Re: what happen to Sue the RN?

[Guest guest]

Sue, you certainly have a lot going on in your life that can put anyone under

stress. Please don't lose your faith in God. We sometimes go through times

that we just cannot explain. I will pray for you and your children. God

Bless and Love, Ronnie

In a message dated 1/26/00 1:12:14 PM GMT Standard Time, SUE7RN@...

writes:

<< Thanks Lu.... I'm really nervous about this hearing over visitation. My ex

is

trying to control me... He wants it so that anytime I go somewhere without

my

children that I have to call him and ask him if he wants to provide child

care....which means a long distance phone call.... which means about 30

miles

out of my way.... and the fact that my children will be really stressed

out.... My 12 year old son went through being suicidal 10 months ago.... the

school guidance counselor called me and told me he was talking to her about

hurting himself so he wouldn't have to go to his father's that he would

rather be dead than go there.... it's a mess.... my 12 year old has been on

an antidepressant so he can visit his father..... SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now my

ex

is furious with me and is seeking revenge because I filed contempt charges

for not paying child support for over 6 months and alimony for 4 months....

but he's building a $300,000.00 home and has many luxuries while I'm on

disability..... He was found guilty of contempt.... so the day of the

hearing

he filed for threee different things through the court.... a DECREASE in

child support.... this child care agenda.... and contempt charges against me

because my son did not go with him for several months...(LONG STORY - he had

part of his foot amputated after a crushing injury). Well, anyways

guys...

I'm so afraid that if this goes through that it will push my son over the

edge.... so therefore my life would cease.... I would no longer be able to

take a college class... go to the grocery store without them.... go out on

Friday and Saturday evening with my honey.... my boys would hate me if I put

them through that! I keep praying that he will just leave us alone... He is

sooooooooooooooooo upset that I didn't die when he left me and that I have

actually moved on with my life and that I am very happy and could care less

about him.... He expected that I would mourn after him forever or die. So

he's going to try this control thing.... he knows that I will protect the

boys and that I will stay home if I have to.

Please keep my boys in your prayers today.

Do any of you have a difficult time with your faith? I am really

struggling with mine... I guess I just wonder why I am going through all of

this.... RP, and the ex, and the children.... WHY and if there was a GOD,

why

hasn't he got the hint that I can't take anymore. I truly feel I'm right on

the edge. If my ex gets what he's asking for.... it will push me over the

edge. I truly feel that way. Why bother... I'm not allowed to live...I'm

under a microscope....I have to watch everything I do... I'll have to call

and report in to my ex every time I want to do something... That's no way to

live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I let him go without any fight...I signed the

divorce papers without a question. Why can't he just leave me and the boys

live our lives happily? Heck... he's remarried.... He married his

mistress....that he was having an affair with while I was in the hospital

fighting for my life in ICU for almost 6 months....I need some insight. My

faith in GOD use to be so strong and now I'm really questioning all of that.

My faith in GOD use to give me strength but I'm exhausted...Why would GOD

allow this to be happening? I'm a good person... a moral and ethical

person.... WHY????????????????? Do any of you struggle with

this?????????????????????????????????

Please pray for me... for strength and understanding..................I

really need it desperately!

Take care,

SUE

>>

[Guest guest]

Sue,

I am sorry to hear about your problems with the ex. I too have an ex but it

was prior to this disease, and I have been happily re-married for 11 years

now Regarding the faith, we must remember that all things work towards

good with God, and that maybe we can't see how it could possibly be that way

but down the road we see that something good did come out of it. So maybe

when you do go to court on these issues, things will work out. I know that

your kids come first (Your the mom and you think that the ex would quit

thinking about themselves and put the kids first, but that for sure doesn't

seem to happen. I too have struggled when you think you have been given too

much to deal with, and I just put it in God's hands because I have no control

over it. That really helps me with the stress, and strengthens my faith. I

hope this makes sense and will of course keep you in my prayers too.

Patty B.

[Guest guest]

Jo,

Thanks for the caring... You don't sound like you are preaching.... You

are saying the things that I need to hear... I'm thankful for you and that

you have taken the time to open my heart and my eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUE

[Guest guest]

Lu,

Thanks for the encouragement... You don't know how much it means to me. I

just have a tough time sorting through it all at times.

SUE

[Guest guest]

Thanks Ronnie,

I'm trying to keep the faith and hang in there as you've all said. SUE

[Guest guest]

THANKS Patty B. for the encouragement! SUE

[Guest guest]

I called Rene yesterday and talked with her. She is having a rough time with

the meds right now and some personal stuff as well. She sounded good though

so I am hopeful she will be returning soon

Love and Gentle Hugs,

Angie

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today

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[Guest guest]

Sue

I am really late at reading most mail, I haven't been online much the past

two days I just read your post so sorry if this is late. I know exactly how

you feel about having your faith tested. I mean really tested to the limits.

You have been through hell but you made it back. That is what is important. I

have even doubted that there was a GOd when I lost my babies and became so

ill. BUT I have to say that it was obviously not my time to leave here and I

had a job to finish. So do you and the fact that you are wondering about your

faith means you still have it. WE are human and doubt is natural and normal.

I won't say my faith is perfect, It sure has a long way to go but I will say

I believe in prayer and God and We are a powerful voice here. We will pray

for you and it has to get easier, it can't get any worse. They say God will

only give you what you can handle and the rest you should surrender to him.

To help with the burden. If you want to talk to anyone about anything I am

only a phone call away. I will not preach either

Love and Gentle Hugs,

Angie

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today

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[Guest guest]

Sue

I am really late at reading most mail, I haven't been online much the past

two days I just read your post so sorry if this is late. I know exactly how

you feel about having your faith tested. I mean really tested to the limits.

You have been through hell but you made it back. That is what is important. I

have even doubted that there was a GOd when I lost my babies and became so

ill. BUT I have to say that it was obviously not my time to leave here and I

had a job to finish. So do you and the fact that you are wondering about your

faith means you still have it. WE are human and doubt is natural and normal.

I won't say my faith is perfect, It sure has a long way to go but I will say

I believe in prayer and God and We are a powerful voice here. We will pray

for you and it has to get easier, it can't get any worse. They say God will

only give you what you can handle and the rest you should surrender to him.

To help with the burden. If you want to talk to anyone about anything I am

only a phone call away. I will not preach either

Love and Gentle Hugs,

Angie

Yesterday will fade and tomorrow will take care of itself. Lord, help me

today

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[Guest guest]

dear sue,

i am so srry tt your ex has given yu so much grief. and o hink he left

you becaue of your rp. i gues it makes me grateful that my husbandis

tstill here althoug last summer he in act left (only overnight thought

before he decided to come home--tht is a story in itselfand a very sad

one suffice it to say i know a well as youdo that stres agravatesour

condition and som tms the people in or lives jus don't get that.

unfortnately i hae ost a lo f freds since i have gotten sick. the just

don't know what to say, or get angry o feel helless or whatever. but it

des hurt. i am glad you fund a " wonderullyy spportive " man to shar yor

life. hopefully it will make it easier fr you.

i hope you t good news at amyo. i know at tis point hat i cannot touch

m chin to my chest an breathe ecaue my trachea i so flacid. but i am no

hurry for anoter broncoscopy. i hate the, next tme i hav one i tink i

will deand tht they put me out.

just remember we are here for you take care

love

denise

[Guest guest]

dear sue,

i ave been on a spiritual journey al f my life. and i want to share

few things. it is what i have come o believe. it is only the way i

look at it and may not mak sense to anyone else. but here goes. i o

not bleivegod s caued ayf this. i bleive that god givesman free will

and becuae o that we all make coices in this worlk. when bad things

happen o me i do not blieve that god caused them or gves hem to us s tat

we can " learn something fom it " or s that anyone els can learn

something. i cannt believe in a god that woul be cruel to let say abuse

happen o an icnnocent child so tat tey or somene else can learn

something (thatis what i was raised to believe

i now believe tat hings happen beaue people make choices, such as buse

or becuse tey are in our geneicsor are a cobination of our enitics plus

environmental triggers. what i do believe is that te god of my

understanding HELPS me et hroug he day no matter what it brins. when

as him everyday to help me he does. when woke up paralyzed last year

fromthe neck down and could not talk (becaue o the trach) i rememberin

sayin gto myself, sorta to god " ou better get down here----tis is a

biggee "

there is a book that i read many years ago an periodically reread it

that helps. it is written by a rabbi wo struggled with the question of

faith aon god when his only son had a disabling and terminal condition.

it was very helpful to me . it is called WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD

PEOPLE by Kusner. it sure has helped me ut a perspective on things..

my praers are with yo

love

denise

[Guest guest]

, I cannot tell you how much your posts mean to me. I'm sooooo sorry

that you have to suffer as you do but you are such an inspiration to me.

God bless you my dear and my prayers are with you

God love you,

Jo

Re: what happen to Sue the RN?

>From: dlbmo@... ( Bigham)

>

>dear sue,

>i am so srry tt your ex has given yu so much grief. and o hink he left

>you becaue of your rp. i gues it makes me grateful that my husbandis

>tstill here althoug last summer he in act left (only overnight thought

>before he decided to come home--tht is a story in itselfand a very sad

>one suffice it to say i know a well as youdo that stres agravatesour

>condition and som tms the people in or lives jus don't get that.

>unfortnately i hae ost a lo f freds since i have gotten sick. the just

>don't know what to say, or get angry o feel helless or whatever. but it

>des hurt. i am glad you fund a " wonderullyy spportive " man to shar yor

>life. hopefully it will make it easier fr you.

>

>i hope you t good news at amyo. i know at tis point hat i cannot touch

>m chin to my chest an breathe ecaue my trachea i so flacid. but i am no

>hurry for anoter broncoscopy. i hate the, next tme i hav one i tink i

>will deand tht they put me out.

>

>just remember we are here for you take care

>love

>denise

>

>

>---------------------------

[Guest guest]

I have that book and it is good. You keep you faith in God. He will be

with you always

Jo

Re: what happen to Sue the RN?

>From: dlbmo@... ( Bigham)

>

>dear sue,

>i ave been on a spiritual journey al f my life. and i want to share

>few things. it is what i have come o believe. it is only the way i

>look at it and may not mak sense to anyone else. but here goes. i o

>not bleivegod s caued ayf this. i bleive that god givesman free will

>and becuae o that we all make coices in this worlk. when bad things

>happen o me i do not blieve that god caused them or gves hem to us s tat

>we can " learn something fom it " or s that anyone els can learn

>something. i cannt believe in a god that woul be cruel to let say abuse

>happen o an icnnocent child so tat tey or somene else can learn

>something (thatis what i was raised to believe

>

>i now believe tat hings happen beaue people make choices, such as buse

>or becuse tey are in our geneicsor are a cobination of our enitics plus

>environmental triggers. what i do believe is that te god of my

>understanding HELPS me et hroug he day no matter what it brins. when

>as him everyday to help me he does. when woke up paralyzed last year

>fromthe neck down and could not talk (becaue o the trach) i rememberin

>sayin gto myself, sorta to god " ou better get down here----tis is a

>biggee "

>

>there is a book that i read many years ago an periodically reread it

>that helps. it is written by a rabbi wo struggled with the question of

>faith aon god when his only son had a disabling and terminal condition.

>it was very helpful to me . it is called WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD

>PEOPLE by Kusner. it sure has helped me ut a perspective on things..

>my praers are with yo

>love

>denise

>

>

>---------------------------

[Guest guest]

dear denise, my gosh girl, this has brought me

straight to my knees.

Bless you and all that you are which is an awesome

inspiration!

love

nancie

--- Bigham wrote:

> dear sue,

> i ave been on a spiritual journey al f my life. and

> i want to share

> few things. it is what i have come o believe. it

> is only the way i

> look at it and may not mak sense to anyone else.

> but here goes. i o

> not bleivegod s caued ayf this. i bleive that god

> givesman free will

> and becuae o that we all make coices in this worlk.

> when bad things

> happen o me i do not blieve that god caused them or

> gves hem to us s tat

> we can " learn something fom it " or s that anyone

> els can learn

> something. i cannt believe in a god that woul be

> cruel to let say abuse

> happen o an icnnocent child so tat tey or somene

> else can learn

> something (thatis what i was raised to believe

>

> i now believe tat hings happen beaue people make

> choices, such as buse

> or becuse tey are in our geneicsor are a cobination

> of our enitics plus

> environmental triggers. what i do believe is that

> te god of my

> understanding HELPS me et hroug he day no matter

> what it brins. when

> as him everyday to help me he does. when woke up

> paralyzed last year

> fromthe neck down and could not talk (becaue o the

> trach) i rememberin

> sayin gto myself, sorta to god " ou better get down

> here----tis is a

> biggee "

>

> there is a book that i read many years ago an

> periodically reread it

> that helps. it is written by a rabbi wo struggled

> with the question of

> faith aon god when his only son had a disabling and

> terminal condition.

> it was very helpful to me . it is called WHEN BAD

> THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD

> PEOPLE by Kusner. it sure has helped me ut a

> perspective on things..

> my praers are with yo

> love

> denise

>

>

=====

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to what you don't say.

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[Guest guest]

THANKS ANGIE.... I'm back from MAYO which I will tell all of you about when I

have some more time.... TOMORROW.... I'm okay and I basically had a good

report..... Just a lot of insurance problems that hindered the success of my

trip and added an incredible amount of stress to it and my life.... BUT oh

well.... what else is GOD going to send my

way????????????????????????????????????? I'll fill you all in soon....

SUE

[Guest guest]

Thanks for your encouraging words.... The group has become very

important to me!!!!!!!!!!!

SUE

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 02/08/2000 1:56:22 AM Eastern Standard Time,

SUE7RN@... writes:

<< THANKS ANGIE.... I'm back from MAYO which I will tell all of you about

when I

have some more time.... TOMORROW.... I'm okay and I basically had a good

report..... Just a lot of insurance problems that hindered the success of my

trip and added an incredible amount of stress to it and my life.... BUT oh

well.... what else is GOD going to send my

way????????????????????????????????????? I'll fill you all in soon....

SUE

----- >>

Sue

the insurance company has increased my stress level so much in the past few

months it is incredible. so I know what you mean please write me and let me

know how it all turned out, or should I say turned out for as far as you got

before the insurance hassles

Love and Gentle Hugs,

Angie

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[Guest guest]

Sue, glad that basically you had a good report from Mayo. Hang in there!

You mentioned the insurance problems that hindered the success of your trip.

Does that mean you will return to Mayo Clinic when that gets worked through?

Love and God Bless, Ronnie

<< I'm back from MAYO which I will tell all of you about

when I

have some more time.... TOMORROW.... I'm okay and I basically had a good

report..... Just a lot of insurance problems that hindered the success of

my

trip and added an incredible amount of stress to it and my life.... BUT oh

well.... what else is GOD going to send my

way????????????????????????????????????? I'll fill you all in soon....

SUE >>