HI JAMES

[Guest guest]

> HI JAMES: Gee, thank you so much for

your kind and thoughtful words to me. Even my own family doesn't

compliment me with such nice words most of the time.

30 years ago when I first started the panic attacks, the feeling of

impending doom and fear of dying right there in my tracks was

devastating. I have been on xanax and paxil ever since and without

those meds, I would just be at home all the time. They have given me

the chance to become stronger and count more on prayer and also of

me, myself and I to come out of the surge of fear overwhelming me.

Since I have been on those meds, they have found that I had a

horrible chemical imbalance which triggered the attacks and also

realizing what a horrible marriage I had at the time. I can go

anywhere and do anything and drive anywhere too with these meds. I

take very very low amounts of them. Actually the lowest they give.

The devastation of our son leaving home 30 yrs ago and for 15 yrs,

didn't know if he was either dead or alive was also a contributing

factor with the anxiety. Then I got the breast cancer, at that time

my son told me along with my ex, that they didn't want to ever see me

again. My husband left me because of his womanizing and 27 years I

guess was all he could handle in his head. My son has some mental

problems as it runs on Mom's side of the family. She was in and out

of institutions for years with electric shock treatments, etc. and

used to beat me when I was a child a lot. Anyhow, the xanax and

paxil are very very mild, like I said, and do give me the balance I

need to proceed with this life. God has blessed me with a wonderful

daughter who is above average on the compassionate and loving and

caring side. She is always there for me and always will be, just her

nature. Praise the Lord!

Love, Lou

>

[Guest guest]

Lou, I to Thank God for little girls. Take care of you. Love and Prayers, Peggy  ipf 6/04 Florida"Worry looks around, Sorry looks back, Faith looks up." > HI JAMES: Gee, thank you so much foryour kind and thoughtful words to me. Even my own family doesn'tcompliment me with such nice words most of the time.30 years ago when I first started the panic attacks, the feeling ofimpending doom and fear of dying right there in my tracks wasdevastating. I have been on xanax and paxil ever since and withoutthose meds, I would just be at home all the time. They have given methe chance to become stronger and count more on prayer and also ofme, myself and I to come out of the surge of fear overwhelming me.Since I have been on those meds, they have found that I had ahorrible chemical imbalance which triggered the attacks and alsorealizing what a horrible marriage I had at the time. I can goanywhere and do anything and drive anywhere too with these meds. Itake very very low amounts of them. Actually the lowest they give.The devastation of our son leaving home 30 yrs ago and for 15 yrs,didn't know if he was either dead or alive was also a contributingfactor with the anxiety. Then I got the breast cancer, at that timemy son told me along with my ex, that they didn't want to ever see meagain. My husband left me because of his womanizing and 27 years Iguess was all he could handle in his head. My son has some mentalproblems as it runs on Mom's side of the family. She was in and outof institutions for years with electric shock treatments, etc. andused to beat me when I was a child a lot. Anyhow, the xanax andpaxil are very very mild, like I said, and do give me the balance Ineed to proceed with this life. God has blessed me with a wonderfuldaughter who is above average on the compassionate and loving andcaring side. She is always there for me and always will be, just hernature. Praise the Lord!Love, Lou>