Guest guest Posted December 1, 2000 Report Share Posted December 1, 2000 Wow, Janice, you just wrote what I so often lament to my husband. I often feel like I'm really not important. I'm having to delegate a lot of tasks that other people do easily and I'm having to lean on my husband way too much for my comfort. I know *exactly* what you mean when one day you know you're doing all you can and the next you wonder and doubt yourself. And, I also really recognize the feeling of self doubt about maybe it is in my head? Or maybe I don't really have this, I'm just a hypochondriac. Also because people just don't see it and I get so tired of explaining why I don't feel up for certain things. OTOH, I also overcommit myself, and then end up regretting it later. Like I love holding parties for the kids and plan them and then without failing I end up exhausted and achy, either during or after the party. Sigh! I just want to think the pain away and on days that I feel better, I can just imagine that I'm " cured " . Only to wake up achy the next day. I hate this disease too, you're definitely not alone!!! Petra (mailto:Petra@...) Maaammmiiieee!!! to Katja (14 Mar '90), Kai (29 Apr '92) and Saskia (11 Dec '95) Visit us at http://www.kjsl.com/~petra Check out our Sinterklaas page (http://www.kjsl.com/~petra/sint.htm) ~*~*~ " A spoiled child is a child deprived of what she needs, not the other way around " Harville Hendrix/Helen Hunt in " Giving the Love that Heals " ~*~*~ > Re: Need some support > > > Hi Petra, > > My I am glad that someone else feels all that too. I too do > not do to well > with the pain and my kids, when I'm in pain I can handle so > very little also. > It is nice to hear that I am not alone and not so horrible > that I am the > only one who is like that. It is not nice that we are like > that (taking our > pain out on others), but it is very comforting to hear > someone else has the > same life. Thank you for sharing. > > You wrote: For me, the hard part is realizing that I can't do > it all and that > it's not necessary to do it all.......It's hard to realize > that, I'm just so > programmed to " be a good housewife " . > > That I think says it all, I feel that way so many times. I > feel that I am a > disappointment to everyone sometimes. I feel that way this > week, it is the > time of the month and that does a job on my pain, but also I > noticed I get > really down on myself. I wonder at times if maybe some > people are right that > it is in our heads, I doubt myself and think boy am I wimpy, > I can't even do > one or more than one task today, even something simple as the > dishes. What > kind of person am I? What if I am faking? What if I am > making myself be > this way? I hate this disease - what are we when even some > doctors don't > believe it's real? > > I hate when I get like that (feeling all the above), and this > week it seems > to be that way. I feel so horrible about it - not being able > to be myself > like I was before - energetic, being able to do a job and > housework for many > hours, and in general THINK! I know deep down that I try my > hardest and I am > beating and living with this (FM), but at times when I am > down I wonder if I > really am. Does that make sense? > > Does anyone else have this struggle with their abilities or > lack of them? > Like one day you know you are doing your best and then the > next you feel like > what the heck am I doing - nothing? Or is that weird? > > Sorry to end on a downer, but I guess I needed to get it out > but it is so > hard to look at what I do and not wonder why I cannot be > " normal " even with > FM, why can't I work, so many other people with FM work or > other diseases, > why can't I? Am I not strong enough? > > Oh I will hush now, sorry to all those that I just bummed > out, that was not > my intent and I hope I haven't, I guess I needed a listener. > > Sending much thanks for being there to listen to me complain! > I hope we all have a better day! > Janice > > " I wish we could change our dials to AM instead of FM!!! " > > -------------------------- eGroups Sponsor > -------------------------~-~> > eLerts > It's Easy. It's Fun. Best of All, it's Free! > http://click./1/9699/0/_/442796/_/975593158/ > -------------------------------------------------------------- > ------> > > List owner Bierman > > Add or view webpage links about Fibromyalgia/CFS. > http://www.onelist.com/links/ > > > ~*~CHAT TIME:~*~ > MON Night > TIME:Eastern 9 Pm, Central 8 Pm, Mt 7 PM Pacific 6 PM > WHERE: /chat/ > > To write the list owner: The_List_Owner@... > > TO unsubscribe. > Go to: http://www.onelist.com/ to this list and unsub from it. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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