Guest guest Posted December 15, 2007 Report Share Posted December 15, 2007 On the count of three everyone give Sandie a virtual hug, not hard because we don't want to take her breath away but heavenly like we're all floating on beautiful soft clouds and with a touch that tells her in her heart how powerfully we're hugging.... 1 2 3 In Breathe-Support , james wallman wrote: > > Lou, > You write very well and express your feelings so clearly. I can identify so easily with your situation, as I'm sure many folks here can. You may already know this so forgive me if I sound like I'm preaching. I, too, have developed phobias/anxiety/and panic attacks since having this disease, at 60+ years old. I am assured by doctors and mental health professionals that this is absolutely normal for someone with compromised breathing. The good news is that there is relief out there. I don't know your situation but most insurance allow some mental health services. The combo of a good therapist and the proper meds can do wonders for your quality of life. The trick is finding a good therapist.....there are so many out there that shouldn't be. We call them " wounded healers " ...they get into the field more to help themselves than to help others. and actually do damage. I also identify with your feeling of being unable to control this stuff. Very scary, very frustrating. I pray > that you find some relief, some peace to help you battle this monster. > > jim IPF 05 > alaska > > > Lou wrote: > Sandie, I am going through the same thing you are going through right > now as far as your inner feelings. I am not job searching but wish I > could. > > I totally understand you and hope you can, like me, try hard to just > let yourself become more of a part of this wonderful group. If you > don't need that job, you need us for sure. We love you so much and > want you to be well like all of us would like. > > Yesterday I went to the pharmacy across the street, (had to drive) > and even though it is close, I had to drive cause I couldn't walk > that far. As I pulled in our parking lot, I realized that this > dreadful disease had really got a grip on me that I don't like. We > all don't like it either. No one really understands, do they? I > mean like family? They try to understand but don't, plain and simple. > > When my hubby went to work this morning, I did not feel well at all. > I thought I was going to go into a panic attack and couldn't > breathe. When he said good bye and shut the door, I thought I would > never see him again. Fear overcame me and I couldn't move. That > hasn't happened to me in over 30 years. I used to have agoraphobia > 30 years ago after my first hubby left me. It was horrid and I just > wanted to die. The feeling that my life is now over is the feeling I > had this morning. I can't control it, it is controlling me no matter > how sane I stay and how much I pray. Can't get used to it and don't > want to get used to it either. I hate it with every breath I > breathe. The antibiotic the pulmo gave me yesterday and the codiene > med has really helped my congestion, that much I can say, but WHO AM > I? I don't know who I am because the drugs I am taking is like being > someone else. What gives with this life? > Lou > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Yahoo! Search. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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