stuff to treat this too.

Miracles happen!

Cliff H.

PS. Who would have thought that south Texas would have a white

Christmas! That's a minor miracle itself! 10 inches in

and 3 inches in Mc in the Rio Grande valley!

> Yes ick, ick, ick not pleasant.. Sounds like you have a plan.

Take care.. Jolene

> Re: Re:Karima -

>

> Oh I just don't understand why your daughter's did that. They

may have more confidence in your treatment that you do at this

stage. Course they also may be taking things for granted. I think

my kids are like that too.. I don't know what will happen if I get

too goofy to do the dishes.. LOL! Or alot of other things around

this house. It is already not as decent as it should be... Anyway oh

oh of I feel another cliche coming on ... When life hands you lemons

make lemonade..... When my hubby passed on, for awhile I could count

on my kids doing things with me. Went to hockey games with me, or to

movies etc. But then that got old because it just wasn't there thing

so I just went by myself. Course tonight I am sitting here alone

cause daughter Kris was bored so called her girlfriend and they went

out to party. I sure wouldn't go with her (not that she would ask)

but she might have suggested going to a movie... but didn't.... Our

kids will always be our kids a You have got to get yourself out of

this slump. I asked you before are you taking anything to help you?

There are many good remedies for this anxiety etc. You need to talk

to your doc about it especially if you can't get yourself out of

it. Once again you are not alone in this, many people have these

feelings and we just have to work through them. You need to find

stuff to occupy your time and not think about why the kids didn't

come... Reading is my passion... or I play on the computer, not

really into games, I work with clipart (adorable stuff) and make

cards, fridge magnets. Nothing fancy. Am a former craft dabbler so

even though I don't craft anymore, the urge to do something is still

there. I have always loved doings things on my computer, even when I

still had my old commodores. LOL.

> I taught myself to knit and crochet but sorta out of that now.

When I quit smoking was going to make the grandkids each a quick

crochet blanket for when they lay on the floor watching tv.(didn't

get very far on that) but at least I kept myself busy for awhile.

Ha.

> Anyway you are still here so make it work... I wish I had some

magic words for you. Hang on girl, don't give up... Hugs JOlene

>

December 26, 2004

Hi Jolene,

Feeling much better since church and a nap.

Karima

Re: Re:Karima -

Oh I just don't understand why your daughter's did that. They may have

more confidence in your treatment that you do at this stage. Course they also

may be taking things for granted. I think my kids are like that too.. I don't

know what will happen if I get too goofy to do the dishes.. LOL! Or alot of

other things around this house. It is already not as decent as it should be...

Anyway oh oh of I feel another cliche coming on ... When life hands you lemons

make lemonade..... When my hubby passed on, for awhile I could count on my kids

doing things with me. Went to hockey games with me, or to movies etc. But then

that got old because it just wasn't there thing so I just went by myself.

Course tonight I am sitting here alone cause daughter Kris was bored so called

her girlfriend and they went out to party. I sure wouldn't go with her (not that

she would ask) but she might have suggested going to a movie... but didn't....

Our kids will always be our kids a You have got to get yourself out of this

slump. I asked you before are you taking anything to help you? There are many

good remedies for this anxiety etc. You need to talk to your doc about it

especially if you can't get yourself out of it. Once again you are not alone in

this, many people have these feelings and we just have to work through them.

You need to find stuff to occupy your time and not think about why the kids

didn't come... Reading is my passion... or I play on the computer, not really

into games, I work with clipart (adorable stuff) and make cards, fridge magnets.

Nothing fancy. Am a former craft dabbler so even though I don't craft anymore,

the urge to do something is still there. I have always loved doings things on my

computer, even when I still had my old commodores. LOL.

I taught myself to knit and crochet but sorta out of that now. When I quit

smoking was going to make the grandkids each a quick crochet blanket for when

they lay on the floor watching tv.(didn't get very far on that) but at least I

kept myself busy for awhile. Ha.

Anyway you are still here so make it work... I wish I had some magic words

for you. Hang on girl, don't give up... Hugs JOlene

December 26, 2004

Yes, they offered Diflucan but I can't stand another pill. Meanwhile I used a

cortison 1% cream on the thrush and that seemed to work today. My oldest

daughter, the psychologist said she has been monitoring me by phone and could

tell my stress levels were up. I am glad the doc didn't want me to go to work.

It is because I worked in a department store...too many germs and low resistance

due to the chemo.

I have been doing the same thing eating to settle stomach and it is not working

and I am fighting weight gain. Ah well. This too shall pass.