Re: Does ANYONE out there have a child with this description??

[Guest guest]

Deborah, Thank you for such a beautiful message. How true and well said

I will print this and keep it in my file. Often we should be reminded to

walk a mile in someone else's shoes. THANKS!!!! S.B. Loyd

-----Original Message-----

Hi ,

I agree with both of these posts .

I also have an autistic son whose main problems arise from

vaccination . I just have a few thoughts....

I think that Ann was actually expressing that some mercury damaged

children are " very sick " - Not saying that autism is a sickness.

My autistic son was sick ( loose bowels, dark circles under the

eyes , impervious to pain , violent, unhappy - probably from the

discomfort he was in that he was unable to express). When I treated

his vaccine related problems his 'sickness' was dealt with and he is

now a very healthy little boy. He is autistic still but healthy. I

think that is what Ann meant - not that autism is a sickness per se.

As for grades of diagnosis , degrees of pain . Surely we must not go

there. A diagnosis is what it is . Would I have been happier or

sadder if Charlie had had cancer ? How could I possibly judge unlesss

I have lived it. And the views and experiences of one person - with

great respect - mean absoloutely to another . I know parents of

mildly ASD children who privately confesss that had they known they

would have terminated their pregnancy - whilst I know mothers who

radiate strength and joy in the face of coping with a severly

disabled child and honestly express their child to be the light in

their life . Most of us live somewhere in between those two . And

many of us drift in our feelings and emotions at different times and

in different circumstances .

I love Charlie - he is a joy to be with , a small angel dancing

through my day - but I know he will still be here when I am gone and

I fear for how he will cope without me. Do I love him as he is ? Yes

with all my might . Would I take his autism if I could ? In a

heartbeat. He copes without the sympathy or empathy that an illness

generates and as he gets older the staring and commenting and his

isolation from the world in general will only increase. The world is

too intolerant for him . But that is their loss.

I can't compare my life with Charlie to that of a mother with a

terminally ill child - I would not dream of trying.

But the arguement that terminal illness must inevitably be worse is

simplistic and surely cannot be productive.

The fact that we cope with what life sends us is the test - and how

fantastic that we all do . And we not only cope but support each

other. I find role models around me now and when people say to me " I

couldn't cope with what you have to " I always have to quietly laugh

and think oh yes you could - if you have to you could - you have no

choice . Love gives you no choice

Best regards

Deborah D