why do i seem to have every condition discussed here??

April 8, 2005

Hi everyone,

I've been wanting to respond to each post lately because everything

really seems to apply to me. I guess that I have some superhuman

ability to have everything wrong with my body.

When I was 16, I was raped by my boyfriend at the time and it caused a

herniated disc (L-5 S-1). Even though I had immense sciatica pain, I

didn't do anything for about 6 months because I was scared that the

doctors would ask how it happened and I didn't want to incriminate my

boyfriend. Finally, it got to the point where I could barely stand

because I couldn't feel my leg or foot and so I started the medical

process. Nothing worked and so I ended up having surgery right after

i turned 17. As you can imagine, this left me with a very big complex

about sexual intimacy and pain. Now, three years later with the

vestibulitis and a wonderful boyfriend of 2 and a half years, I feel

like that fear of pain is really adding on to the condition. I

haven't been doing my back exercises like I should, maybe that is part

of the reason why the vestibulitis is so bad? I do still get tingling

and numbness occasionally.

Also, I am an Ashkanazi (there really is no good English spelling)

Jewish woman with horrible allergies. I told my mom and grandma that

there was a connection between this and they were not surprised

As my grandma said " Oy, if it's not Hitler then it's vaginal

conditions. It's always something with us Jews. Why us??? " I have

been taking Claritin and Singular since I was about 7. My allergies

are much worse now that I am in college (UC Santa Cruz-very beautiful

but in the forest) and so I am doing weekly allergy shots.

I really admire all of the women in this group who have been dealing

with this for so long. It has only been a year for me but the stress

it is causing on me and certainly my relationship is intense. It

really is amazing how everyone here is still functioning and still so

hopeful about finding treatments. It gives me courage and i want to

thank you all for that.

" A woman is like a tea bag, you never know how strong she is until she

gets in hot water "

--Eleanor Roosevelt

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