venting...bad day :( :(

[Guest guest]

Hi all...

Well, since has helped us all get a little more touchy feely I sorta

want to share.

Yesterday I was feeling GREAT! It was sunny and warm, I thought the meds

were finally making me get better. I called friends and made plans for after

work today (I never do that because normally I am too tired and sore) I

started to plan out my time for this weekend and how I'm going to tackle my

gardening chores. Then this morning I feel awful!!! I just hate this

unpredictable illness! Can I call this a disease? The doctors refuse to

call it that, they call it a " syndrome " but it sure as heck feels like a

DISEASE!

I don't know what made me feel worse today, maybe a combination of things.

The weather was cold last night and I didn't sleep well, probably only got 4

hours, waking up every hour or so. Either I hurt, or the neighbors dogs are

howling, or my cat is whining. It was gloomy this morning and I had a

really tough time getting out of bed, made it to work late. I had a funeral

to go to today. is gone again (Navy) and it's really bothering me!

I'm having a horrible time having him gone. He just got home a month ago

after being out for 6 mos., now gone again for a couple weeks. It's only

been 3 days but I haven't gotten an email from him and I'm used to one every

day when he's gone. So now I'm paniced and emotional, worried he is mad at

me. We had a fight on Saturday, about me being sick and how I can't do

much. We made up and had a great weekend after that, but I'm just so afraid

he has started to get mad again. I think the cat is whining because he is

gone too. She just got used to him being home every day and playing with

her, and I don't feel well enough to chase her around the house like he does

so she screams and cries for attention when I am sleeping! (I have no

children yet, only my cat named Baby, I've had her for 10 years)

I also changed my medical insurance. I had no idea what doctor to go to,

but I just hated Kaiser so much that I had to try something new. I need to

make an appointment in the next two days as soon as I get the medical# and

try to get in to see the new doc ASAP. I'm worried she won't beleive in FMS,

or won't treat it. I'm scared my meds will lapse and I will start to feel

worse again.

Oh, and I don't even want to talk about all the stress at work!!!!!!!!!

UGH!!!!!!

Maybe this is just a bit more stress than my body wants to deal with right

now.

okay...I'm done complaining. I just needed to get it out somehow, rather

than make another long distance phone call to my mom for the 4th time this

month!!!

Thanks for listening,

-Joy (aka Fawn)

[Guest guest]

Joy,

I remember the days of the Navy. My ex husband was in the Navy but it

wasn't him that I

was missing but all my friends that I didn't have when they had to go out on

manuvers. I

understand from dealing with fibro what it is like to be up one day and be down

the next.

When that happens I go in my room lock the door turn on some candles and settle

down with

doritos and a good book. Just remember to take time for yourself. Sara

[Guest guest]

Wow Joy, you sure sound like you have a lot on your stress plate! I

understand about the feeling good and making plans and then not being able

to carry them out. I've got a friend whom I've cancelled for dinner plans

more than kept them.

He just got home a month ago

after being out for 6 mos., now gone again for a couple weeks. It's only

been 3 days but I haven't gotten an email from him and I'm used to one every

day when he's gone. So now I'm paniced and emotional, worried he is mad at

me.

He probably is busy and isn't thinking how you might interpret a lack of

email. I know when my DH and I were separated for six months, I wrote him

nearly every day. He would write me once or twice a week. I talked to him

about it, etc., but he never understood it until I stopped writing him for a

week or so. He apologized and was much better about mail. Hope you have

some email from him by now.

I also changed my medical insurance. I had no idea what doctor to go to,

but I just hated Kaiser so much that I had to try something new. I need to

make an appointment in the next two days as soon as I get the medical# and

try to get in to see the new doc ASAP. I'm worried she won't beleive in FMS,

or won't treat it. I'm scared my meds will lapse and I will start to feel

worse again.

Yeah, that is a big scare, isn't it? You always feel as if they'll think

you're making things up or just being too whimpy, at least I do.

Darcy

[Guest guest]

Hi Fawn, Blast away!! We all need to sometimes!! Tag! Your it!

<LOL> It's no fun being alone and far from home. Have you made any

friends of wives in the same predicament? I know they probably won't

have the dreaded FMS, but maybe just being able to talk to someone

might help. This probably won't make you feel any better -- but I'll

try it -----> at least you can come home and collapse and not worry

about fixing supper or entertaining your husband. My kids are all

grown and my loving husband is fine with Dominoe's or Taco Bell which

buys me a couple of nites a week <G>. My father-in-law in LA has

Kaiser and he has emphysema -- boy the nightmares with his doctors

are just horrible! Hope you might be feeling better today.

Little Hugs, Pat

> Hi all...

>

> Well, since has helped us all get a little more touchy feely

I sorta

> want to share.

>

> Yesterday I was feeling GREAT! It was sunny and warm, I thought

the meds

> were finally making me get better. I called friends and made plans

for after

> work today (I never do that because normally I am too tired and

sore) I

> started to plan out my time for this weekend and how I'm going to

tackle my

> gardening chores. Then this morning I feel awful!!! I just hate

this

> unpredictable illness! Can I call this a disease? The doctors

refuse to

> call it that, they call it a " syndrome " but it sure as heck feels

like a

> DISEASE!

>

> I don't know what made me feel worse today, maybe a combination of

things.

> The weather was cold last night and I didn't sleep well, probably

only got 4

> hours, waking up every hour or so. Either I hurt, or the neighbors

dogs are

> howling, or my cat is whining. It was gloomy this morning and I

had a

> really tough time getting out of bed, made it to work late. I had

a funeral

> to go to today. is gone again (Navy) and it's really

bothering me!

> I'm having a horrible time having him gone. He just got home a

month ago

> after being out for 6 mos., now gone again for a couple weeks.

It's only

> been 3 days but I haven't gotten an email from him and I'm used to

one every

> day when he's gone. So now I'm paniced and emotional, worried he

is mad at

> me. We had a fight on Saturday, about me being sick and how I

can't do

> much. We made up and had a great weekend after that, but I'm just

so afraid

> he has started to get mad again. I think the cat is whining

because he is

> gone too. She just got used to him being home every day and

playing with

> her, and I don't feel well enough to chase her around the house

like he does

> so she screams and cries for attention when I am sleeping! (I have

no

> children yet, only my cat named Baby, I've had her for 10 years)

>

> I also changed my medical insurance. I had no idea what doctor to

go to,

> but I just hated Kaiser so much that I had to try something new. I

need to

> make an appointment in the next two days as soon as I get the

medical# and

> try to get in to see the new doc ASAP. I'm worried she won't

beleive in FMS,

> or won't treat it. I'm scared my meds will lapse and I will start

to feel

> worse again.

>

> Oh, and I don't even want to talk about all the stress at

work!!!!!!!!!

> UGH!!!!!!

>

> Maybe this is just a bit more stress than my body wants to deal

with right

> now.

> okay...I'm done complaining. I just needed to get it out somehow,

rather

> than make another long distance phone call to my mom for the 4th

time this

> month!!!

> Thanks for listening,

>

> -Joy (aka Fawn)