ice cream

[Guest guest]

Hi

Ok, so I decided that what I really really wanted for lunch was ice

cream. I didn't have any in the house so I had to go to the store and

get some. Right away, I started to fell wrong. I thought that it

would " look bad " if I only went in and bought stuff for an ice cream

sundae. I know that if I were thin I wouldn't think twice about it.

Like anyone at the supermarket cares what I buy. I know it isall in my

head and still I had to buy lettuce (for the guinea pigs) and peanut

butter so it wouldn't just look like ice cream. Also, on theway to the

store, as all this is going through my head I started to feel really

lonely. I know these are feelings from my childhood. Wow, this is

rather challenging. Even still, I did eat my ice cream for lunch. I

may have eaten a little more than I would have liked but it didn't lead

to a binge. I had exactly what I wanted. I don't feel the need to eat

anything else. And now I won't eat until I'm hungry again. So, I

think I'm getting there little by little. I can give myself credit for

that.

Carol