and the Very Bad/Horrible FMS Day!

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Yesterday, I could feel some funny aches here and there. I have been

really fatigued lately. I thought it was from the tail end of a

virus I have been trying to shake. Nah... Today is the most

miserable I have felt in such a long time! It really depresses me to

know it can come back like this with little or no warning and knock

me off my feet. My body aches and it's the old equal on both sides

type of thing. Both thumbs, both feet, both hips, lower back. And

all I want to do is sleep. This thing.. it's wearing me down

lately. I have 30 people coming here for dinner on Saturday night.

I am responsible for providing the seating, wine/beer and water/and

making the main course (lasagna) while all the other people bring the

rest of the dinner. Usually I wouldn't give this much worry, but

today? I'm wishing I had never said yes and am praying that after

resting most of the day and going to bed early tonight that I will be

better in the morning. I know it's not the worst, nor the end, blah,

blah, blah, but this FMS is so bizarre. It makes me feel so damaged

even after so many years. I want to be like everyone else! I want to

be able to say that I'll meet a friend at a yoga class or be able to

committ to something a month before. But we never know, do we? I'm

drowning today. Honest to God, I'm really drowning...