Re: Scared to have hyst and venting

[Guest guest]

Oh Roxie - I so understand how you feel. I don't think it's terrible

at all to feel jealous of your SIL - you're only human and it's

impossible to not have her joy only highlight your pain. It never

ceases to amaze me at how cruel the timing of these things can be.

You were being so supportive of me last week when I was expressing my

jealousy towards my SIL. Well, my first miscarriage last April was

two days before she found out she was having twins. I felt so robbed

and betrayed by the world. Of course I didn't wish anything bad for

her - I just wished for something better for me!

I'm truly praying for good news for you tomorrow - you are such a

wonderful caring person - you really deserve a break!

Jen Czap

[Guest guest]

Roxie,

Good luck tomorrow. I will be thinking of you and praying that it

goes well. You are a ray of sunshine in this group and you really

deserve to have some positive news come your way. And don't feel bad

about those feelings regarding your SIL. We all have them and they

are completely normal. My daycare lady has 4 children with a 5th on

the way. You know I was saying some nasty things behind her

back ...jokes about human litters...anyhow, I digress. I'm getting

over it and in time I'll stop being so jealous.

If your news is bad...I'm sure it will be very difficult to hear and

handle. But you are a strong person and you will start to feel

better in time. If it's positive news...well, I think you and your

dh know how to proceed from there. Let's hope it's positive.

Good luck,

Sara O.

[Guest guest]

Dear Roxie,

I know exactly how you feel!. I was so scared before my hysteroscopy too and could not sleep. I kept imagining how the doctor would come in with a sad face and tell me I will not be able to have children. The night before was very, very long..

I will be thinking of you and very much hoping that you will hear good news that satisfy you.

All the best wishes coming your way!

roxanndianna1 wrote:

Hi all,Tomorrow I have that long awaited scope and I am so afraid. We are packing just in case we need to spend the night. I guess this scope is much smaller that the ones used for operative hysts but I am terrified of having another puncture. I am also very afraid that I will receive bad news. I have been very sensitive lately and will be glad to know one way or another. Tomorrow, my SIL is also being induced and they will have their 3rd baby. I hate admitting this but I am sooooooooo jealous! I know that if I get bad news and then come home to a message from them telling all about their new baby that I will lose it. I hope that doesn't sound terrible and I certainly don't want anything bad to happen to them. I am just frustrated and having a hard time hearing birth stories right now. I just have that awful gut feeling that I won't be getting good news tomorrow. My brother(the one having the baby tomorrow)asked if I am really considering even trying again and do I want to go through all of that again. Thanks for listening to me vent. I know that I am lucky to have a child and don't mean to sound ungrateful for what I have. I am hoping that this is just the stress of the unknown and that I will feel better tomorrow. Thanks again-you are the only ones who understand!Roxie

[Guest guest]

Hi Roxie,

I'm just sending my very best wishes for your op. today. I will be

thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed for good news. My SIL is

having her fourth baby in August so I know how you feel.

Anyway let's hope there will be good news all round in your family - a

new baby for your brother and SIL and a healthy, scar free uterus for

you.

Sending lots and lots of prayers your way - be brave and remember lots

of people are thinking of you.

Love,

a

[Guest guest]

Hi Roxie,

Please do not feel badly or guilty about your feelings. We have all

been in the same place and it is natural to feel what we feel. It is

good that you are sharing your thoughts.

Good luck tomorrow! I will be thinking of you and sending positive

vibes your way. I keep thinking that we all have been through so much

that eventually the tide has to turn and happy things will happen. I

will pray that you have positive results. Please keep the faith and

hope and remember you are not alone, we are all here for you.

Take care and please keep us updated.

S.

[Guest guest]

Roxie-

I am thinking of you today, I read an earlier post that said you're a ray of sunshine in the group, and that's exactly how I felt when you sent me a few posts a few weeks ago when I was going through my m/c....I hope everything goes well and you have great news to share with us

xxoo

D.roxanndianna1 wrote:

[Guest guest]

Roxie,

I'm sending you all the strength, support, and hugs I can! Don't

apologize for your feelings or for venting--we all have those

feelings. I know you're very afraid not only of the procedure but

also about the results--but you're a strong woman and you will

survive this whatever happens.

I think after being diagnosed with AS it is hard not to always expect

the worst. But, there are so many positive experiences and success

stories. I pray that you will be one of them.

I will be thinking of you and praying for you with all of my heart.

Terry M.

[Guest guest]

Roxie,

I know exactly how you are feeling! It's so scary to know that you

are finally going to have that long-awaited diagnosis. But just

think, today could mark the start of something wonderful for you!

On top of everything, why does timing have to be so cruel? I found

out that my SIL was pregnant within days of my m/c, and that her due

date was within days of mine. It felt like God was kicking me when I

was down! It's unfair and it just sucks! I know you don't begrudge

her her happiness, but why does it have to happen now???

What I hope for you is some very clear answers about your status and

possibilities for the future. I always felt that if I knew what I

was dealing with, then I could visualize the rest and make it

happen. I am hoping for you that you will also have something of

your own to celebrate after today--a beautifully healed uterus. I

have all my fingers and toes crossed for you!

Wishing you lots of peace today!

Haley