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Hi Everyone!

I'd like to start by saying I'm so glad to have found

a support group that deals specifically with pregnancy

after weight loss surgery. I am 6 mos post-op. My

pre-op weight was 256 and I am happy to have lost

66lbs since surgery! My surgery went very smoothly and

I've been slowly making the adjustment to my new way

of eating. Up until a week ago life was good.

I'm sure you all have probably heard this story

countless times from other new members so I'll just

cut to the chase. I took the test and two lines showed

up! Two lines! What is going on? I've never been the

fertile turtle! Also, I've been taking the birth

control pill NorQD! What have I done?

I know about not having a baby until at least 18 mos

out! I know about the " window of opportunity! " I know

about the possibility of a miscarriage! I'm just so

overwhelmed with the emotional weight of not knowing

how to feel. This will be my second child. I also have

a two year old. Aside from the whole surgery issue,

I'm very intimidated at the idea of having two babies

nearly back to back. Yikes!

I just feel so guilty because I know that my thoughts

should be zeroed in on the welfare of the baby but all

I can think of is that I've sabbotaged my surgery.

Please don't bash me. I know how selfish that sounds

but that's all I can think about. It's like - it took

me so long to decide to have the surgery and so long

to be approved! I know a baby is a blessing but the

timing seems lousy.

For those of you who've dealt with infertility, please

forgive my whining. I know I sound like such an

ingrate. The bottom line is that when all is said and

done, I will have my baby and love him (hoping for a

boy) but in the meantime I can't stop crying. Will

someone honestly tell me how having a baby this soon

after surgery will affect my weight loss? Have I

pretty much blown it since I will be pregnant during

the window of opportunity? I can take the truth, I

think. (smile) Thanks so much for your support and

congratulation to all the new moms and mommies to be!

All the Best,

Janine

Surgery Date - 7/6/01

Pre-Op - 256lbs

Current - 190lbs

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