Need to Vent

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Maybe I will feel better about this and maybe not.

(sorry peggy and others this is long, only way to get it all out)

But I need to let

it go and not worry about it because in reality it wasnt that important

to me. I went to a job interview yesterday, now I already have a full

time job but this company got a hold of my resume and contacted me for

a position that have open. I thought I was prepared according to their

posting I had all the qualifications and my thinking was it was more of

a documentation, getting the team organized, leading projects and that

sort of thing. I always go into an interview with a list of questions

for them and the attitude that I dont need that job it keeps me less

nervous and really I am interviewing them probably more then they are me

because I dont want to be in a situation like I am now. Well I didnt

give the best answer on a couple questions the rest I felt very good

about. There was also a written part and I tried to cover all the parts

that I could think of but I dont do good under pressure like that.

Well during the interview I kept saying to myself, oh I see how this

is. Their group is very small only 3 developers, 1 dba, and its a web

group, they are growing but they really dont have standards, or project

plans, or use really any software methodology. They dont have cross

training, they dont offer 24/7 support for their shop they dont really

have a good relationship or open communication or formal way of doing

things,they do have a development, test and production environment but

really no rules in place. Which you all probably dont understand that

but its a big thing and it makes for a very disorganized,

dysfunctional, and completly hectic area. But sometimes it can be

for the better if people are open to change.

I dont have to have another job, I dont have to go anywhere and I have

another interview in a few weeks for another position at another

entity actually it was the place I worked at before and I would

only go back there because my computer forensic degree would fit

perfect and there would be a place I could move up too.

So why does it bother me so? I dont know but I do need to let it go.

the other thing my bipolar daughter calls up last night crying and

carrying on that she is going to kill herself and all this because

she cant live that way anymore, yada yada, My mom took that over

and went and got her and then drug her down to the clinic this

morning for some medication. I am not happy about her being here

and have told her this is her very very last chance, from here

she will go to a shelter because she has about a week to get all her

phone calls made and her life on track so she can take care of

herself and her baby.

I need to take my dog to the vet I have 2 dogs I have taken to the vet

this week, seems everything is falling apart around me. and its tough

to breathe!

Sandie