Hi - just chatting

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Hello,

I just fill like chatting tonight I hope ya don't mind. The last couple of

months I have been so overwhelmed with all thats been changin in my life.

Hubby's job told him in January that they are closing this office in NC and

moving it up to Mass. Hubby comes home and ask if I want to move. I said are

you nuts, or joking? lol I thought we were done with the moving when he

retired from the air force. But nope he wasn't joking. But we both really

didn't want to move, So he started putting out his resume, His last day from

his job was going to be April First, Great fools joke but was no joke.

One day he said someone called him from Ca, we just had moved from CA 2 years

prior. But this guy was asking if he was interested in a job in Wilmington,

NC. Hubby asked me if he should go on the interview. I said well you

shouldn't not go, you don't want to close any doors. You never know what's

going to happen. So when he was calling the guy back I said to him okay I

have this feeling we are moving to Wilmington, NC so just tell me when I have

to pack the bags. lol

So this guy I can't remember his name. Set up the appointment hubby went to

the interview one day, he drove down there the night before and came back

after the interview was over. I said I still have this feeling we are moving.

A few days past and then hubby gets the call That he is being offered the

job. Hubby says How did you know? Smart I guess. lol

So it was like go on the job interview, get the job and 2 weeks later we are

moving hubby down there to an apartment until the kids finish school here. It

happen so fast.

I really wasn't thinking that all of this was going to affect my fibro much.

I have done quick moves before, with hubby being in the military, so I didn't

think much of doing it again. But this time I was going to be the one to deal

with 2 Realtors one on selling my home and one buying a new one, dealing with

my kids reaction, telling the parents of the children I baby-sit for during

the day, and missing hubby and all that goes with all of it. My dragon (my

fibro) was not happy with me at all,and still isn't happy with me I was doing

all the cleaning, painting, many many phone calls, the drive back and forth

to Wilmington to Raleigh every other weekend and like this week driving down

there tomorrow, in the morning signing paper work and then coming home so be

here when kids get out of school, there old enough to be home alone for a bit

but I really enjoy being home when they get home to see how there day was.

Then I do the same drive again on Saturday because hubby and I have an

inspection being done on the new house we are buying. And I need to be home

before 1:00 on Sunday because son has a soccer game.

I feel like there's days I just want to scream and have someone else deal

with all this stuff, and I didn't realize how much I was going to be hurting

doing tasks I always do anyway. And I feel like if I don't do it I am a

failure for my family. I know that might sound silly. but to me I wish I

could do all I could do and not ache 24/7. My dragon never lets up. I don't

have pain free days, I don't remember when the last time I didn't hurt.

Really I am talking years lots of years.

This weekend I raked the front yard, I thought I am probably going to hurt

more for doing this, but if I do it really slow and just this small bit maybe

my dragon will surprise me. Well, it surprised me all right I woke up well

didn't really sleep. But doze here and there. Body doesn't know how to sleep.

lol anyway I hurt from head to toe, I had gotten up and tried to walk and

legs wouldn't go. I couldn't believe that just raking that small bit put me

in that much pain. This was Easter morning. I had planned to have a nice

Easter dinner and spend some family time with family since Hubby drove up for

the weekend and I actually had both kids home.lol But Mom couldn't do it.

Most of the time I would just do what ever I have to do in pain, but today I

just couldn't to anything and felt very sad that this stupid dragon takes

over my life the way it does.

Here Iam just rattling away. sorry I guess I am making up for time I haven't

written in a while. Sorry I hope ya'll don't mind me expressing the way I

feel I just need to talk to someone that understands.

I could go on more but I don't want to bore you, or take up any more of your

time. Thanks for listening. Oh I do have some good news I sold the house here

in 2 and half weeks so that is one headache gone Yippeee!

Hope you will forgive me for chatting for so long.

Hope everyone is having a pain free day.

hugs PAm in NC : )